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  • Mistress – In the Ring – With the Rope

    Mistress – In the Ring – With the Rope

    As I write this it is almost 3:30am early Monday morning and in just a few short hours the gym manager – or the cross fit manager , whomever opens the gym first is going to happen upon an uncleaned stain of blood on the boxing ring mat which is going to go unexplained … unless they happen upon this blog entry somehow.  While it might be happenstance that I was present at the hour it occurred, I must admit that I am the guilty party who caused said stain and the pent up guilt amassed from Sunday afternoon is now unconscionable.

    Umm,  the guilt being how good it felt to extract a pound of his blood.  There is, as of yet , no remorse for my actions.  Sad really, meaning me – i’m a sad lot, sitting here for the last few hours with two fingers buried up my pussy masturbating my ass off to how good yesterday afternoon was for me sexually.

    Have you ever had a dream that lasts the duration of the night , one where you are somehow aware of not only the length of your fantasy but as your mind unveils the astonishing twists and turns you acknowledge from a far the bizarre nature of each unexpected story plot revelation?  That’s the best way I can describe the set of events that brought about my first ever session that was not at all a session, but a dare with a stranger who took the dare at face value and followed through by showing up … thus calling my bluff , and what happened thereafter unfolded like one of those all night dreams, getting stranger by the moment.

    This all began a week ago when I hit the boiling point on my vacation that started out with my closest girlfriends, ‘the fab 5’ as I have named us on my Line group , which is really just four now as the one stricken with Leukemia can no longer travel along with us.  She was who we visited at the hospital hours before we all got on the bus and headed north for our vacation together and the effects of seeing her like that left the four us in absolute silence for the first few hours of the bus ride as we each sat self reflecting inside our own minds , not a one of us caring to share our thoughts to the others, it was quite surreal and a very damp beginning to our upcoming three weeks together.

    I would never have consented to this trip had my August sessions been of the normal Tease & Denial sort , but they were anything but.

    The fact is that this life as a mistress, no matter how hard one tries to rebuke it, creates a Jekyll and Hyde conundrum where I am challenged to be vastly different in moral character from one situation to the next.  The Jekyll of me is the seductress, the sweet erotic girl that tantalizes her subjects with this hot body of mine but derives vast amounts of pleasure in depriving these horned up men from getting but a drop of the pudding they desire.

    But then I get session requests like this that stir the Hyde within:

     

    extreme session request

     

    The two words that kill that session request are “i need” , do you know why?  I pride myself on being able to bypass all the shallow fantasy requests, using their verbiage only to extract the very thing that they truly need and then secretly delivering that need within the course of the session.  At the very least that kind of session when successfully executed is therapeutic, while at the most – they are life altering.  Admittedly, I’ve only managed to hit the latter a number of times that I can still count with fingers, but it’s fun as hell to shoot for the stars because men don’t mind it when I miss.

    When somebody simply comes out and says they need torture, it’s all too easy to give them what they want, collect the 10 g’s , and go shopping two hours later.  There’s no transference, and for this job to be fulfilling there has to be transference of some sort.  August, or in particular the last two weeks of that month were riddled with blatant torture requests, all of which I accepted because I knew I wouldn’t be working for the greater part of September so I accepted the cash grab.  If you’ve read my prior work, you know already how much I deplore cash grab sessions.  Now I could have sat down and written a synopsis of each session but it would amount to nothing more than shock porn , abuse without reason.  If there’s no reason behind one’s actions, you get stuff like this:

     

     

    Why is he there?  How did he get in her bed in the first place?  Who is he?  What’s his motive?

    There’s no answer for any of the above because it is what it is , a 20 year old film student’s shallow shock horror mind at work.  For the most part last month that’s all I was doing, engaging the Hyde side of my character without exploring the depths of that side of me.  After a while that shit becomes like a white cop beating up on a black dude for no reason, it’s shit and it’s wrong.  Thus, I was happy to get away from it all even if it meant spending three weeks fighting with my other figurative demon : tolerating Thai people.

    I can’t.  For the life of me, I can’t tolerate Thai people.  Particularly, Thai girls that I grew up with in the village for their minds are a twisting nether of emptiness and I cannot tolerate conversations that don’t extend beyond what’s good to eat, what was eaten last night, and what was eaten the week before.  While it’s true that I crave company, my albatross is the absence of intellectual company available in this country.  I’d rather spend my nights alone reading a book or watching a movie than engaging in meaningless conversation.  The email I covet the most are the ones asking for a dinner session, I love nothing more in life than to sit and talk to you guys for two short hours, not wanting to ever leave the restaurant for the stimulation of exciting conversation to me is timeless.

    So two short weeks into our getaway I made an excuse that I needed to leave our party to visit Jaa for a few days since we were at that moment in the same city.  In truth, I can never bring myself to drop in on somebody unannounced so while I did talk to former Mistress Jaa, I told her I’d be passing by in a few days and asked if she’d like to see me.  That left me three days alone in Chiang Mai to find something to do and I got this crazy idea to drop in on an MMA camp to practice my Muay Thai with someone other than my private trainer who I’ve been exclusively with for the past year.

    Walking into an MMA camp is a crass move na!  It either takes balls of which I am lacking or a generous helping of not giving a fuck what men think because I can tell you that the looks I got as I strode into their Muay Thai area was similar to how Caesar was treated when first introduced to his monkey counterparts in Rise of the Planet of the Apes.

     

     

    I know the difference between “look, pussy to bang” which is what I feel when I walk into a dance club, and “hey, intruder” – which was the looks on the guys faces as I sat down at ring side and waited for one of the three teachers in the ring to finish holding pads and come talk to me.  A situation made all the more uncomfortable that same evening when nobody wanted to roll with me at the end of jiu jitsu class.  In fact, during the instructional part of the class I had no partner to square off with until a smallish asian dude walked in thirty minutes late and shrugged his shoulders at the lone girl sitting and watching the others practicing the building the house technique that nobody wanted to do with me.

    You’d think there would be a line up of buff dudes waiting to jump on my back and ride me , but fighters are a strange lot , either they’re all gay or they have no interest in anything potentially sexy while training.  Fact is, they’re all alpha-male aggressive types and I think because I’ve been dominating the submissive subset so much in the past 3 years they can sense that I’m not a proper match for them.

    Except for this asian dude that had to team up with me.  I could tell right off the bat he wasn’t of the same ilk as the others.  Perhaps it was his long styled jet black hair which hung like that of a magazine model or his Batman logo’d rash guard t-shirt , he just didn’t seem like a guy who would step into a cage and fight to the death with another warrior.  As well, he was the only one who was really dialed into me, the way he ate up everything I said, and how he was ever leaning forward – body language for a girl is everything.

    Even when we fought, he was noticeably gentle with me , taking care not to do anything that would bruise me and it felt very much like any one of the wrestling sessions I’ve had with the submissive guys who come to see me at my condo back in Bangkok.

    That night, after everyone had showered and the other fighters had retreated to their rooms or to their tents we sat by the food table under the stars talking deep into the night.  It was then that he told me he had an upcoming fight at a university campus in Bangkok the following week and that even though he wanted to back out of it, he had committed himself to going.

    “Well why go if you don’t actually want to fight?” I asked him.

    “I have to,  I want to show these guys I belong” he answered with a dejected tone to his voice, barely making eye contact with me as he spoke.

    “So you just want to get your face marked up is that it?”

    “I guess” he laughed.

    The opportunity to open the door of possibility appeared before my eyes and all I did was let him entertain the thought of where this could go by saying, “you don’t have to fight you know, if you just appear like you’ve been in a fight, that would be enough.”

    “Ya I saw that Jim Carrey movie too, I’d like to think I’m above beating the shit out of myself.”

    “What you need is someone to beat you up for fun.” I said with a smile.

    “Like who, you?” he answered back with a laugh.

    “Ya like me … exactly like me.”

    “Excuse me but you couldn’t hurt a fly, sorry for saying.”

    Well fuck you for dissing me like that I thought , memories of the last three sessions shot through my mind , I could see the similarly small Italian guy writhing in pain , his face swimming in his own vomit as he wormed his way across my living room floor with his hands bound behind him unable to grasp his painfully swollen balls.  I casually looked up towards the stars and saw instead the image of the fifty year old Indian dude who wrote that email above, passed out and slumped over hanging by his bound hands on my bathroom door.  The third bloke, a fat as fuck English dude in his early thirties cried out his safe word a mere two minutes into his session.  None of the three had any resemblance to that of a fly.

    two of diamonds femdom bdsmI took one of the pens laying on the table and wrote on the front of a two of diamonds playing card , handing it to him when I was finished.

    “You show up at this address , at 4pm next Sunday , and I guarantee you’ll have the hottest ass whooping of your life” and as I said that I flicked his nose with my forefinger.

    “Did you just flick me?” he said rubbing his nose.

    “Ya, I always flick flies” and with that I picked up my backpack of sweaty Muay Thai clothes and walked back to the room I rented for the weekend.

    For the next two days though we saw each other frequently, we hardly spoke as one by one the other fighters came and introduced themselves to me once they saw I was showing up to all three sessions during the day and evening.  I caught the early morning Monday bus back home, leaving without saying farewell to anyone.  The looks I got at the bus terminal were priceless.  I was the topic of whispers from everyone as they stole glances over their shoulder at my deeply bruised shins, my slightly swollen right eye which had the bruise to go with it, and the red rash I was sporting around my neck from being choked out so often.  To them I was grabbing the early bus to escape while my abusive husband still slept in his bed.  To me I was bathing in the painful aftermath of being a fighter for a weekend, and enjoying every inch of hurt muscle.

    The following week I was too busy to meet up with my trainer as I had a myriad of appointments to attend to.  As much as I love my fitness, if it comes down to a choice of getting my pussy hair laser removed or hitting pads – I’ll opt for the hair removal every single time.  Envision that you horny freaks !

    My next private Muay Thai session I had set up at my coaches gym instead of my condo.  One reason is that there is now a lot of movement incorporated into my sessions and the narrow gym at my condo doesn’t accommodate such freedom of movement.  A second reason is that the gym is more like an abandoned airplane hangar , and it’s hotter than hell there especially when training in the mid afternoon , it can get over 40C which facilitates an awfully sweaty workout.  Even if it’s just water coming off, it’s nice to step on the scale thereafter and grab a reading that’s dangerously close to 40 kilos.

    The only time I ever consent to working out at the gym however is on Sunday afternoon because the place is dead and I can’t stand anyone else staring at me when I’m sweaty.  It closes down at 3pm so normally I schedule my training session for 2pm , thankfully it’s the rainy season now and the pouring rain we get in the mid afternoon makes the temperature a bit more bearable as I do my punching and kicking routine.

     

    bdsm gym femdom pain

     

    He worked me so hard this time that when the eighth and final round of 3 minutes ended I collapsed in the middle of the ring and I lay there motionless as my Thai trainer shuffled off to the the shower laughing in a Mr. Miyagi kind of way.  When he reemerged from the shower room 20 minutes later I was still passed out on the boxing ring mat, i was sincerely that tired.

    I saw him glance at his watch, Thai’s are too kind to say what’s on their mind , and I could see he was thinking it’d be a while yet before I was showered and ready to go.  In Thai I told him to lock the front door and that I’d crawl under the steel bay door which locks as it closes.  My coach walked over to where the enormous bay door of which there are seven lay ajar three feet off the ground to see if it would lock and when it did he reopened it and waved goodbye to me as he slipped underneath.

    Moments later I sat up and rolled over to the edge of the ring where I began taking off my blue hand wraps that were soaked in sweat.  I had worn them for so long that my knuckles had the “old woman with wrinkly skin” look , the kind you get when you go swimming for too long.  The echo of my shin pad straps reverberated around the hangar sized gym when i ripped them open and kicked my pads to the jiu jitsu mat down below.

    I was swigging a gulp of my awful tasting water and orange flavored electrolyte mixture when I saw a pair of legs over where the hangar bay door was opened only to knee height.  Then when the body bent over and a head popped underneath I laughed when i saw it was my asian friend from Chiang Mai gazing in with his eyes wide open when he saw me sitting across the way.

    “Is anyone here?” he said, and then he froze in his footsteps just after he crawled in adding “can I come in?”

    “Upto you” i replied, “it’s your ass whooping party, you can either invite yourself or uninvite yourself.” quite aware of how coy I had made that sound as I uttered it.

    the walking dead femdom bdsmNow the word ‘fighter’ carries a connotation with it that invokes images of finely chiseled muscular men , so let’s set the record straight here , my asian boy looked a heck of a lot like Glen from The Walking Dead , except he had Harry Potter type hair.  While most men tower above me my little Glen Potter and I almost saw eye to eye , let’s call it eye to nose , and if we had a flex-off competition it’d be a dead heat.

    I hadn’t given a moment of thought to what I might do to him or how I would set it up but as I looked around the cavernous gym every machine to me looked like a great torture device.   I swallowed a silent curse at not bringing my ankle or wrist restraints because it’s been my dream to suspend a naked man in mid air and the racks at the gym were a mistress’s dream come true for such a thing.  On the free weight side of the gym dangled 4 sets of Olympic gymnastic rings perfectly spaced for dangling a man horizontally with the floor but I’d never get him down in time if someone walked in on us.

    “What if someone comes” he said eerily stealing the same thought right from my mind.

    “Then we need to work quickly” I surmised and snatched his foot from the floor laying it to rest on the first rung of the rope that encloses the boxing ring.  It was a flawed idea , but a great one in my mind as I had intended to suspend him by his hands and legs from the ring ropes using all the hand wraps laying around except the space between limbs and rope as he dangled made it too easy for him to slip a limb out so out the window went ten minutes of set up time.

    Instead, I walked him over to the MMA ring which stood beside the gate which was ajar and settled for tying him spread eagle like using the same hand wraps.  When I was done he was crucified , leaning forward about 30 degrees from the taunt ring ropes , with a huge bulge in his pants which needed to be taken care of promptly.

    “Can’t have any of that” I said while giving it a feel through his silky white Muay Thai boxing shorts.

    “This is hot, you’re a bit unreal, have you done something like this before?”

    “Many many times” I said while hunting around for a pair of MMA gloves that actually fit me.  I found a pristine unused pair of the tiniest fighting mitts I’ve ever seen with the word Venom written across the knuckles.

    “This is so twisted, it’s like 50 shades of grey , but you’re … you’re him , kind of, I guess.”

    My foot caught him unaware as I had raised my knee and flicked out a front snap kick that landed flush with the underside of his nuts causing him to buckle and test the knots of my straps which yielded slightly but held him suspended in place.

    pow“Fuck” he squeaked and looked up , first annoyed , and then a moment of shock as his eyes met my jab followed by my right straight that landed with a surprising thud , surprising from my point of view because the sound wasn’t anything like the umpteen times I’ve hit my trainers pads.  It didn’t sound like the movies either that trains one to think a punch sounds like a Thwack! from the old 70’s Batman TV show.

    I’ve only ever worn boxing gloves when I train , a pair of black ones that I bought from the FBT sports store here in Bangkok , the weight of which has always slowed my punches down.  These MMA gloves were pretty much weightless and I surprised myself with the crispness of my right straight which had landed with a dull thud on his left eye.

    “Ow, wait, fuck, what the fuck, my balls, fuck.” he moaned while waving his index finger on both tied up hands at me to stop.

    I was so excited at the purity of the situation that I couldn’t stop dancing on my toes in front of him.  This was so perfectly impromptu , and perfectly unexpected by him that the moment had a pristine purity that made it hellacious fun for me.   I decided to try out the roundhouse Muay Thai kick , the one that had given my shins a permanent set of bruises over the past year.  I was sensitive that a kick would hurt ten times more so than a punch so I let one fly at half speed but when it made contact with the side of his face I yelped at the pain equally as much as he did.

    A second later I was writhing on the mat in pain clutching at my shin , totally aware suddenly that bone on bone hurts far more than bone on foam.  When the pain subsided and I looked up my eyes popped open at the river of blood pouring out from his nose.

    “I did that?”

    “Fucking what do you think?  Fucking untie me, fuck.”

    I thought for a second and squatted down in front of him, taking a long moment before I simply said “no, not yet.”

    “Cunt, fuck, untie me, now, right fucking now.”

    Instead I grabbed a feel for his dick through his shorts and found a feeble small object where but a few moments before stood a raging boner.

    “What happened to your hard cock?”

    “Look at the mat , fuck my cock, fuck you. look”

    I glanced at the pool of blood accumulating on the mat and after admiring my work let loose another roundhouse that caught him square across his abs.

    “You survive one round with me , and I’ll take care of your cock for you after, deal?”

    Now that’s a real life Merchant of Venice type of offer right there , I’m basically offering him enjoyment for his dick in exchange for a pound of his blood instead of a pound of his flesh as was the agreed upon deal in the book.  To encourage him to say yes I picked up the tiny black remote , pointed it at the timer clock and hit the combination ‘set … 3 … begin’ which my trainer does when he begins a 3 minute round with me.

    The clock emitted the three countdown beeps it does as it prepares for the round, and then emitted the long beep accompanied by the countdown from 3 minutes.

    “Yes?” I asked.  Blood from his nose leaked onto my forearm as I held his chin up to look me in the eye.

    He paused a moment looking at the timer countdown through 2:52, 2:51 … then whispered to me “don’t hurt me too much more ok?”

    That submission is what’s known as Carte Blanche , permission to do anything in any way I choose.  I felt like Negan from The Walking Dead , with two minutes and 40 seconds of the absolute power to beat the holy hell out of this kid.  The best part of it was that it was unscripted , I had simply coerced this situation out of a guy who I sensed could be manipulated in such a way and my suspicions were precisely correct.

    I didn’t hit him, not even once.

    Sorry to put a shrieking eel moment into this but if I didn’t, it’d be a story and not a proper recount of events.

    I guess i had a limp dick moment , you know , the moment where you’ve gotten the go-ahead to get to home plate with a girl and for whatever reason your dick decides to not co-operate with you.  Perhaps it’s because the reality is far less exciting than the expectation, or maybe it’s due to over thinking things , I don’t know what goes in a guys head at that moment, but for me it was definitely this : I had a stark realization that I was play acting this moment up so that I could have something great to write for in this blog.

    I had a “fuck, who does shit like this?” moment in my mind while looking at this guy who willingly let me tie him to the ropes and was consenting to letting me beat him up a bit – all because for sure it turned him on and who knows , maybe he thought he’d bang me right there in the gym if things went well for him.  I stood before him just thinking of what could I do to enhance the plot line of what was happening , it was like a fourth wall break in a movie and it ruined the whole moment.  I decided to just come clean with him right there and then by saying “you know, I’m a mistress, in my bdsm world , this is what I do , stuff like this, just sayin’ ”

    “No shit” he replied in such an unclear way that I don’t know whether he meant it as an interrogative statement as in “no shit?, really?” or whether it was a statement in the order of “no shit sherlock.”

    “Ya” i simply said as I unbound his left arm and then walked over to his right arm to do the same.

    “Like, what do you do in a situation like that?” he asked and I caught a note of dissatisfaction from being untied.

    “Ballbusting, tickling, teasing , wax torture, nipple torture, or basically you name anything that comes across your imagination and I’ve done it, guaranteed.”

    I sat down in the ring in front of him thinking mostly about how this is so similar to a conversation a dude conjures up when his dick won’t work so that he can buy time to think.  This “bdsm moment” was so far off the rails now it had degenerated into a static moment devoid of emotion on my part.  I didn’t feel like a mistress because he wasn’t a customer , I just felt like a girl with a twisted perversion that she failed to follow through on.  In fact, as I just wrote that sentence, it makes sense now , I was sort of looking at myself in the third person at that moment.  Sort of like “let’s look in on what this mistress like character chooses to do in this situation.”  Bizarre.

    Then I started thinking about how muted my blog has been the past few months as I look to post only the most dramatic recount of events and because I choose to treat my blog like that , there is this pressure to seek out sessions or moments that are extreme and uncommon.

    “What would you do to me?” he asked suddenly, interrupting my introspective thought process.

    “I’d spank you.” I replied frankly.

    “Why spanking?”

    “I don’t know, cuz , your ass is cute so it’s spankable, perhaps it’s that” and I blew upwards at my hair to remove it from dabbling in my right eye.

    “Cool.”

    “I’m not gonna spank you though, I get paid well for doing shit like that and you’re broke as fuck.”

    Then he said “damn” and it was the way he said it that immediately interested me, that one small word was so full of dejection and whereas everything that I had done to that moment was trite, his single word was genuine.

    The stagnant afternoon air seeped in heat was causing us to sweat profusely and the “tit … tat … tat” sound of our drops of sweat dripping onto the mat where the blood had seeped into the canvas was the only sound at that particular moment.  I walked over to one of the two water coolers by the blue corner of the ring and it just happened to be that laying on the black padded floor was a thin red plastic skipping rope.

    I bent over to pick it up and caught him stealing a look down my sweat covered cleavage which had turned the front of my grey low cut t-shirt soaking wet.  Tossing the skipping rope onto the canvas at his feet I said “turn around and spread your legs” pausing for a moment, and finished the sentence with “if … this is truly what you want.”

    So he did just that , he turned around and put his hands on the top rope of the ring while spreading his legs.

    “Pull down the back of your shorts just enough so your ass is exposed, leave your dick covered because this has nothing to do with your cock.”

    “Holy shit is this going to hurt?” he asked.

    “If you talk again, even once, I’ll leave.”

    With his two thumbs he pulled his white Muay Thai shorts down under his ass cheek so that the gold trimmed tight elastic waist pushed his ass cheeks both together and upwards so that it looked unbearably cute from my point of view.

    I folded the red skipping rope in half, grabbing it by the two black handles and spun it in a circle so that the “whoop whoop whoop” sound of the air filled the cavernous gym.  He moaned a bit at the sound.

     

    blood-ring

     

    Usually when I whip a guy I break him in easy starting softly so that the first few multiple strikes serve only to redden the ass and heighten the sensitivity of the area.  However, I chose my first crack at his ass to be a full-on baseball like swing that made me lose my footing and as I teetered off to the left the crack of the plastic on his ass echoed – a bit too loudly – off the metal walls of the place.

    He gasped breathing in , also uncommon as most guys shout with an expiration of breath.  The muffled scream getting lost in his throat.

    “That one … was for my blog.” I said knowing he’d have no idea what I meant.  It’s just that, even as I hit him, I was keenly aware that I’d be writing about it and as much as I wanted to strike him while in the first person , I couldn’t shake myself out of this third person view of what I was doing.

    “This one … is for me” and with cruelty i looped my swing down and up catching him with a crack right in the middle of his balls.

    This time he shrieked and slumped to his knees, his arms remaining outstretched above him.  He crossed his legs and pretzled his body twisting it first toward me and the completely around in a circle causing his arms to criss cross while being held firmly in the blue straps from above.

    “Enough, I can’t , no more, please” he begged.

    What he had done, by twisting on the floor like that, is he had covered himself in that blood stain and his once white ass was streaked in red right down to where his shorts dangled from his knees.

    That in turn had spread the once icky but neatly placed stain into a smear across the corner of the ring and I then felt like a kid who had spilled and shattered the cookie jar , knowing there would be hell to pay for the mess.

    Anyone who’s read The Cat in the Hat knows that at the pinnacle of a disaster is when the mother comes home , or in this case, when the gym manager stops by.  I expected somebody to walk in that hot Sunday afternoon right at that moment and see an Asian dude hanging from the top ring rope by his bound hands as his blood soaked body writhed in the blood making himself more bloody by the moment as he whined out with sobs of agony … as I stood there with a skipping rope for a whip in my hand.

    I’ve never stuck a G.I Joe up my ass or my pussy for that matter, but that blood soaked moment was as close to “a big brown shark” scenario as is possible.

     

     

    It took Asia boy a good two minutes to recover from the ball shot I had delivered unto him.  An eternity of time for me, his sobs to me seeming ever increasingly loud.  There were no towels or rags laying around to soak up the mess, only a few Jiu Jitsu gi’s hanging on the MMA cage with a black and brown belt laying on top – so that was definitely a no-no.  Worse is that the kid looked less like a person and more like the baby from John Carpenter’s The Brood …

     

    the brood bdsm story

     

    [blockquote align=”center”]The best laid schemes of mice and men Go often askew, And leave us nothing but grief and pain, For promised joy! — Robert Burns —[/blockquote]

    With no way to clean up the mess and time running afoul the best course of action was to cut bait and split the scene.  Except brood boy wanted to wallow in pain in melodramatic fashion by hopping and cooing first in the ring and then wanting to start outside before I kicked him for real.

    “Stop it, your leaving bloody footprints everywhere” I said while tossing him his black flip flops.  “Wear that, go shower and let’s get the fuck out of here, I want to be gone in two minutes.”

    Off he went without a word and I was left to survey the damage and ponder how to cover up such a scene of wanton violence.

    Then I thought, “fuck it”.  For as with most stuff that I write , even though it’s all true – every story – I realize it’s neigh unbelievable – and that’s for folks like you – my submissive readers who are clued in to what femdom is all about.

    Imagine the collective brain fart a group of alpha male fighters will produce when trying to ascertain this scene of the crime I thought.  The two blue hand wraps – now bloodied – dangling from the top ring on opposite sides of the corner post.

    The smeared pool of blood on the canvas floor of the ring.

    With no candlestick, rope, knife, or poison as the weapon of choice.  The unassuming weapon instead being – the red skipping rope left in front of the stain of blood.

    The perfect red-herring being the bloodied footsteps of an Asian male in and around the ring.

    No it was not Col.Mustard in the Study, with the Revolver.

    Instead it was the Mistress, in the Ring, with the rope.  And she got away with it too – just so she could write it in her blog.

     

    xx

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  • The Quality of Mercy

    The Quality of Mercy

    [dropcap color=”pink”]O[/dropcap] nce more unto the breach …

    “Mercy , please have mercy” was the last sentence uttered by a polite Indian fellow after I ushered him out my condo door with a friendly wink of an eye after glancing down at his massive bulge hidden inside his checkered knee high shorts.

    I leaned back on my condo door after I had closed it and waited patiently for the sound of the elevator bell which dings as it arrives to my floor.  That was the long awaited end of my last session, 3 1/2 weeks ago, and at the time I couldn’t wait to close up shop and find some time for myself on a well deserved vacation.

    Now, nearly a month later I’m refreshed and eagerly awaiting the first man to carry his undaunted bravery unto my chambers.

    Wary that he will find his deepest pleasures or his darkest horrors at the foot of my bed, yet shall he come forth and offer himself unto me asking once again for mercy.

    Know this of the mercy you speak …

    mercyThe quality of mercy is not strained.

    It droppeth as the gentle rain from heaven upon the place beneath.

    It is twice blest;

    It bleseth him that gives and him that takes.

    Mercy is above the pleas of my slave;

    It is an attribute to your Mistress herself

    And earthly power doth then show likest mine

    When mercy seasons justice. Therefore, slave,

    Though justice be thy plea, consider this,

    That, in the course of justice, none of us should see salvation:

    we do pray for mercy; And that same prayer doth teach us all to render the deeds of mercy.

    I have spoke thus much to mitigate the justice of thy plea;

    Which if thou follow, this strict court of which I am council, judge and jury,

    Must needs give sentence ‘gainst the slave here.

    Mercy is denied , until a pound of your juice can thou provide.

    Only then shall mercy’s quality be given.

     

    xx

     

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  • Dog Days of Summer

    Dog Days of Summer

    “What’s wrong?”

    “When ya gonna do a new blog story?”

    “You ok?”

     

    beautyA: Yo bitches, it’s summer , and more so than that it’s the dog days of August , a girl needs some time to herself.  For a week I went to see mom because I hadn’t seen her for nearly an entire year.  I then spent some time with my hospitalized friend helping her get through what she has to deal with.  Heck I even went to visit my cows that I pay to have a better life.  Can’t save everybody, I’m well aware of that, but I sure as heck can save two , and two is better than zero.

    Between all that I’ve done mostly Tease & Denial sessions , so writing about it repeatedly is like trying to reinvent the wheel , it’s not necessary.   <- that by the way was the 1000th consecutive time I’ve misspelled necessary.

    It’s going to get awfully busy in a couple of weeks , and it ramps from there right through until March so knowing that I’m going to take a couple of weeks off to begin September which means Mistress Wael will be doing all sessions until mid September.

    After that I’ll be back to writing daily where I’m anxious to tell you about the professional athlete that I had multiple sessions with all this month.  Am I smitten?  Nah , but I now know I can control a 6’4″ man of muscle like he’s putty , he was pretty hunky though.  Let’s just say I scratched pussy a little more furiously than I would normally have done on some of those August nights.

    That’s a wrap guys.  I really have nothing that exciting or controversial to report.  Summer is like that here.  I should be thrilled that I only have to do 3 sessions a week , collect my $US 3,000 and be happy about it , but it’s never been about the money.  It’s about the sometimes thrilling sessions – that’s what makes it interesting.  Only, it’s been all T&D , and while that’s a fascinating experience for you guys , it’s nothing to write home about so to speak.

    So I’ll catch ya in a couple of weeks.  Enjoy the labour day weekend and the week thereafter , see you on the flip side.

    xx

     

     

     

     

     

     

  • Tease.  Deny.  Seduce.  Melt.

    Tease. Deny. Seduce. Melt.

    We Tease you and in doing so we deny you the ultimate release you are inches away from.  What’s different about me is that while other ladies of this particular craft focus on the torturous and sadistic side of femdom , we take a different approach , focusing on two words that nobody else can provide : Seduce & Melt.

    Yes it helps immensely to be somewhat beautiful to seduce the way I can but I would argue that California has a lot of blonde bombshells more beautiful than I – none of whom can captivate a man’s attention at dinner and make him wiggle in his chair where he sits :  from pure excitement.  That is a skill I acquired over time , one which comes with confidence , an understanding of men , and a devilish desire to use both to weaken the male’s resolve.

    I finished a session a few days ago that went well and in his follow up letter , well , it pretty much sums up both entirely and accurately what to expect in a session.  His was unique as he was looking for something sensational , an experience that he would never forget and so I encouraged him to have a double session , first with Wael where I had instructed her that under no circumstances was she to let him sneak out an orgasm.  Rather, she was to tease him for the entirety of his two hour session with her, regardless of his begging to end things sooner as most do – for that would empower my half of the session tenfold later on that evening.

    Send me a bewildered man, hesitant but excited and I’ll seduce him every time.  Send me the same man with a set of heavy blue aching balls … and I won’t just seduce him , I’ll melt him.

     

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    1. But she didn’t allow me – which again, really fit with my fantasy.

    Here, I’ll just copy and paste a typical American man’s request as it sums up how most foreigners order from the sexual menu my country offers: “oil massage, tease and denial, ejaculate twice.”  I replied to this guy the same way I do to all Joe Blow’s who send me an unimaginative request like that :  a map to Pattaya.  There’s no fantasy in such a request.  I seek men willing to go on a sexual journey, an exploration into the limits of your mind.  The % on my Tease & Denial tab remains correct , though it’s been a year since I calculated that stat.  Less than 30% can endure the entire two hour Tease & Denial session and opt out using their safe word.  Those who choose to go with no safe word to rescue them as this guy did – bravely venture into experiences unknown.

     

    2.  I knew you were beautiful from the pictures I have seen before but , wow.

    In removing any photos revealing my face from my public gallery I’ve experienced quite the trade off over the past year in comparison to my first year.  In 2014 I used the staggering imaginative quality of my professionally shot photo gallery to climb to the top of the financial domination world.  Men love to obsess over beauty and it wasn’t all too difficult to surpass the overweight supply of European and American mistresses that claimed to rule the findom space.  Admittedly , the daily gifts arriving at my condo from Amazon coupled with daily deposits to my Paypal bank account were nice , but I wasn’t at all happy with the quality of the clientele I was seeing in the evenings.

    tease denial worship femdomTo put it bluntly, guys who obsess have a loose screw floating around in their brains , and they’re not the most genuine of folk , often fleeing to the next girl who captures their imagination and as quickly as one would leave, another would begin his obsession with me.  It felt … cheesy dealing with this sort of riff raff day in and day out.

    Once I put my faith in my writing , things changed rapidly.  I absolutely love each step of the process as I hook your curiosity but nothing gives me greater pleasure in life than knowing each session request has come strictly from my written recounts of sessions past coupled with my thoughts and opinions about life.  You guys, the ones who send me emails are among the most genuine people on earth.   It’s been a fascinating experience to see how literature can inspire a connection between two people.

    The curiosity in you grows once I’ve sent you my gallery privately and you feel heightened anticipation having put a face that pleases you to the one who will be helping you live out your deepest fantasy.

    Then, my strangest gift of all … the fact that I look downright awful in photos compared to how I look in real life.  This is what the guy in the email wrote , and it’s the moment that the melting starts, when you meet me.  It’s the culmination of this great build up that’s been occurring from the moment you read my first story, to the 88 emails in between your first letter and the last one before you flew off to meet me, to the moment I open the door and the butterflies in your stomach are validated.

     

    3.  Your really have such a skill to seduce me like that and make my heart melt for you.

    It’s a skill set one doesn’t put on a resume , and there are no universities giving out a Ph.D in seduction , but if there was I’d be the Dean of such a discipline.  Last night I had a dinner session and at some point between the broccoli dish and the salad course we began talking about the episode named White Bear in the Black Mirror show I highly recommended you all watch.  He said something like “ya the creepiest part for me was when she stumbled out of her house and saw people in every window of every house not just watching her but filming her with their phones.

    “Does that bother you?” I asked, picking up on a clue from his sentence that I could turn into a moment of seduction hopefully.

    mistress-trampling-femdom-jaa4u“Does what bother me?” he said as his eyes snapped down from recalling upwards – the general location of his memory – and focused instead on mine.

    “Being watched” , i bit into a baby tomato as I spoke , letting the juice sit on my lower lip , “you don’t like being looked at is that it?”

    “No not particularly” he replied in a hushed way , distracted entirely by the moistness of my lip.

    “Would it bother you if I looked at you like that?  Perhaps I should film you while I’m sitting on top of you tonight?”

    “Fuck” is all he said.  A surrender from the conversation.  I giggled as he put down his fork and shook his head “you’re something you know that, fuck” he said through pouted lips of preponderance.

    Do all such seductive attempts work, nah not really.  Not even close, but it’s like throwing darts a dartboard , I don’t need a bulls eye shot, I just need one to stick.  Once it does, I become their dream girl and it makes me wonder why other girls don’t take such brazen chances because the reward is such sweetness.  When my friends see me work my magic upon men at different dance clubs night after night they constantly ask “how do I get a man to fall for me like that?”

    “Easy” I say back , it’s just four words :  Tease , Deny , Seduce , Melt.

    xx

     

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  • Ballbusting | Swing and a Miss

    Ballbusting | Swing and a Miss

    Instead of thinking of a clever way to combine a show recommendation , a comment on a session , and a viewpoint into one story that flows together with a common theme and segue’s for all , i’m just going to present the ideas floating around my head in its crudest form. Cleverness be damned, sometimes it’s better to say things quickly and get back to scratching pussy all afternoon.

    My thanks to the guy who put me onto the best show I’ve seen since Breaking Bad , it’s called Black Mirror and it’s utterly fantastic viewing. Nine years ago my friend fatally spent a great deal of money on his Motorolla Razr “flip phone” which was the greatest thing since sliced bread at the time.

    What was the greatest thing before sliced bread I wonder?

    At the same time he bought that – i was studying oversees at the time – the boss of the shitty little restaurant I was working in to pay the bills would show off his RIMM phone … and could be seen all day long proudly walking around typing in emails with his pencil stylus on the uber tiny phone keyboard.

    A month later both of them had thrown their prized possessions in the bin as the IPhone was invented rendering all previous technology redundant.

    Here we are not a decade later and I’m creating this blog by talking to Corona on my Windows 10 who is listening and converting this to text as I speak. I’ve answered all my emails today without pressing a single key and I’m sitting on the BTS train right now looking at a backpacker dude wearing what I think are the Google glasses while his hippy like girlfriend is standing beside him wearing double backpacks on her back and chest and an even more ridiculous GoPro camera on her head that she could possibly be streaming live.

    Question. If that’s a snapshot of the evolution that’s occurred over the past 9 years, what will a similar snapshot look like 9 short years hence?

    The answer to that question is being explored episode by episode in that great show Black Mirror, a sort of a modern day Twilight Zone but with a hidden message that screams at us to stop and think for a moment where we’re going with all this technology.

    Ok the next random thought running through my head is that while I do all sorts of sessions to please all types of fantasies and I proclaim to understand a great deal about what makes a man tick … some sessions just leave me with a feeling of “huh? … that excites you?”

    ballbustingOne of the reasons I took up Muay Thai four days a week is that I got chastised in my first ball busting session on the fact that my kicks were not forceful enough. Until that session my ball busting sessions had been focused on making the two hours as painfully sexy as possible , teetering the man’s feelings between feeling horny and being in pain from lightly but perfectly placed love taps on his scrotum with my shoes.

    It had been told to me that a whiff … a strike that barely misses the balls and only grazes them was ten times worse than a direct strike. While I played with that idea over the first year seeking to validate the theory , there remains some dudes out there who derive erotic pleasure from the type of severe strike to the testicles that makes other men cringe. It’s this demographic of people, which i’d say is less than 1% of all inquiries that led me to learn how to strike properly.

    Though I’m only into my fifth month of learning to strike properly , I’ve now developed a ball busting session that introduces the guy to 10 distinct levels of painful strikes. The details of which I’ll write later after I’ve refined my techniques a bit further , my purpose today is to admit freely that while I’m working to perfect such a session … I yet to understand how it satisfies a sexual fantasy. I have no idea. For instance, I know my private photo gallery is considered to be extremely hot by most if not all of you guys , and while I’ve had some remarkable comments about how it affects people, none have been more strange than this one received a few days ago:

    ” I can’t stop touching myself and punching my balls to your pictures. ”

    I’m sorry but to me, a guy punching himself in the balls is like me thrusting a 14 inch rubber dick into my vagina so hard that I bruise my Urethra to the point that I cannot walk all day. But I had to take that comment seriously as I’m constantly reminded in this profession that each person has a unique fetish that turns him on.

    Put it this way , I’d say the reason most people in long term relationships are not happy is because their particular fetish is not being met. Now granted, i’m only talking from a man’s point of view , I really have no idea if us girls in general are as equally frustrated as men , I’m sure there’s a male model out there who’s conquered enough pussy in his lifetime that could shed some light on the female perspective.

    So as I hinted at in my last story, I spent quite a while preparing for Sunday’s session with this guy , and after practicing all 10 levels on my sofa’s armrest before he arrived I had pretty much mastered the 10 levels of painful kicks and the style that I’d present them in.

    He only got to level 7 , and though I left him crumpled up on the floor on more than a few occasions over the two hours , he did send me this email yesterday to tell me how much he enjoyed the session :

    ball-session-good

     

    Go figure. Job well done though I’m just as clueless as to the “why” rupturing testicles turns guys on.

    Ok and lastly, Wael’s birthday is coming up on the 15th and while she’d really like a backpack to *replace her torn and tattered one , I’m just going to gift her an airplane ticket so she can see her daughter back in Chiang Rai who she hasn’t seen for a year. If I combine the girls in my circle of Thai friends and her circle of friends , there is not a single girl who gets to see her kids more than once a year. It’s a sad silent consequence of being born a girl here. Level 10 ball busting should be mandatory for the men growing up in these parts. Now THAT’S something i can understand lol.

    xx

    *The backpack on her wish list is $69, but in reality she’s only $20 off buying it with money in her account so if someone who liked her session could front just the 20 , I’ll buy it for her.

     

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  • Blurring the Line

    Blurring the Line

    I’m back in the saddle again.

    Out where a man needs a tease.

    Where the longhorn men plead

    While begging from their knees

    I’m back in the saddle again.

     

    Ok so Gene Autry I am not , but a mistress I am once more having gotten over the hump of doing my first session in over a month successfully.  My intention isn’t to make this a ‘pat myself on the back’ kind of entry but rather to let you guys know that there is a great amount of trepidation when confronted with doing a session after a long layaway.

    Especially when there has been 0 seconds in the past month where I have been allowed to feel or act in my confident ways , being tied to a sofa for 720 hours.  Heck even my signature ‘mistress like action’ , the swiftness with which I walk was robbed from me.

    People shuffle from place to place.  I stride.

    There hasn’t been one man who has spent time with me outside of the condo who hasn’t struggled to keep up with the pace at which I walk.  The way in which you walk is a metaphor for how you approach life, same as it goes for your body language, your posture and your speech patterns when you express yourself.  Having been weakened in every aspect of my life for thirty days cast a hint of doubt over whether I could snap my fingers and instantly resume my mistress ways.

    Well two sessions back into the swing of things and it looks like I haven’t missed a step.  Once a mistress, always a mistress it looks like.

     

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    Of course , typical me , I slip right back into my ways of being focused not on the seduction or on the Teasing part of the session , but rather in the enjoyment level and comfort level of the person I am hosting.

    It’s an odd thing to say, you know – considering that for the guy tonight I’m already carefully picking out which shoes I’ll wear for his ball busting session , one might think that having my guests comfort level in the forefront of my mind might be a bit of a misnomer.  But I realized after spending 20 minutes laboring over going with the spiky shoes or the pointy toed ones – and then reading his reply from last nights session – that I spend a great deal of time concerning myself about how to make the session absolutely perfect from the man’s point of view.

    While that’s a good thing I suppose , there have been times where that desire to please has caused me to cross the line and blur the client – mistress relationship , and while my sexual open mindedness never made me think twice about kissing a guy now and then , I’ve realized that such an action wasn’t fair.

    I’m seductive , and by your standards I’m also quite hot , and when you consider that the style of my sessions is heavily centered around seducing you so that I can break your willpower – suddenly shocking you with a kiss – is a bit of an evil thing to do at a moment when you are probably at the most vulnerable point of your life.

    I’ve had some extraordinarily hot guys submit to me over the past three years , dudes so masculine that seeing them grovel at my toes literally made my legs quiver and I’ve had on more than one occasion a drop of pussy juice cascade down my leg as the man is upon my orders worshiping his way up my leg.  None of those guys have I given so much as a peck on the cheek.

    Rather, it’s been the vulnerably soft pudgy guys who touch a cord in my heart at how much they need someone to love them that is my weak point.  I just generally like human beings that seem vulnerable.

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    While I was in Turkey , there was this rather sumptuous restaurant that displayed its food in the window and every day as I walked past it my mouth watered to try one of their delicacies but we were always in a rush to get somewhere.  Finally on the second last day there I got to stop in there and order up this succulent meaty thing wrapped in a pita that had me salivating waiting for the chef to finish preparing it and finally hand it over to me.

    When he did, and we stepped outside I stopped momentarily to put my change in my purse and as I did so a Syrian refugee kid ran past me and stole it from my hand dropping half the meat on the ground as he did so.  I didn’t chase him , but I did spot him a few minutes later huddled under a staircase and eating my food in a manner that made him look like a crazed hyena than a human being.  So I went back and bought him another one , kissed his forehead and cleaned his face off with one of the wet napkins I keep in my bag.

    Point is, there are times where someone else is in more need of love, care and attention that we are – and if I can open my eyes and recognize that – I think I’ll be remembered in a good way by a lot of people once I’m gone.

    Same feeling applies to guys who , while they are submitting to me , and playing the role of the good submissive , they can’t hide the fact they are vulnerable.  I can spot such guys a mile away and I have a soft spot in my heart for them , it’s just who I am.  Again, I’m open minded sexually, society has never put a weight on what is good or bad — tolerable or not tolerable upon me.  To me a kiss is a kiss , sex is something we are born to do , and jealousy of either is born from putting too much weight on the meaning behind such actions.

    eyeSo, for example , last year when one of my German dudes had been on his hands and knees acting as a perfect motionless table for 3 hours while I played Diablo on my laptop and resting my feet upon his back, I noticed he did so the entire time with his head hung low.  It was as if he was saying to himself “this is my lot in life, I should be happy to be humiliated in such a way that it pleases my mistress” – his posture screamed such a sentence for him.

    When he readjusted himself to relieve what was possibly a cramp in his hip – for he had lifted and settled his right leg back into a new angle I called him on it , acting mad that he had disturbed my game.

    “sorry mistress” he whispered while drooping his head even lower.

    Now that could very much just be role play , an expectation of a bad slave performing a dis-satisfactory action that calls for punishment as atonement.  Or, the thought crossed my mind , were there a set of happenings in this man’s life that led him to be turned on by being used.  Had he been stepped on so many times that he sought enjoyment out of never being able to be the man he wanted to be as a child.  See where I’m going with this?  There’s more to a man’s actions than role play , there’s often something much deeper below the surface of an abnormal action.

    I called him up to his knees to kneel in front of me and confess to me that he had erred in disturbing my game by shifting his body.

    He did so as I held him by the cheek and as I raised my hand to slap him across his face he closed his eyes and whimpered at the expectation of pain.

    Then i sunk my lips into his and it was amazing.  I could feel his whole body tense up like he was being shot , and then he “fell” into the kiss in a manner that showed openly it was what his truest desire was.

    Acceptance.  In this case, especially , acceptance by his mistress.

    That kiss, really fucked that guy up.

    I could show you a laundry list of emails from him thereafter that would display both his ecstasy and his fall into madness.

    spikyI didn’t really understand the power a mistress holds back then , and more so , it never occurred to me just how many of you guys have this fantasy where you get to live your life with a girl like me … one who can control you , make you feel wonderful yet useless , one who sometimes demands servitude and sometimes demands nothing.  I’ve found that a great number of you crave such a relationship , and to open the door with a simple passionate kiss … it’s mind blowing for the slave.  Some just can’t handle it.

    All three guys that I kissed over the past three years , all have lost control of their emotions to some extent thereafter.

    It’s better to leave guys with a “geez I wish there was some way I didn’t have to leave her after the session” kind of feeling than a “whoa, is there a chance between me and her?” kind of thought.  To give a guy hope like I did to those three , wasn’t very professional in hindsight.  It’s something I’ve corrected and have become “more hard” I guess in my ways.

    Now that I’m back in the saddle, I shan’t cross the line again.  I’ll be as dedicated as I can to how happy I can make all the guys who come to see me , without blurring the relationship.

    Oh and by the way, I decided to go with the spiky shoes for kicking his balls into obliteration tonight.  It was a hard choice.

    xx

     

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  • Tease & Denial Please

    Tease & Denial Please

    Good news, I’m back doing sessions once again!

    I never expected the aftermath of the surgery to last so long, the pain has stuck around longer than herpes does (i’m going by word of mouth on that one) and I sat in one spot on my sofa for so long that there is now a permanent ass dent in the cushion.  Feel free to come over and sniff it at your leisure 😛

    I tend to write from recollection of memorable sessions but since I’ve had no sessions to base my thoughts on I’ve had a hard time coming up with things to write about that wouldn’t bore you to tears.  I had written up a story on “the advantages of having a pussy the size of a softball” but had to stop after “they’ll think I’m a hung ladyboy if I go for a walk” as there really are no advantages.  Guys are lucky, if you had elephantitis of your testicles a great percentage of girls would run to bang you silly and you could definitely use that to your advantage.

    While I’m happy to report that while my pussy is back to normal there is a lingering post-surgery tenderness that’ll prevent me from being laid for yet another month or so.  Honestly, I get laid less than a nun .. and definitely than a priest 😛   So you guys can lay to rest the fallacy that pretty girls can laid whenever they want, I’m living proof we don’t.

    So in looking for inspiration to write about, I came across this email that expressed a common wish that many share, one that is erroneous as it goes against what a Tease & Denial session seeks to accomplish.  Check it out:

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    I get a kick out of when people say “rubbing me” , I always get this visual of a dude rubbing the head of his dick like he’s trying to make fire.  There’s very little rubbing that goes on in a Tease session , that familiar up and down motion is what the guy wants to feel as it gives him pleasure , my job is to give him no relief.  I think of it like going up on a roller coaster and getting that sensation of butterflies in the stomach one gets just as they reach the top … except that my roller coaster never reaches the top , it just climbs and climbs perpetually.

    But that’s not what is at fault in his thinking.  My issue is in the reasoning behind his desire for a session , that being so he can be trained to last longer.

    Trust me, you won’t want to last longer in my session or in Wael’s for that matter.  In fact, you’ll be begging to cum inside of three minutes and you’ll be wishing you had booked a happy ending massage before your first 10 minutes are up.

    I have a video , sorry I can’t share it publicly as it has my voice on it , but if you want to see it ask me privately for the link.  Anyways, in said video the guy says “please don’t stop again, no no no, please please I need to cum, I’m begging you let me cum” followed by 10 seconds of uncontrollable sobbing.  It’s not an act, that’s what every single guy says inside of 15 minutes.  In preparation for my session I often give guys a game to play with themselves.  You can play along too if you like, it’s a good introduction to what Tease & Denial is like.

    To begin, you are not allowed to touch yourself or cum for three straight days, and in that time you are not permitted to look at anything pornographic, it’s just a build up period that will ensure your dick will over respond when stimulated.  Upon the arrival of the fourth day when you have a considerable amount of time at your disposal I need you to look up the fetish niche of porn that you go to when you want to be fully stimulate your imagination.  For this dude it’ll be a sexy girl in pantyhose , for the guy I’m seeing tonight it’ll be a ballbusting video , it can be whatever – just make sure it’s the forbidden niche that turns you on the most.

    While watching it you are to stroke yourself ever so slowly.  At no point are you allowed to permit your hand to do any violent up and down motion that gives you a relief from the build up.  When you get close, it’ll be because you’ve touched yourself over many long minutes at a very slow pace and not because you pounded it like a monkey.  Understood?  Then once your getting close you ar to bring yourself right to the moment of no return and then release it from your grasp, using your breathing and concentration to make the semen regress down the tunnel from which it came.

    You are to repeat that routine a minimum of three times, ensuring you don’t fail.  Go , do it.

    How do you feel?

    ear-bitingThis blog has about 1,000 readers a day , i’m sure that none of you at any point in this exercise said to yourselves”why yes, I love this feeling of not being able to cum, I would like this feeling of frustration to last infinitely” like the guy who wrote that email is suggesting.

    Now that’s 15 minutes only, imagine an hour of feeling like that.  Now imagine two.

    I tell you what, this guy after I see him is going to go home and monkey fuck his wife as hard and as fast as he can.  His dick is going to burst through his nylons like the Alien busts through the stomach wall in the movie of the same name and it’s going to be out for vengeance.

    Normally when a guy bangs his wife and it’s feeling good, at some point this thought goes through his mind “oh i’m getting close, i need to slow down, yes good, relax, breathe, slowly … slowly … she won’t notice if I stop and bite her ear a bit will she?”

    Well first , yes we know what’s going on, we know you’re about to fail and you’re buying time.  Instead of biting into the girls shoulder you should just say “honey I just about fucked up, let me pause here, I’ll be back after these commercial messages.”

    Point is, it’s during sex that you want things to slow down … not during my Tease & Denial session.

    xx

     

     

     

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  • Pain, Zombies, and Zug Zug

    Pain, Zombies, and Zug Zug

    Well, I’m no longer fearful of child birth.

    What I am fearful of, sitting here 1000 feet in the air near the 30th floor in my condo which faces out towards the west is that the zombie apocalypse may have begun and I wouldn’t know because for fourteen days I’ve been living in a vacuum of space with my ass tied to this sofa.  I lie, I can actually see the highway yonder in the distance jammed with cars that barely move so I know that life goes on outside these walls … sadly as I think a zombie purge is exactly what this city needs.

    Come on!!  Am I the only one who would see the irony in Soi Cowboy or Nana being turned into an abandoned area patrolled by scantily clothed zombie bitches roaming the go-go bars?  The irony being that either way, foreigners are still zombie chow in those places.  At least while you’re getting eaten alive by a zombie whore you wouldn’t be pledging to support her.

    I now contemplate whether having zombies devour my flesh while I scream would be any less painful than the surgery I had to endure.

    Oh to be American …

    Yes, surgery over there does not sound fun. I’m surprised they didn’t give you some strong anesthesia and some morphine after (I even got morphine after a shoulder dislocation). We have a long weekend here as it’s fourth of July (independence day, which I’m sure you know as you know way too many American cultural references!).

     

    Hah!

    No such luck for me, I got anti inflammatory medication and of course some Paracetamol because hey … it cures everything right?

    For anesthesia I was given a soft mouth piece and told to “bite down on it, it helps” to which I told the doctor “are you really quoting me lines from Starship Troopers as surgical protocol?”

     

     

    To be honest, I’d take the whipping over the surgery.

    Like I said, child birth has nothing on what I went through I’m sure – and no – I don’t need all you guys lining up outside my door volunteering to try and get me pregnant so I can test my hypothesis out.

    zugzugMy doctor advised me that it’ll be another week before I can move about naturally which is great as my life of dancing,  perusing restaurants and shopping , has been replaced by video games and movies.  I’ve investigated life as a couch potato and the results are in :  it’s not all it’s cracked up to be.

    I apologize for cancelling so many sessions, being curt in my email replies, and my tardiness in getting to them.  You see I have flowers to gather, rocks to mine, orc’s to bite and I have to ding 100 – all before I re watch Game of Thrones season 6 for the third time and add a few more things to my Amazon Wish List.

    ดู Game of Thrones

    ดู The Walking Dead

    That’s how you search for your favorite tv shows or movies if you want to watch them.  Netflix?  Ha, that’s for Americans , in this country everything is free, just gotta know where to look.

    So that’s my update.  No sessions this week – again , but the good news is that by next week it could be that things will get back to normal.

    Until then .. zug zug

    xx

     

     

  • Silent Dignity

    Silent Dignity

    Well I got released from the hospital yesterday and I suppose the good news is that the pain has subsided enough that I can focus long enough to type something without passing out.  The bad news then I guess is that the pain I’m in is still excruciating and I’m still bed ridden.  Which obviously means that unless one wanted to come over and stare at this tearful mess that I’ve become for  your two hours of femdom fun – there will be no sessions any time soon.  I’m estimating at least a week , maybe two.

    What to take away from this experience?  Well, now that I’ve had to spend well over $5,000 in European or American currency this year for unplanned medical visits I could say that it’s about time I invest in some medical insurance , however that wasn’t the big take away of it all.

    Neither was it the momentary brain fart I had when I realized I was out of water and hardly able to move from the sofa.   It took me well over 20 minutes to move from my sofa to the fridge two days ago and when I realized there was nothing to drink whatsoever I was seriously considering taking a sip from the tap water – which is like playing Russian roulette with 5 bullets in the chamber.

    I stood there tapping my phone in my hand looking at my list of friends , none of whom actually reside in the city here , and considered calling on any one of you guys to come deliver water to me but I’m absolutely not the kind of person who wants to bother people to do something on my behalf.  However some eight hours later my body was telling me through all the other pain I was in that if I didn’t get some water in me soon things were going to get a whole lot worse.

    sick

     

    Moving my leg but an inch would cause me to scream so gutting out a walk over to 7 Eleven was out of the question.  I like to live a life of anonymity so asking the security guy downstairs was a no-go as well as the less people who know I exist the better .. call it an occupational hazard.

    Then it hit me , just order food and drink.  Honestly, had I not been in such delirious pain it would have been second nature to think of ordering from FoodPanda but I wasn’t able to think properly which perhaps may give you a sense of the degree of pain I am in.  Or perhaps not.

    problemsWhat I got from this experience is that there is a dignity that comes with suffering in silence.  My best high school friend may die soon , and she tells not a soul of her daily plight living with the leukemia that is draining the life out of her daily.  I talked only with her the day of my operation , she simply said to me “be strong, be quiet , you’ll survive.”  I most certainly wasn’t quiet, I screamed loud enough for the whole floor to hear while being cut open but that’s done with , I did indeed survive it.  Now as I sit here recovering , pain be dammed , I feel strong.

    I may lose many things in my life , but if I lose my dignity , my honor , then I am lost.

    … and I am far from being lost.

     

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  • The Ralph Wiggum Effect

    The Ralph Wiggum Effect

    This is more a bit of friendly advice than a story intended for those who not only want to live here but are going to be raising kids here.

    Everything the baby hears should be in your mother tongue right from the day it’s born.  No exceptions.

    If the mom doesn’t speak your language , that’s fine , but make sure the television shows , the books , the YouTube videos and most importantly the school is subjecting your kid to your language 90% of the time.

    The result?  Well it’s like running a marathon.  Nobody is declared a champion after the first 500 meters and it’s not until the first 5km are over that you start to get some separation in the runners.

    Same goes with raising a kid , yes they might fall behind in my language in the first 4 years but guess where they live?  Guess what they’re going to hear every day of their lives , my language.  So if you trust in the kid’s ability to learn a language by osmosis , then by the time the kid is 10 years old , the child will be fluent in both languages.  What’s even cooler than that , is not only will the kid talk with you in an accent that’s a replica of the one spoken in your homeland , but they will have an exact replica of my language as well.

    It’ll freak you out.  You’ll hear your kid talk like they’re two different people , and it’ll make you proud to hear it.

    Here’s the hard part about what I just said … being able to execute your plan against popular consensus.  You’ll be pressured into letting these people force their ways onto you , don’t let them!

    Jaa’s son is in town and had dinner with him last night.   At one point during dinner while he was sucking on the lemon that came with my salmon steak I asked him wryly “are you the lemon?” thinking I was making a private joke to myself.

    He then sucked the last bit of juice from the lemon while climbing up and squatting on the chair as the people from the table beside us looked over disapprovingly.  He took the wedge out from his mouth , dropped it on the plate and when he crossed his arms he said “bitch please, squatting monkeys tell no lies.”

    ralphRude, bold , brazen ?  Yes to all.

    Funny as hell ?  Fuck ya.

    Sitting beside him was his slightly older 12yo buddy , who’s dad hadn’t followed the rules I just laid down for you up above.

    He reaches out his hand and after nearly spilling the glass bottle of water in doing so I asked him what it was he wanted and that I’d pass it to him.

    “I you butter i you can give me i want give ok” he said sounding slightly like a retarded child.  Fuck political correctness , I’m telling you that this blue eyed brown hair kid from Vancouver, Canada (by blood) couldn’t construct a kindergarten level sentence properly and sounded like an idiot trying to speak in his dad’s native tongue.

    “How the fuck can you let your son grow up talking like that?” I bluntly asked that kid’s dad , and a silence fell across the table.

    “Blubber blubber blah blech” his dad mumbled something defensive in return that showed how truly brainwashed he’d become in living here for the past decade.  Can’t deny the truth though.  Two kids sat at that table last night.  One can fit in anywhere in the world seamlessly.  The other is going to taking dicks up the ass ten times a day a few years out … if he doesn’t want to make $5 a day working with the rest of the denizens of similar language skills.

    I call it the Ralph Wiggum effect , don’t let it happen to your kid.

    xx

     

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