Jaa: What’s there to take? The experiment has just revealed its purpose. We don’t have to worry about contagion anymore… I know what this femdom lifestyle wants.
Ronnie: What does it want?
Jaa: It wants to… turn me into something else. That’s not too terrible is it? Most people would give anything to be turned into something else.
Ronnie: Turned into what?
Jaa: Whaddaya think? Immortally beautiful? Am I becoming a 28 yo goddess? No, I’m becoming something that never existed before. I’m becoming… Not-Jaa. Heh. Don’t you think that’s worth a Nobel Prize or two?
Ronnie: I don’t know what you’re trying to say.
Jaa: I’m saying… I’m saying I – I’m a woman who dreamt she was a mistress and loved it. But now the dream is over… and the insect is awake.
Ronnie: No. no, Jaa…
Jaa: I’m saying… I’ll hurt you if you say i’m a Mistress.
Computer: [displays presence of primary and secondary session elements]
Jaa: [typing] If primary element is Jaa, what is secondary element?
Computer: Secondary element is not-Jaa.
Jaa: Run sequence.
Computer: [identifies secondary element as Mistress Jaa]
Jaa: [typing] If secondary element is Mistress Jaa, what happened to Mistress Jaa?
Jaa: [typing] Assimilation? Did Jaa absorb Mistress Jaa?
Computer: Negative. Fusion of Jaa and Mistress Jaa at molecular-genetic level.
March 17, 2011
“Be careful Jaa that this job does not consume you and your real identity. It’ll be easy to forget who you are, and become a fusion of the two at some point.”
Lou Mannheim: Man looks in the abyss, there’s nothing staring back at him. At that moment, man finds his character. And that is what keeps him out of the abyss.
Lost? That’s a fusion of dialogue from the movie The Fly and my mind. I’m trying to get across to you the reason that my friend the original Jaa decided enough is enough and moved on with her life. She promised me yesterday that before December I’ll regret taking over from her because I’ll completely lose myself.
That would awful, I like who I am. Outside of being a Goddess I’m actually sweet, I believe in love, and I love to accomplish goals. I’ll heed her warning because that email from her first client is ominous, it was so foretelling that I have to respect it.