Who am I? That’s not a rhetorical question for you, its a self-reflective inquisition of myself. If I look at the bright side of things – and god knows that’s been hard to do this month – I could step back and say that I’m just maturing from the mid 20’s girl I was when I started writing for this site to the “not quite” mid 30’s woman I am now , and with time has come a decade of change that makes me wince at who I was , right up to about a year ago. Now some might say it took this cancer in my chest to bring about change but in truth its been this whole last …
I’m trying to figure out why it’s been so damn hard to write this story , after all, I’ve been at it all day , and this is the umpteenth retake. So around 5pm , out of total frustration, I went outside on the balcony and had a good conversation with my cactus plant as I usually do when things are feeling a bit overwehelming. Sitting there from late afternoon to mid evening with my plant coddled between my knees , watching the day turn to night , I kind of got some clarity on just why it’s always been hard to write about something other than the crazy fun sessions that I do every month. There’s always been this …
3 months. 0 sessions. And I am still alive. Wow. Not only that … I feel better and stronger and way more sexy than me in March. In March I was 65 kg. Today I hit 59kg … yes down 6kg. Why? How? I learned a new English word lately … budget. How to budget 500 baht to last one month for food. Actually I learn a lot of new english word lately and it really fuck up my Thai. 2 example. Yesterday I went to buy mint from across the street the girl sale all the vegetebles on her cart. I had no idea anymore how to say mint in Thai. I kept saying “mint, mint, mint” to …
Sorry for not posting for a while, given where I live though, I must be careful about what I say as free speech is something of a misnomer here in times of duress. No doubt, as like you, I’ve had a few hundred thoughts pass through my mind , all of which are worthy of prose. However if I did use this platform to write about just my thoughts in the absense of bdsm sessions it wouldn’t have the FemDom / Mistress’s thoughts balance that Jaa and I have maintained over the past decade. But I’m getting an uptick in the number of “what’s it like over there, things changing?” kinds of emails , so let me just brief you …
