“The ways and rituals of testicular sacrifice are difficult to master. The timing of the stomps is imperative. Without the proper cadence at precise intervals, the process can fail spectaularly.” I actually had a session today. First time in forever. He was asking for testicle torture. Instead I gave him testicular sacrifice. I borrowed the idea from the movie JigSaw I watched last night on Netflix. After the movie I thought “I don’t want to just kick and hurt his balls” … instead … “I want to play a game.” Because I didn’t do a session in so long I wanted to do something amazing and fun. Now I know your head mistress uses hot massage balm for some of …
“Holy fuck, you look absolutely amazing.” “Why wouldn’t I?” “Well , the cancer , the operation , and everything … you know … I just , I mean I thought” his words eventually dropping off to a stuttering stammer void of strength. My first session in , fuck what has it been, half a year almost? And here we were, at the foyer of my condo , standing in silence as he kept checking me out from head to toe and back again. “Well are you going to come in or not?” I politely asked him while stepping to the side and leaned against the edge of my door so that my rose colored dress rode up the bottom curve …
Love and Hope. The two birds that sleep together when I exercise at midnight every night … that is the 2 name I gave them. In the morning I feed them bread when they wake up. At 9pm when I go exercise around my condo they watch me and sometimes sing for me. And when I finish at midnight they sleep. Together. And touch wings like in love. I believe in love. I believe in hope. And I believe in maybe. Her story ‘maybe’ is so powerful. ‘The covid pandemic has lasted 4 months and will last 2 more months minimum before tourists can come back to Bangkok. That is awful, yes? Maybe. Well what if I start …
Who am I? That’s not a rhetorical question for you, its a self-reflective inquisition of myself. If I look at the bright side of things – and god knows that’s been hard to do this month – I could step back and say that I’m just maturing from the mid 20’s girl I was when I started writing for this site to the “not quite” mid 30’s woman I am now , and with time has come a decade of change that makes me wince at who I was , right up to about a year ago. Now some might say it took this cancer in my chest to bring about change but in truth its been this whole last …
I’m trying to figure out why it’s been so damn hard to write this story , after all, I’ve been at it all day , and this is the umpteenth retake. So around 5pm , out of total frustration, I went outside on the balcony and had a good conversation with my cactus plant as I usually do when things are feeling a bit overwehelming. Sitting there from late afternoon to mid evening with my plant coddled between my knees , watching the day turn to night , I kind of got some clarity on just why it’s always been hard to write about something other than the crazy fun sessions that I do every month. There’s always been this …
3 months. 0 sessions. And I am still alive. Wow. Not only that … I feel better and stronger and way more sexy than me in March. In March I was 65 kg. Today I hit 59kg … yes down 6kg. Why? How? I learned a new English word lately … budget. How to budget 500 baht to last one month for food. Actually I learn a lot of new english word lately and it really fuck up my Thai. 2 example. Yesterday I went to buy mint from across the street the girl sale all the vegetebles on her cart. I had no idea anymore how to say mint in Thai. I kept saying “mint, mint, mint” to …
Sorry for not posting for a while, given where I live though, I must be careful about what I say as free speech is something of a misnomer here in times of duress. No doubt, as like you, I’ve had a few hundred thoughts pass through my mind , all of which are worthy of prose. However if I did use this platform to write about just my thoughts in the absense of bdsm sessions it wouldn’t have the FemDom / Mistress’s thoughts balance that Jaa and I have maintained over the past decade. But I’m getting an uptick in the number of “what’s it like over there, things changing?” kinds of emails , so let me just brief you …
So I did my first session today since we halted things 8 weeks ago. I’m gonna shoot from the hip here and type off the top of my head about how it went and the subtle changes I (we) have had to make – and the reasoning behind said decisions. The session itself was fine, great even. It was like seeing a long lost friend one hadn’t seen in years and years, wherein reality it was only our second ever meeting. And oh ya, that ‘long lost friend’ – he of 53 years old – had a raging boner like when he was 23 years old. Oh and not only that, but if you remember back to perhaps your first …
Leg Lockdown. I wanted to talk about my #1 trick for human toilet training today. But the only slave who will do the photo and video of my technique is in Phuket so I have to wait. Ok so. Let me to talk to you about a Jiu Jitsu move I use in my Tease & Denial sessions. First let me show you what it is. And then why I use it. And finally how I use it. Leg Lockdown for Tease & Denial My favourite classes in Jiu Jitsu – the classes they teach a move and I think “yes I can use that in my sessions!” Leg Triangles I use for our play wrestling. Feet on …
The Terminator vs The World ” The Terminator vs The World ” in Theaters June 1st. Sort of, you’ll see what I mean in a bit. See, today is May 1st , and since I believe my country will begin to open things back up on June 1st , I’m focusing on how I might consider resuming sessions since that reality is only about 30 days away. I gotta admit , if Covid was a poker game, and June 1st was the day countries went ‘all in’ and had to show their hands … I’d have thought the chances of my country laying down a royal flush to be slim and none – had you asked me back in March. …
