Month: May 2019

  • Fuck Board | A Mistress’s Sex Tool

    Fuck Board | A Mistress’s Sex Tool

    Being my Fuck Board is a job you think you’re ready for , but truly you’re not.

    I was trying to relate to you last story that I perceive a man’s dick to be this wonderful toy that unfortunately comes attached to a man’s body … and with it this misconceived notion that it’s there for a man to pleasure a woman with.

    It’s there for the woman to use, without regard for any feelings whatsoever.

    Which could mean that if I’m not particularly horny one month , it doesn’t get used at all.  Which is why I love chastity so much because it teaches the man to remove pleasure from the equation when considering the purpose of his dick.  Leave it to the male brain of course to connote that feeling of being locked up into somehow being something pleasureful because it pleases his mistress to see it so.

    I was at a bar yesterday as I had a day off and the girl I went with … not really a friend per se , but she knows how to let her hair down and have fun when she goes out and so I don’t mind spending an evening with her now and then.  I say now and then because, as with all my ex-fiends , I just cannot relate to how they ‘pick up guys’ (read: let guys come on to them, touch them, grope then and speak about them) and then flaunt her ‘prize’ to the rest of us as if I’m supposed to be jealous that she picked up Mr.Hottie on the dance floor.  Her name is May, and the guy she was flirting with – his name was Jake.  At one point, whilst hanging out at the small round table next to the dance floor Jake – got in a secret ‘low five’ with his buddy (never caught his name) , clinked beer bottles together for a victorious Cheers , and then he shook his head , smiled at his buddy and lipped without sound to him “can’t wait to bang her” … making a violent slapping motion with his open faced right hand upon his closed fist left.

    It’s been so long now , this time period that I’ve been fucking guys , that I couldn’t even remember the last time I left the door open even a crack to let a guy talk about me and my pussy that way.

    mistress fuck boardMy mind drifted to another one liner that I had caught several months ago walking out of the seven eleven store at the top of my street.  Just stepping out onto the sidewalk with two bottles of water in each hand I was passed by three guys heading into the store and their conversation caught my ear like the Doppler effect of an oncoming train.  My conscious mind was focused on picking out which motorcycle taxi was available for the ride to my condo but suddenly my sub-conscious mind picked up the line “dude, I have her trained in bed just the way I want her.”

    Just that line … has been stuck in my memory now for the better part of half a year.

    The reason is, I say to myself often when referring to guys I’ve banged “I use his dick just the way I want to use it.”

    So it stuck with me just how polar opposite the process is now between how I look at guys , and how guys no doubt perceive a potential relationship with me, sexual or otherwise.  Which is no doubt why I’m single still , the gap is just too massive right now between the expectations being brought into any encounter with a man.

    “Did you get some?”  read the message on my phone the next afternoon after I had woken up.  It was from May who had also sent me a selfie of her at Jake’s condo captioned “Yes!” capital Y.

    “Nah. Scratch pussy instead” my reply.

    Indeed I was in bad with my hand between my legs reminiscing about the last time I had sex, my pussy leaking fluid onto my fingers.  What are you imagining?  Is it me on the bed under a guy with huge pecs, my arms and legs wrapped around him as he pushes his body weight down onto me and I sink into the bed.  My hips raise up to meet his leaking dick and my lips part like Moses parted the sea for his ten inch long hard cock to plunge inside my volcanic cunt.

    Oh how wrong you are.

    See, there’s two ways only that I have sex nowadays, both include long term slaves.

    The first style … and again let’s be clear … this happens so rarely – is when I have a live in slave who’s quite handsome.  In the seven years I’ve been a mistress, I’ve had the pleasure of having a truly hot live in slave only twice – which should give you a sense of context behind the word ‘rarely.’  Interestingly though, the difference between the first time and the last time was so very separated by time that it clearly showed how much this job has changed me.  In fact, the last time I could honestly say “I got banged” was by the first dude, a German model who came to see me every time he had modelling work in Bangkok.  It was totally my fault, I had set the session mood with candles, wine, a very skimpy negligee and truthfully – even though I called myself a mistress seven years ago I still had the mind set of a girl and as such , definitely wanted this guy to fuck me sometime during the session.

    The sex went down as you might think, he was on top and I was teasing him from the bottom but his kisses all around my nipples were enough to drive me insane and so , though I had this theory that I was going to tease him from that position for the entirety of his two hour session , it wasn’t more than twenty minutes that I let him plunge into me for the better part of an hour.

    Sex the last time I was with such a hottie , quite a different story.

    Whereas the German man had come to see me only five or six times over the period of four months , the Danish kid – truly a kid at 22 years old  and also a model – he did all his modelling her in South East Asia and had been coming to see me weekly for over a year.  At the end his sessions had morphed from two hour affairs to an all weekend ordeal where he was my live in slave from Saturday morning until Sunday night.  Now you might be thinking “wow” followed by thought of “just how much femdom shit did she do to him over 48 hours” , and if you are thinking that you’re just not thinking deep enough.  Like a relationship that’s moved out of it’s “fuck anywhere and everywhere” first four month stage, these femdom relationships evolve similarly from “what’s she going to do to me next” to “when’s she ever going to do something to me again.”

    Meaning, I love doing something like completely tying a guy up with so much rope that he can’t barely move, and just leaving him like that with his dick hanging out.  Letting him barrel roll himself to the bathroom to take a piss while I’m out shopping with his money is bliss.  Knowing that he hates being used so infrequently as time goes on … as if I’m bored of him in every way shape and form is exhilarating to me.

    I’d call him filthy Malthe because his dick was always hard.  No matter how much I’d wrap him in saran wrap , or rope him up hog tied … his dick would always be red and hard as a rock.  The reason of course – was me.  I’d totally ignore him as he laid straight as a board on my sofa engulfed in plastic wrap – and then suddenly every so often I’d walk over to him without ever making eye contact and just soak his dick with the oil on my hand , fondling the dick with a tone of anger until it was almost instantly hard … and then leaving him alone as I’d retreat to my bedroom for a nap.  But first thing I’d do after I had woken up , I’d walk over to his dick , soak my hand in oil and slap his balls with one hand as I stroked his cock with the other.

    Got that idea from the James Bond scene where he suffered through a torturous scene having his balls whacked from under a chair.  Ever since then I’ve made it a point to stretch out the testicles so then hang way down before I commence wrapping or tying.

     

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    To do this … if you’ve seen my L shaped sofa you’ll understand better.  The wrapped body needs to be angled such that his feet are on the bottom part of the L sofa and his body is resting on the main body of the sofa which is up against the wall.  That way his hips are the only part hanging in the open air , and allows his balls to dangle down below while his dick protrudes from the plastic up above.

    “Filthy Malthe , why was your dick asleep?” I’d ask while whacking down below and stroking even harder up above.  By the time a minute had rolled past his dick would be bobbing up and down like a wind sock and he’d be whimpering from the pain of his spanked testicles.

    So weekend after weekend Malthe would show up just to be ignored for 24 hours , only to be used to keep his cock constantly hard.  Well, for the periods I was home at least.  But rest assured if I came home and his dick wasn’t hard , he’d be punished extra hard.  It got to the point that the anticipation of me coming home and being upset … would be enough mental stimulation to keep him perpetually hard.

    Anyways, I began … I don’t know when exactly … but after a few months of this I began to fantasise about his cock … it’s redness, it’s constant hardness.  Fuck I even started having dreams about dick shaped wind socks flapping in the wind at the Chiang Mai airport.  Why Chiang Mai?  No fucking idea.  I don’t control the locale of my dreams ok.

    So this one particular weekend came where I once again had him in saran wrap on my sofa , except this time I left his off hand … his left hand unbound and free to play with his dick.  In fact I encouraged it.  I told him when he arrived that Saturday that the session that weekend would end anytime I caught his dick fully flacid.  Half mast was perfectly fine , though harder was preferred.

    To drive the point home of how quickly his weekend session would end … I walked abruptly out of my room at 2am , just a mere hour after we had finished watching Van Helsing on Netflix and caught him falling asleep and his dick pretty much flaccid.  He looked up at my eyes and caught the reason for the anger immediately, and began to furiously pump away at his dick to please me and keep his session going.

    See where I’m going with this?  This is most likely I think the origins of my last story where I was digging deeper into the subconscious of a sleep deprived man and how easy it is to fuck with a man in that state.

    Just the idea alone of being ignored by a mistress who obviously enjoys having you around in her presence … that must be hell enough for you guys.

    By Sunday afternoon Malthe was deliriously tired.  He even nearly fell asleep on the toilet after I had unwrapped him, caught him with his head back over the porcelain of the toilet trying to catch a few winks while he pooped.

    All the while, I had been growing steadily more and more horny over the weeks that he was staying at my place.  Why?  Do you understand what makes me horny?  His suffering.

    fuck-board-manKeep in mind that when Malthe goes home, like even right now as I type this … he’s back home locked up in chastity and the key is dangling around the neck of a stuffed teddy bear tucked away in darkness in my closet.  So when he comes to see me , he’s beyond thinking about his next orgasm , he just wants at minimum some attention thrown the way of his poor dick.  And so all my attention , when it pleases me to do so , gets thrown at his dick without a care for his whining.  It’s situations like that where the man is helpless … that wet my pussy.

    See?  I’m not like any other girl.  A Joey Tribbiani “How you doin’? does nothing for me.  But a man’s dick being used as a wind sock does everything for my wetness.

    To set it up , I needed a distraction because the act of sex cannot have any pleasureful anticipation on his part.  So to that regard, there was the problem of the condom and more to the point how guys take forever to get the rubber jump suit on sometimes.  Therefore, as a punishment for his remarkable ability to keep his dick at least at half mast for an entire eight hours I told him I was making his life harder by making him pop a condom on the thing.

    Now, if you thought it takes a normal man forever to get a rubber on , how long do you suppose it takes a one armed man wrapped in plastic to get the job done?  Answer : about as long as it took me to slap his balls a few hundred times to hurry him up.  Didn’t help that he was trying to put it on with his left hand rather than his right , or that every few slaps I’d hit a wee bit too hard.  Ah the games within the game, that’s where the fun lays.

    I retreated back to my room once it was on and I was on the bed fingering myself imagining the orgasm I was about to have … one that didn’t involve my fingers bringing me to climax for once.  How beautiful is that , a girl can finger herself with her bedroom door wide open without an ounce of fear that the guy sitting (err, wrapped) in the other room won’t accidentally walk in on her and in a single moment realise over 1000 of his childhood fantasies on an instant.

    So boom … I strut out naked and that’s the first time all year he’s seen me in my birthday suit and his jaw just drops and hits the floor.  Like a jockey mounting a thoroughbred I fling one leg over his body and wedge it into the crevice of the sofa by my knee and guide his raging shaft all the way into my hole balls deep in one shot without pause.

    I palm his face and slap him for disobedience as he tries to shake his head so he can peep through my fingers.  Again my hand goes right to his face for leverage.

    Always it’s like this.  For one, I’m always on top.  Always.  I squirt ten times more when I’m riding the horse.

    I’ve found lately with this new type of sex that I’m into that I also squirt 100 times more when the horse is like one of those mechanical bull seats you see at a cowboy bar.  Meaning, it’s thoroughly under my control.

    No offence, but guys actually take the word “bang” as in “i wanna bang her” too literally.  All that bucking down below and pounding like you’re trying to drive a six inch nail into a piece of wood with your dick … does nothing for me.

    Better is the guy who can’t move , can’t buck , can’t raise his hips, can’t spread his feet or bend his knees.  His job is just to lay there motionless and let me do the driving.

    Thus the need for the palm roughly applied to the face.  In order to fully squirt , my clit has to be arched forward and full exposed from the inside to ride up and down the vein-y part of his shaft and to do so a girl needs to keep her back arched and pelvis thrust forward.

    To do so during normal sex controlled by the guy is neigh impossible.

    But to ride a fuck board in such a manner is simplicity personified , especially when one can use the man’s face as a point of leverage to push off of … to keep the back arched in a comfortable manner.

    And really , that’s what guys are to a mistress when it comes to the super rare occasion you are gifted to have sex with one of us.   You’re a fuck board.  That’s it.  Like an ironing board , you serve a purpose for the greater good.

    What’s great about it is … well, you know how guys like talking to their buddies about how they really fucked this girl or that girl “good and hard” … and it turns them on to reminisce about it?  Well the guys I’ve fucked love it even more that I’ve fucked them “good and hard” when all is said and done.  And the measurement by how “good and hard” they got fucked is not by how my pussy manoeuvred over his cock , but rather how my hand bloodied up his face while reaching orgasm.

    Like it’s nothing to me to dig my nails into the forehead and scrape up and down , sometimes with both hands as I lean further and further away from the guys face to get more curve out of my back and thus push my clit up harder against his shaft.

    I think I’ve cut each and every guy I’ve nailed like this but the funny thing is that on occasion the water flying out of my pussy has gone so far as to land on his face so that the aftermath of his face is a landscape of pussy juice mixed in with trickles of blood.  And even funnier to me is that I often collapse forward onto the guy’s face when I’m done because I’m so thoroughly exhausted that my tit usually finds its way into his mouth and I’m fine with him sucking on the blood and juice for a moment as I recover.

    I don’t linger though.

    man-fuck-boardOnce my fuck board has been used , i’m off the the shower and then to my bedroom.  I’m all about the “slam, stir, thank you sir”  “cum and go” style of sex.  I couldn’t even tell you if Filthy back there was able to get himself off using his left hand after I left.  Couldn’t care less if he did or not.  Total time of my fuck board ride was under a minute.  If he had cum in that time before me … well let’s just say his balls would have left my condo in an un-fixable sort of way.

    Two hours later after my little nap I emerged from my bedroom to find Malthe gripping his still hard dick watching The Mist on Netflix , looking at me with a very inappropriate smile.

    I tossed him a kitchen knife along with his undies and pants saying “see yourself out once you’re free” but then I whirled on my toes back towards him to finish my sentence “and if you ever try to bring up in conversation what I did to you …, well, I’d be thinking about the ramifications for your balls first before I did so.  Understood?”

    “Yes mistress” he nodded.

    “Oh, and one more thing”  … indeed I had almost forgotten.  I had to walk over the the kitchen counter where I had removed his chastity when he first entered my condo and tossed it over to him by the sofa.  “Be a good boy and lock him up for me will ya?  Thanks.”  I said with a smile.

    That’s the first way I fuck guys.  Fuck board style.

    The second?  Punch to the gut sex.

    I dunno, I’m hesitant to describe it.  It’s a bit cruel.  I’m telling ya … there’s a fucking reason why I’m single ok.  No guy can last being my toy for very long and it’s because emotions and feelings always enter the picture from his side while I’m 100% in “i don’t give a fuck” mode about how you feel.  Case in  point, the last time I had “punch to the gut sex” which is very far removed from fuck board sex.

    Fuck board sex is all about me getting what I want … a squirting orgasm , and using a well trained dick to do so.

    “Punch to the gut” sex truly makes it clear to whatever slave is serving me what his role in the relationship is.  I’ve tried exactly two “relationships” as a mistress , and on both occasions the “punch to the gut” evening was the end of things , too much for the guy to handle as deemed by me.

    Hmm, lemme pre-explain what I mean there “deemed by me.”

    I make it quite clear to any guy who’s about to cross the slave line and become “my guy” that from minute one … if there’s any tears shed on his behalf, any voice raised in protest , any temper tantrum , any behaviour deemed unacceptable by me … he’s instantly let go.

    Both guys , and even guys who’ve almost reached that line  are always smiles and hugs when I drop those rules and they say something like “you don’t have to worry about me Mistress.”

    Sure enough, I never have to worry about them when he’s out shopping for me, out working for me , or cleaning my kitchen sink.  I never hear a peep out of him when he’s feeding me popcorn on Netflix night and nary a whimper while he’s sleeping at my feet or with his nose in my ass for the evening.

    But mere weeks later …the look , THE LOOK on both their faces when I trotted home at 4am and they both emerged from their tiny bdsm slave’s room where they’re instructed to remain until summoned by me.

    Not one guy has been able to adhere to the “stay inside your bdsm bedroom until otherwise instructed” , and it’s the moment I come home at 4am with a beefcake of a guy around my arms , and a 10 inch tool between his legs that I’m going to momentarly be fucking in the privacy of my bedroom while you … my boyfriend … have to endure listening to right next door through the thin walls.

    Those eyes man.  The ever so predictable “how dare you” stare that even slaves cast my way.  Followed by their meek retreat back into their room mind you.

    Guys … can’t stand at all … to hear their girl getting fucked in the room next door.

    Remember, the relationships to that point are not very much at all like the sessions I have … not even close to the sessions I had with Filthy.  It’s a boyfriend / Mistress Girlfriend type of thing where we do things that couples in a relationship do.  We go out to dinner, go dancing, much down a muffin at Starbucks , hit a movie, cook dinner , etc.  We do everything together … except fuck.

    That’s reserved for the rare moments I want to let my hair down, stop being a mistress … and instead go out as the hottest girt in the club and pick up a guy who’s possibly way out of my league … to bring him home to my place and fuck him … without regard for your feelings as my boyfriend.

    Not because I’m a cunt.  Because simply … that’s the Mistress’s mindset.  Guys are there to be used , feelings be dammed.

    Now, I never got to discuss the sex act with the first boyfriend slave because he packed his shit up and left whilst I was doing the deed on my bed in the next room , and I’ve never bothered texting him after he left.

    The second guy , in many different ways he kept coming back to this notion that I was being fucked and it was him that wanted to be able to share that with me.

    Ok first … I wasn’t being fucked.

    I was fucking him.  It was me on top … on both occasions.  I was riding his face with my hand just as I do with my fuck boards.  Except I was a little bit more than tipsy (and perhaps high) on both occasions and was enjoying not being a mistress for once.  Hmm , just thought of something.  In recollecting the actual act of sex , that’s what it was really that I was enjoying.  Not that he was super hot.  Not that I has cuckholding the guy in the next room without forewarning him.  Not that the guys I was with were enjoying knowing there was a guy in the other room listening and perhaps crying (something I think guys’ get off on) .

    Nah.  It was the ability to get out of my mind and not be a mistress for a few hours and just be a hot chick in a bar.

    Ah but that’s bullshit isn’t it?  Because even while not being a mistress,  I knew in the taxi coming back to my place that both slaves probably wouldn’t be able to stay in their room and there would be some sort of conflict.  I knew it was a cuckhold scenario developing.  I knew there was a great possibility that both guys would be let go that same evening and it excited me to do so.

    So … see?  It’s really not possible to shed this mistress skin.  I feel like that Venom character from the Spider Man movie.  That black ick that consumes Venom’s body? … That’s the same ick that consumes me and morphs me into the goddess you know.

     

    The thing is … it’s this.

    Having wrote what I’ve wrote , and shared with you how I fuck guys, how I have sex.  I know two things about how you’re thinking.

    Some of you, the minority … are offended.  Truly repulsed that your societal driven notions of how a relationship should go down have been offended.  Again … my mistress mind speaking here … couldn’t care less.

    Then there’s the vast majority of you … who’ve just read this … and wish that could be you.  If you made it this far without jizz in your hand , or a raging cock in your pants at work … I’m impressed.

    The majority of guys out there … want to be used as a fuck board , at least once in their lives.  Preferably by a hot girl like me.

    That’s my curse.  I sit there on the BTS skytrain every day , or sit by the window at Starbucks watching the men pass by me , picturing all the hot ones tied up on my sofa as my personal fuck board, unable to scream , watching my pussy get off on their otherwise useless cock, before I kick the fuck board to the curb.

    The submissive looking ones … I gaze at them and dream about their reactions as I trot an alpha male (soon to be fuck board) by them and into my bedroom.

    I often think , if I did ever get married , what my vows might sound like …

    Do you Mistress, take this Fuck Board as your lawfully wedded Fuck Board.

    To use as a Fuck Board , and to cherish, in sickness and in health, and be loyal to your Fuck Board , til death do you part.

     

    I do.

     

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  • Subconsciously Teased

    Subconsciously Teased

    Of all the interesting things that happened last month on my most recent femdom filled European trip , the one that stood out the most happened between sessions whilst I was alone and semi-unconscious on a train.  Which went along with the theme of the trip in general – the theme that can be called

    “Things that can Happen to You when You’re Passed Out”

    … for lack of a better title.

    So since this is a femdom related blog , lets address my latest fetish – one that can only happen on these European trips apparently – because until Thailand grows some tall-ass mountains back home , it’s gonna be hard to replicate here on my home turf.

    “Mountains you say?  Why mountains?”

    Glad you asked.

    Without a doubt, THE greatest  thing about these travelling European sessions is the enthusiasm that each and every one of you guys has to show off to me the parts of Europe that have captured your imagination over the years.  I’m going to assume a lot here in my next thought , so pardon me if I’m way off on this but it does seem to ring true across all seven sessions I’ve done in Europe since January.  In a nutshell … I think seeing me on a travelling vacation is wholly cathartic for you men.

    Basically what’s going on is …. since it’s not entirely cheap to see me over there at 10k baht per day … you’re taking a guy who’s made his way in the world quite successfully … but that success has come at a great expense … the ability to discover who you are , or more to the point , who you used to be.  Often I feel, that which makes us successful doesn’t necessarily define who we are.  Yes, most of you go on business trips and get to see the world that way , but you’re never truly free when you do so.

    Just as when you take a vacation with your significant other and your kids … there’s a rule set that defines your actions around them so again you’re not truly free.

    But taking a break from your life … to see this hot young mistress you’ve built a rapport with … and being able to let yourself go for days and days on end … motivated by the pride of showing off places that have been dearest to your heart while at the same time having lustful enthusiasm coursing through your veins for the first time since high school … and being able  to live out a fantasy relationship of serving your mistress while feeling free inside …. ya that’s the very definition of cathartic.

    Except for one thing.

    I have worked two hours per day since I can’t remember when , and you guys work upwards of 10-12 hours per day.  My free time is spent in the gym or walking around Bangkok while your free time has your ass plastered to an airplane seat of an office chair , and therein lays the fundamental dynamic which creates a ghastly fitness imbalance between us.

    I don’t smoke , I don’t drink , I’m in the gym with a personal trainer two hours each and every day of the week , plus I go run for an hour at the park nearby three times per week.  I’m pumping out over 100 barbell squats per day and taking the stairs over any escalator I see.

    So whenever I land and am greeted by your open arms at the airport , I’m sooner or later sat down at a coffee table and presented with a travel itinerary that’s so jammed with events that it makes my pussy quiver with excitement as my finger passes over the days activities and sure enough , each and every time I do so my fingernail hits a day that’s filled with just a bit too much to do…. for you.   And that’s the day I decide right there and then at the coffee shop … that I’m going to unleash my little horny fetish upon you.

    Happens every – single – time.

     

     

    Your imagination for travelling , all of you – is stunning.

    The problem is , the brain in your head when tasked with making travel plans while swimming in happy endorphins is holding on just a bit too tight to the days where you were a Rugby star in University and had the thighs of a gazelle to go along with the lungs of a Thoroughbred Racehorse.  When the reality of the matter is that nowadays you have the thighs of a starving giraffe and the lungs of a fat toad.

    Thus, when I see a day outlined as such :

    “We’ll arrive in Zermatt at about 6am which – after a nice breakfast at this quaint little cafe I know – we’ll be able to hike around the Matterhorn and be done by mid afternoon and th…”

    “With me on your back.”

    “Huh?”

    matterhorn bdsm“…we’ll be able to hike around the Matterhorn … with me on your back … i was just adding to your itinerary , please … carry on.”

    “Umm ,yes, well , then we’ll perhaps have a little ski in the late afternoon before relaxing before dinner in front of a grand stone fireplace …”

    “Where you’ll be massaging my feet….”

    “Yes of course, where I’ll be massaging your feet … and then we’ll sit down for a nice dinner , anything my mistress desires is hers for the taking.  And then we’ll head back to the hotel to …..”

    “We’ll head to the shopping mall you mean …. to satiate a woman’s greatest desire , the need to shop.  Yes?”

    “Errr, yes, of course, for sure”  and after pressing his silver rimmed spectacles up to his eyes begins to jot some impromptu ideas of where to shop onto his itinerary paper sprawled out on the coffee table between us, “we’ll stroll through Bahnhofstrasse for a bit then…”

    “A bit” I say , as I wrinkle my nose and eek out a timid smile while slowly lifting my coffee cup to my soft succulent lips and pausing before taking a teeny sip.”

    He laughs uncomfortably , like a school kid about to embark on the longest recess of his life, and then takes off his spectacles and cleans them on the taught shirt that’s curving around his portly tummy, “we’ll have a grand time that evening once we get back to the hotel I’ve booked for us.”

    I finish my sip of mocha latte and place the cup gently down on the coaster before reaching over and stroking his hand with mine … “oh , you have NO idea how fun that evening will be”  I say with another wrinkle of my nose.

    For I knew as soon as he mentioned the Matterhorn , that the walk from the bus to the trail head at dawn would already have his knees shaking like a turkey’s neck the eve before Thanksgiving.

     

    sleep orgasm femdomCome the day , my poor slave has already began to  show the effects from three days of non-stop hustle and bustle as we zipped around from location to location already covering a staggering five cities in three and a half days.  To him the three hour , ten kilometer Matterhorn hike is like climbing Heartbreak Hill at the end of the Boston Marathon.  But no worries, the skiing excursion planned for the late afternoon will have his legs feeling like he’s run both the Boston and the New York Marathons back to back on the same day.  Then of course there’s the three hours of walking around the adorable and yet endless shops of Bahnhofstrasse awaiting him , and no doubt I’m going to recommend we take the long romantic walk back to the hotel instead of a taxi – so that he may haul around the backpacks and shopping bags for a wee hour longer.

    Gotta admit, that day had me pretty freaking tired as well.

    By the time we got back to the hotel my body was screaming for a long hot bath.  Oh , by far, the thing that I love the most about Europe is that some hotels have a bathtub and I wonder how it is that I’ve gone my entire life without enjoying the wonders of a steaming hot bubble bath.  Also, … please humour me , I am a child after all – at times … I freaking love playing with the two hot water and cold water handles in the bathtub as until this year , I had never seen a hot water handle that controls the hot water exclusively.  Hot water was but a dream growing up , something one thought about and wished for desperately while dousing oneself with cold morning water at 5am in the bath trough back home.

    Truth be told , the first time I experienced a hot water shower with an electric heater in Bangkok- I was able to eek out about 12 to 15 orgasms that afternoon.

    But a bathtub … nothing holds a candle to that.  Though I must say that it makes me feel awfully sleepy, something that I needed to fight off because I knew that the longer I sat in the tub , the deeper my host was falling into his exhausted sleep on the bed.

    Ok so here’s what I’ve learned about this fetish I’ve acquired – always wait until the second round of REM sleep , not the first , before instigating the torture.

    Somehow, someway, a man’s sense of responsibility with respect to time – and not wasting it – still is on guard through the first round of REM sleep , and if awoken , though it may take a few minutes – he’s well and able to continue on with his evening no matter how late it may be.

    But come the second round of REM sleep , about three to four hours into his collapse – there’s no fighting back.  It’s like playing with a zombie , I shit you not.

    The guys eyes may open, his body may move, but there’s no coming back from whatever dreamland he’s in – not when the body is in full emergency recovery mode from an arduous day of exercising non stop.

    And thus … his cock is fully at my mercy.

    That’s the beauty of a guy’s dick , it never sleeps.

    There’s a wonderful , indescribably childish feeling that comes over me when I know the agony of a Tease & Denial is fully separated from a man’s consciousness.  To have a cock at full mast and leaking oil all over the place while the man is snoring away is kind of like copying the final exam from a teacher’s briefcase while he’s out for lunch.  (not that I’ve ever done such a thing, cough cough)

    You see, to understand fully the excitement derived from playing with the rock hard cock of a passed out man … you absolutely must understand my perspective on the usage of a man’s dick.  The usage of such could be explained in an entirely separate full story as the details are quite intricate, and it’s quite a window into the girl I am or perhaps better words might be .. the woman I have become.

    Simply stated, a man’s dick is for my amusement.  That and only that.  I couldn’t care a rat’s iota if the man wants to pleasure me with it, wants to show off it’s girth , or even wants to raise a pirate’s flag upon it ; really couldn’t care less.

    In mistress mode, I get 0 satisfaction from anything other than using it as my own personal toy.  Now there’s still a slight , very slight normal girl mode that still exists at times (though less and less frequently as time marches on) which lets me drop my guard and use it for pleasure – but even then – there are rules.  And that’s what I’m saying about a whole separate blog entry can be written upon the subject.   Safe to say, this job fucks with a girl’s mind, like an enjoyable seething corruption that over time fully consumes what was once my old brain.

    So, this dude is paying me 10,000 baht per day to be a Mistress’s boyfriend, and somewhere within those 24 hours he’s hoping (expecting? haha) for some attention to his dick.  Agreed?

    Well where is it written that said cock play can’t be carried out while the guy’s passed out unconscious on the bed and only aware sub-consciously that his dick – or more to the point – his balls are in agony?

    To me it falls right into the category of using a guy’s dick in a way that is so far removed from what he had planned that it’s ever so enjoyable.

    tease sleep femdomThere I am then, at 1am, just as I’ve done with every single guy I’ve seen in Europe this year, having myself a Netflix binge on my phone (which isn’t ideal but hey – can’t wait to buy the Galaxy fold phone) with my phone in my left hand and his dick and balls in my right hand.  As an after thought it seems, I’m caressing and stroking his dick ever so softly as I push through the first 3 episodes of Black Summer.  It’s important that in the first hour I’m surgically soft with my touch so that somehow he incorporates his dick being played with seamlessly into his dream.  That’s why the distraction of a movie or a show works wonders as it lets my hand – with all of its last 7 years of teasing experience – just subconsciously go through the motions of getting him harder and harder without disturbing his deep sleep.

    The beauty of such a tease is that there’s no need for bondage whatsoever.  As I pass into the second hour – and fourth episode of Black Summer – he stirs.  In this particular case, he simply turned his head from side to side multiple times with a frown upon his brow.  Guys react differently when the painful throbbing of the testicles begins to pull the exhausted man from the sub-conscious to a more conscious state.  I say “more” because truly – he’s so physically drained that there is only mental will to fight back, nothing physical to be concerned with at all.

    Other guys have mustered a squint eyed , chin against chest , gawking (for a brief second) at his pulsing dick – before collapsing back into the pillow.  Some had tried to roll over in the bed to go belly down but that’s easily countered with a bit of body pressure , cuz like I told you there’s no physical fight left in the guy.

    I had one guy yelp.  Yes – yelp.  In the middle of the night in a French hotel in Cannes there was this very loud YELP which sounded more like a grunt and a choked scream … kind of like the sound made when forced to eat Broccoli and Brussel Sprouts at grandma’s house.

    But this guy just stirred.  Shook his head left , then right, then left again , and sunk back into the pillow.

    To which I’ll pause a minute or so and simply hold onto the flag pole with clenched fist … before resuming light stroking again once he’s drifted back into his dream.

    Now as accidentally learned with the last guy – the dick most certainly can orgasm by itself without the guy being awake and aware.  I had no idea.  I truly thought that cumming had to include a willing consent from the mind , an agreement of sorts to attain ejaculation.  Probably that’s due to all my sessions having the guy tied to my bed and seeing him trying to will his dick to orgasm while being restrained – and sometimes they’re successful – though it doesn’t seem enjoyable to do so.  But the point is , I have been totally mistaken all this time.  The cock functions as a separate entity and doesn’t need the brain to be let in on what it’s doing.

    Which … is fucking perfect because as I told you … I always seek to separate cock from mind in my sessions.  It’s a toy , nothing more, nothing less.

    Did you know there’s a reason I’m not on the pill?

    It has nothing to do with wanting to feel natural without hormone intervention , and nothing to do with planned pregnancy.  It simply is a deterrent to acting spontaneously.

    Like, I’ve had a couple of times – truth be told – that I’m there in session in the middle of the night with a rather hot passed out guy and his massive dick is just pulsing away uncontrollably in my hand that my pussy is literally leaking fluid all over the sheets like a motorcycle with a broken brake line.  If I was on the pill – I’d surely have mounted the guys cock and used it to get off in the middle of the night without him knowing.

    One of my fantasies is to be able to constantly fuck a guy without him knowing.  Now I’ve tried that before by getting a guy so high that his mind is perma-lost in the 4th dimension falling through an ever warping abyss of space … but even so … a guy knows when he’s being fucked by a tight pussy.  Only by pushing a guy to his physical limits throughout a day’s activity, then mixing in a glass or two of wine, and bringing him home late sets the table for the only time him and his dick can be fully separated.  God I’d love to have a nice dick to fuck without regard for his wants or desires on a regular basis.

    I guess what I need is a dude to go run a marathon a day for me and then take him shopping every day throughout the year.  Maybe send him to the gym for a late night squat session and then and only then … would I own his dick every night.

    Meh, a girl can dream.

    So as much as I wanted to briefly hop on and super slowly tease my pussy with his hardness , I resorted to the next best thing – giving him the sorest case of blue balls he’s ever had.

    One of the best giggle moments I’ve been able to enjoy constantly as a Mistress is seeing a guy I’ve teased throughout the night try to walk to take a piss in the morning and having to cup his nuts like they’re about to fall off … and then moaning on the toilet seat.

    “What the fuck , why do my balls hurt so much?” he said as he walked bow legged over to the hot water machine beside the TV.

    “No idea, maybe you walked too much yesterday?”

    “No, not even close to that, they feel as if they’ve either haven’t cum in a year , or they came twenty times last night and are thoroughly drained.”

    “Well I am capable of giving you both of those scenarios” I said with a devilish smile.

    As that was our final morning together I gave him a good thirty minute long over the knee spanking to make the task I had in store for him that day a miserable affair.  And so we’re moving closer to my semi-unconscious moment … but to understand what knocked me out into oblivion you have to understand what I had planned for my slave that final day.  I had eyed a few times on previous trips to Switzerland the bicycles one can rent at any train station – in particular the double seated bike’s as my Mistress mind instantly equated that into having a slave do all the hard work for me while I rode along effortlessly.   Or so I thought.

    So after taking a short ride down to Rifelberg the idea was to make him rent one of those two seated (tandem) bike’s and with his sorely spanked ass either on the seat or hovering above … to pedal us all the way on a scenic bike path to the next station which looked to be about a 2 hour bike ride.

    I thought how miserable must it be for a man to have an aching case of blue balls and a stinging red ass have to pedal not only himself but his Mistress as well down a bike path while she had her hands down his pants making the trip even more miserable.

    Except … it wasn’t a two hour trip.  As I found out before in Taman Negara , Malaysia , I’m not a very good map reader and distance estimation is definitely not my forte.  That evening in Malaysia it almost got my slave killed and to this day he still writes me about how terrified he was.  But in a sense, this mishap was worse.  Worse in that … well in Malaysia we were lost in the jungle on a never ending path that I had deemed to be a good “shortcut” to our destination in the middle of the jungle and I had hurt my ankle , so I was being carried on his back as darkness descended.

    On this day, as we entered our fourth hour on the bicycle – my ass was experiencing a new sort of hellish pain.  The last time I had felt so much anal hurt was when I chose an all day jaunt on horseback in Central America.  I’ve heard that riding a camel is even worse , but I can assure you that going up and down mountainous hills on a thin leather covered steel bike seat is a hell of its own.

    I had long since abandoned the idea of keeping his dick warm as I coasted along behind him making him do all the work.

    Nope, I wanted to get the ass trip from hell over with so by the end I was pedalling just as hard if not harder than him from behind and sweat was pouring down my back – soaking my pullover.  Worse is that when seated behind, there’s no warning of when we’re about to go over a bump so it’s kind of like being anally assaulted by surprise every now and then and I’d utter out a mad “holy fuck, ow” once every 5 minutes or so.

    Six hours later we pulled into whatever station that was and we walked the bike … him bowlegged … me ducklegged … to the place where you check in the bike.

    Yada-yada-yada , we said our goodbye’s and headed off on separate trains in different directions- him heading back home and me off to my next session a good 9 hour train ride away.

    “Good” I thought, nine hours of sleep isn’t what I wanted, it was what I needed … what I craved.  Damn I love Swiss trains , French trains for that matter as well.  They aren’t like Thai prehistoric trains that have parallel seating as you stare at the person sitting across from you on wooded seats.

    There’s all kinds of seating arrangements on these trains from Double Seats, to the Parallel Seats , and then there’s this curved section of seats that extends into a sofa like padded couch that sits right in the middle of the car.  I made a beeline for that section of seats and was overjoyed when the sparsely occupied car had nobody choosing to sit anywhere close to me.

    “Oh my god, a bed of my own” was all I was thinking as I sunk into the seats and put my feet rudely up to occupy all four or five spaces along the left wall of the car.

    It must have been instantaneous that I had drifted off , I don’t even remember pulling out from the station.  I was jolted awake by the ticket conductor asking to see my stub and in a stupor I was able to dig into my purse and present it to him , before clutching the purse to my breasts and coddling it like a baby as I once again drifted off into a deep sleep.  I even remember what I was dreaming about when I dozed off.

    I was dreaming about the irony of being given a taste of my own medicine with this zombie like REM sleep craved state I was in , except I had no guy to fondle my pussy for the next nine hours.

    But I did feel like I had a guy fondle his fingers near or around my breasts and I think I even may have smiled initially at the thought.

    Then, not so much as it felt like a gentle but definitely noticeable tugging was going on around my chest area.  Rather than arise in a stupor like I made all my slaves do however, I laid there slowly but ever increasingly aware of my surroundings even though I kept my eyes shut.  Then there it was again, a tugging upon my chest.

    Ever so slightly I lifted the brow of my right eye just enough to shed some blurred light on my environment and the first thing I saw was an arm and hand reaching out toward me.  Then another tug but not upon me but originating from atop my purse which I was clutching to my chest … the hand was trying to slowly unzip my purse!

    But you see,  i was so fucking exhausted that I couldn’t think very clearly about what to do.  It felt like waking up in the hospital wearing the immediate after effects of the knock out drug they give you before an operation.

    Like, my brain was indeed telling me “this dude is trying to rob you” but my body was responding with a definite “so what, let’s get back to sleep”  and as much as that sounds ludicrous to you , it was a very valid argument for my mind to reason out at the time.  I simply didn’t want to move.

    Now to understand what happened next , you have to understand a bit about how things work where I’m from.  As I’ve had to tell some of you guys throughout the years that you’ve visited me … not a lot , but a few … if you have some sort of legal issue here in my country the last place you want to go is the police station.  Any involvement with the cops here has you putting yourself at great risk and that’s because unlike where you’re from … cops here aren’t to be trusted.

    So I have this ingrained rule that teaches you foreigners whenever I can to not fuck with cops while you’re abroad hanging out in a corrupted country.  Which I suppose ran through my tired mind as “that applies to me travelling alone in this brief moment in a foreign country, so let’s resolve things on our own shall we.”

    Thanks to many a wrestling session with Wael who’s actually trained how to fight , my instincts kicked in from play fighting with her … and in a flash I reached out and grabbed the guy by his pinky finger and twisted it outwards as she has done many a time in our sessions.

    This thin as a razor kid , mid 20’s ish , with blonde or almost albino like hair – tried to dart and then collapsed to his knees in the middle of the aisle as I twisted his baby finger even more.  He reached with his other hand to rescue his finger and when he did so I was able to grab is index finger from that hand as well.

    Whatever he started whispering I couldn’t understand, but he did understand the one word I said … “sit” while I motioned with my eyes for him to crawl over to the seat that were a moment ago occupied by my stretched out legs.

    ballbusting-femdom-jaa4u-bdsmHe did so in a hunched over ball of pain as I kept the twist on his baby finger active.

    “No police” I said to him.  “Understand” and made a no motion with my head “no police.”

    He shook his head in a yes yes motion and made a pleading motion with his eyes toward his pinky finger are twisted backwards in my right hand.

    ‘Up” I said matter of factly.  Gesturing with my hand for him to get up he stood in front of me … again all hunched over in pain.

    Sitting up before him I used my hiking shoe to first spread his right leg … and then his left one … but he instantly moved them back together again.

    “No police ..ok?”  I said again, wanting to use the most basic of English in this moment.

    Again I kicked at his legs to get them to spread … and then raised my right boot to hover beneath his balls.

    “No police … yes?” and yanked on his finger bringing the fucker to almost fall on top of me.

    He rolled his eyes desperately and that was the moment of weakness I was waiting for as my foot sprung up and hoofed him with my shin bone right between his legs … and this time he did crumple towards me as his knees hit the floor.

    You know what?  I knew he liked it.  Because I let his finger go at that moment and well one of two things could have happened there.   One he could have struck me … probably not but possible nonetheless.  Or two he could have darted for another car on the train and hope that I wouldn’t report him.

    But he chose option number three … to remain on his knees clutching at his balls and then as the pain subsided a bit … looked up at me and our eyes held one other for a good ten seconds … before I showed disinterest and put my purse under my head as I stretched out my legs again , averting my gaze to the ceiling.

    Still, it took him a good five seconds or so to give up hope on …. I dunno … perhaps he was hoping for another kick … or maybe he was somehow turned on by what just briefly went down.   He left walking down the aisle towards the next car … and moments after I fell back into a state of semi-consciousness ….

    but all the while replaying the whole scenario again and again as I drifted off to sleep … with a dampness between my legs.

     

     

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    Last of the ̷S̷t̷a̷r̷k̷s̷ Writers

    My Mother always told me “schools are designed to teach to the lowest common denominator.  Let them, and you’ll become as stupid as they wish you to be.”   So though I really wanted to begin this rant with the sentence “how stupid do they think we are?” referring to the crew of frat boys writing these final episodes for Game of Thrones , I immediately answered my own rhetorical question …. “as stupid as they wish us to be.”

    As I was discussing in private emails with a number of you last week , it’s important that when each episode is over that we take a moment to appreciate what we are acknowledging was great … the cinematography.  Last week the pace, the visuals, the mood, the grandeur of the battle was so very well shot.  I really seemed to hit a chord with some of you when I suggested that it was like the director purposely went back and watched some of the nearly great but too long and drawn out battle scenes in the Lord of the Rings series – and corrected mistakes made so that his attempt was spot on.

    But the story line , holy hell – luckily George RR Martin isn’t dead or he’d be not just rolling over in his grave but he’d be doing all sorts of acrobatics just to come to the surface and bitch slap the frat boys trying to turn a masterpiece into sewer scum level of an IQ plot line.

    Today’s episode, The Last of the Starks for example.

    tormund-and-the-hound… wasn’t it enough for Ser Jamie and Brianne to “consummate” their respectful relationship with him knighting her?  Pretty well done , but then the writers said “nah, let’s give the fans what they want even if it’d be THE most awkward sex scene ever made – and let’s have them fuck.”

    … Fuck we have to get on with the Star Wars series say the writers, so let’s cut out meaningful shit like Sansa and Arya’s reaction to John telling Bran to tell them what his bloodline really is.

    … Following up on the uber intelligent military tactic of sending 10,00 Dothraki riders into a dark snowstorm to fight the dead by themselves , miles away from the 100,000 Unsullied that they were initially lined up with …. let’s this week have Danny & Tyrion and about 30 soldiers present themselves at Cercei’s doorstep with John’s army 2 weeks behind up in Winterfell.

    … Apparently Ballistas have 100% accuracy against moving dragons.  Here I am, the one who has often lamented that the hit to miss ratio of gunfire in movies in inversely proportionate to how good the flick is (miss all shots = movie sucks donkey balls)

    … Is it just me?   Or is it too painfully obvious that all Danny needed to do was fly around behind Euron’s ships and flame them from the rear … you know since that would require his Ballistas to swing around and blow their own masts to pieces.

    … So Danny is about to become a Tyrant herself , pretty much nullifying anything that happened that entire season in Mereen.

    … Question:  Which couple has less sex appeal between them , Anakin / Padme  or Jon/ Danny?

    … Admit it, you’d pay 30,000 baht or more for a 2 hour bdsm session with Arya as your mistress.

    … Admit it also, the idea of forced bi with The Hound both scares and excites you.

    … Here’s hoping that on his way back up north, Tormund stumbles upon a Netflix Office somewhere in front of Castle Black and gets pitched a show of his own.

    … Here’s hoping that none of the writers from The Walking Dead or Season 8 & 9 of GoT are involved in Tormund’s spin off show.

     

     

    When all is said and done in two weeks time I’m envisioning those of us who have read the books to play out a scene from Beverly Hills Cop in our minds.  At the end of BHC the police chief shows up at Victor’s estate and asks Billy what happened.  Then upon hearing Billy’s long winded bullshit answer , he turns slowly to Sgt. Taggert and calmly says something like “Sgt.Taggert …. do you mind telling me what really happened?”

    George Martin … do you mind telling us what REALLY happens in the end?

     

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    p.s:  LOVE how twitter is having fun with the frat boys writing this morning , oh and the Starbucks coffee mishap ….

     

     

     

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