The reason I have to do experiments on toilet slaves is in the picture at the top of this blog post … mainly, all the shredded notes that I destroyed by hand yesterday when stuck in the middle of one of my episodes hitting. In a rage of frustration with my old self I took 4 or 5 old notebooks that I had scribbled in last year from August to November and tore them to shreds for a few hours. The contents of those notebooks? Numbers. Millions and millions of random numbers that my brain feeds me when it sits idle and has nothing to focus on. They aren’t even helpful numbers that unlock mysteries of the universe or anything …
My two head pillows … heart and USA. I need a Swiss, German and Canadian set of three next … after my three favorite slaves of all time. It’s difficult to breathe out here today as the humidity went through the roof in the past 24 hours. That means the humidity will keep building until the rainy season begins about a month from now. Also means some violent night time monsoon rain storms are about to hit which will make my reading a bit of wet experience as the roof leaks in places. I will have to work on adding more leaves and bamboo before the sun comes up. Yesterday was a down day for me but I did a …
I like this book cover the most. I like chapter one – it is very relatable. The mood organ which alters brain chemistry to produce a desired mood – that’s the Lorazepam they made me take for down mood. The Prozac they made me take to dial up a happy mood. The Haloperidol they made me take to dial in a ‘I’m dead to the world’ mood – heh, as if anyone would ever voluntarily want to dial up that mood. What’s also interesting to me is that Deckard’s wife wants to be depressed lol. I can’t imagine for any reason, wanting to choose what happens to me from time to time. That she wants to feel like I do …
Silent No Mess Feeding video is in the second part of this blog post for my FanVue and Patreon subscribers. For the top – free half of the blog, I have some thoughts about what I’ve been going through that I have to get off my chest first. Here are my most recent thoughts on how to improve my life by ending all this conflict and getting away for good from people that … if I’m being honest … as much as I love them, I’d be much better off being away from them. Buy something small like this house for 800k. Give the land here back to my family. Move out in the middle of the night when they’re …
Here’s why the video below is the best 13 minutes of Tease & Denial you’ll ever see … it’s kind of super hot – like you’ll know as you’re watching it that it really hits a ‘hardly ever seen something so genuine and yet so erotic’ nerve. However, that’s not what I’m inspired to write about. Nope, I’m inspired to write about two things … one being a really funny backstory to the video but I’m so embarrassed to tell you that I’ll put it in the ppv Patreon section with the video itself and that’s because this word I’m going to share with you … became such an inside joke because it was used in over five thousand femdom …
The best pegging video ever made is only 34 seconds long. I’ll show it to you in a second but let me use this free part of the blog to tell you why that is. There are three styles of pegging when it comes to female domination. First, you have the most common – the Mistress “letting him have it” as if she believes she’s actually “wrecking” the guy oh and he plays along with it so it ends up being nothing more than a charade. Sadly, this is what 90% or so of Mistress’s offer and 100% of what their slaves accept. Man, are you guys ever missing out. The second – is a new style of pegging that …
The FanVue / Patreon subscriber portion of the blog in the 2nd half will be CBT related, but for the free portion, I feel like making an admission – that I was wrong in that there is nothing I can do to a toilet that won’t make him have and sustain a tent in his pants. You see, previously – and by previously I’m talking oh about one thousand HTT and HTS sessions where I have tried by any means possible to break those choosing to submit to me. In each instance no matter how extreme my idea was and no matter how much kicking and fussing was going on below me – I was always assured of that stiff …
Ok so Roadside Picnic is my 8th book. That’s a lot of reading since August. This the first page of all the books I have read where I was stopped cold not quite believing what I had just read … and then went back and read it a few more times. The first few just to confirm what I had read, and then each time after that simply to marvel at how much it shocked me. As a mom, I think this line will haunt me forever in a good way. Like, it really hit me hard and I went from loving the book – oh say 10/10 which you know because I have been raving about it – to …
Before I recount the story in the ppv section below for my Patreon and FanVue subscribers – let’s go over what “Cuckhold Hell” truly is. This is the grand sum of all cucking session requests we’ve ever had at jaa4u.com : “Oh Mistress, can you tie me up and force me to watch one of your lovers with a huge cock fuck you while you look at me to laugh and humiliate me. You can even put me on the floor under your pussy so I can watch his 10 inch cock pound your pussy and make you moan then I’ll have no choice when you make me slurp out all of his cum from your hole. I’ll be so …
Take any man, not just a submissive one. Empower him. Give him space to do what he believes he does well – encourage him and most importantly, reward his triumphs with every sexual fantasy he has ever dreamed of – and you don’t just have a slave, you have a king who has voluntarily surrendered his entire kingdom to you, he just doesn’t know it yet. And yes, I know how that sounds coming from a woman who still forgets to take the laundry in when it begins to rain as just happened and once tried to “dominate” a jar of pickles that wouldn’t open … but this is the part they never write in the glossy manuals or the …
