“Find a need , and fill it” … is what Mistress Jaa likes to say to me.
I think I found a need. But is it only me who thinks the way I do about it?
Every golden shower video I study … every toilet slave video I study … and in every anal pegging video – the slave is a perfect slave. It is like the slave made the video for himself to show off how good he can swallow anything or how loose his ass is already.
I can tell you for sure 90% of my sessions are not like that. Me? I love the “terrible high pitched screaming” like he says in Jaws …
If I get an email and the ‘slave’ is confidant and loves to show off all his experience I almost never book him.
I am looking for the beginner slave. The slave who is shy and scared or not sure he wants to do it but he “has to know” and will say to me “Mistress Wael I have to try I have no choice.”
Do you know why I like a slave like that to sample my fart, my pee, my poo and my strap on?
Because I love the kicking, the screaming , the struggling , the choking and the begging me to stop.
I love to see a slave jump out from under me and put his head in the toilet to spit out … and then drink the water in the toilet to clean his mouth.
When a slave sleeps over or I stay overnight at his hotel … he sleeps with his nose in my ass … and I try not to laugh but I get so excited when I have to fart and I know he will hate it.
I feel I had an amazing session when the slave begs me to stop.
And the best feeling is seeing the slave come back to see me again after he failed in the first session , because he is addicted to humiliation.
Because I love humiliation I am not surprised when I giggle so often.
When men struggle , I love my session even more.
I don’t know why I am like this? But i know I’m bored watching “perfect” fart videos, or “perfect” toilet training videos.
So the thing I want to have and promote the most … because no Mistress does it … is to have a collection of videos about beginner toilet slaves … who are learning but are not close to perfect.
The fun is in teaching.
Who likes somebody that is perfect all the time … at something almost nobody else can do.
Does not make sense right?
Mistress Wael
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This story is outdated. I have now moved to loyalfans. They cunts at OF kicked me off, stole $1000 of my money and all with no warning. They didn’t like the fact I was writing sexy femdom stories on my blog page.
Loyalfans allows all my videos and photos without question. It’s a better interface. Should have started with them in the first place.
My OnlyFans site is up and running : https://onlyfans.com/mistressjaa . It’s $20 / month. I’m posting multiple times daily. Plus live online domination. This story is going to explain the how’s and why’s of what I’m trying to provide you and accomplish.
That I’m writing again, and posting to onlyfans daily, means I can finally put the cancer scare and the condo move behind me … and start having fun for a change!! Because, fuck, what a year this has been eh?
No doubt, all this covid stuff happened because when I returned from Europe back in January I whispered to myself that I wasn’t quite ready to resume sessons yet – that my mind needed just a bit more vacation time away from my Mistress personality.
Because they both live together upsairs like a Dr.Jekyl and Mr.Hyde type of thing , and one can consume the other if I let my dominant Mistress tendancies to take over.
So there I was kneeling beside my little green cactus plant in January, praying to the Cult of the Golden Orb (see video below) that if “I could just have a bit more time off , geez swell, that’d be great.”
Since I was once “the lemon” (see video above), my prayers get heard more often than not and so … due to my request I can confirm it was me and my request which brought covid to the world … only I thought it was going to be for a few weeks or so.
That’s all I asked for , 2 more weeks off at most.
Then I started rationalizing the length of the shutdown. I began convincing myself that our normal lives would be back in May or June.
Which became July or August.
In fact I had just finished emailing people earlier this month that we’d be doing sessions again in October or November.
I felt like Bugs Bunny drawing lines in the sand … egging on covid to “oh ya? cross thisline.”
It was a combination of this Bugs Bunny memory and Faucci saying “xmas 2022 the world should be in a better place to manage the pandemic.”
2022? ! ? ! ?
See all those lines Bugs drew in the sand? If each line represents a month in time I thought … thats about how long Ill be sitting here bleeding money waiting for this to be over.
So March begat April, and April begat May, May begat June and all I did was sit in my condo , alone, wondering if the next month would be better.
Then the pain in my chest started immediately worsening.
At first I chalked it up to nervous anxiety from being alone in my condo for days on end only making human contact with the LineMan food delivery boy. I had this feeling in my chest that inspired constant doom, that 6th sense saying something bad’s about to happen , and at first I thought it was a mental manifestation brought on by my stress.
I still can’t write about June and July , suffice to say that it was just so awful that the best way to deal with it is to focus on the love I got from those of you kind enough to make it so that I’m cancer-free and ensure that I’ll be around for at least a while longer. I can tell you that there’s absolutely nothing more humbling than receiving love when it’s least expected. You guys know from all my stories just how much I’ve felt jaded by love, being scorned time and time again has shaped me into the Dominatrix that I am today. I guess I figured if I’m not worthy of a man’s love then fine I’ll just flip the tables and make a living out of using his lust against him.
So in fact, I have like the video below, a notch on my cane (1,000 in total) for every man I’ve gotten to B.F.O (beg for orgasm) which is my way of of showing each and every man just how agonizingly good a relationship could be with their Mistress , before making their legs quiver and showing them the door. Who knew that some of these same guys that I’d teased mercilessly … would in turn be the very same people who’d save my life.
Andy ______ Sat, Aug 1, 4:32 PM to me Dear Mistress,
I’m writing to thank you again for Thursday night’s session. It took years – years – before I mustered up the courage to visit a domina, and your combination of dominance, compassion, intelligence, warmth, and intimacy went beyond anything I’d expected. So from the submissive bottom of my heart, thank you for taking the time.
When I walked out on Thursday night, everything felt like it had been a strange, beautiful, erotic dream. Like did that really happen? OK, the lingering pain in my left nipple told me it did, but fantasy had become reality, and that can sometimes be difficult to conceive of. When I waited for you in the lobby of your condo, nervous as hell, nothing could have prepared me for the sight of you. You looked even more elegant than I could have imagined. Your smile was angelic, but your attitude was pure dominance.
And after that, every experience – the softness of your breast wrapped in leather, the sweetness with which you spit water into my mouth, the divine smell of your panties draped across my face – was transcendent, absolutely mind-blowing.
So consider this a letter of my appreciation.
Worshipfully,
Andy
Then August hit and with it my first session in what felt like half a year.
I was so into that session! That was a guy, normal looking just like you, who walked into the condo of a girl so starved for conversation and a good time that I damn near raped the guy. What I did to that guys’ mind surely isn’t legal in most countries around the world – And Arkansas.
Sexiness is a feeling, it comes from within. One of the curious things about me is I have an ability to go from as “plain Jane” as a woman can get when I’m feeling grungy , to damn near spectacular when I’m dressed up with make-up and atttitude.
Poor Andrew got his world flipped upside down that night. I reckon he won’t ever have another girl give him an orgasm like the one I gave him that evening.
I slept that night feeling , mistakenly so, that things were about to return to the old normal. And why not right? I’d survived 4 months of this covid lockdown , recovered from my double breast cancer operation , and just had a great session.
But as more days in August ticked away I began to realize – finally – that this covid thing is going to be around for a long long time. I’m talking well into next Spring or Summer before there’s any hint of travel resuming into my country.
Thus, I had to sit down and make a very very hard decision. It just made no sense to stay in my soi 11 condo , so chosen for your convenience , whilst there was no hope of any significant volume of femdom sessions coming through my door.
But I absolutely loved living in that condo. I loved the spaciousness. I loved stepping outside into the heart of Bangkok’s nightlife and my favourite club Above 11 being right next door.
It took this one particular walk down my street at 10pm on a Friday night – where I was literally the only one on the road. Mistress Wael took a video the next night – what would have been a rocking Saturday night back in February – now an empty walk from my condo to bts Nana.
https://youtu.be/LMLXmk5krc0
In tears, I told my rental agent that I wanted to terminate the lease effective immediately.
I say in tears , but not because I was sad , but rather I felt a sense of defeat. Like for fuck sakes, I had just climbed over a significantly tall mountain of adversity , only to clearly see that there were 100’s if not 1000’s more mountains ahead.
By the way, I have no idea why embedded Tweet’s don’t show up in the blog as they used to appear , with the photo intact. I also don’t know why every blog post is dated by the most recent blog post’s date. There is an update sitting in my website’s notification box saying that the website’s theme – named Sriking – has a major update for download … but read this … (Due to major changes in WordPress (jquery related) updating without confirming all your plugins which use jquery are WP 5.5 compatible MAY BREAK YOUR SITE!)
See?
I don’t have the money to update the licence for my Gravity Forms, so I can’t install the theme update. If one of you is feeling generous and would like to buy this year’s licence for me , I’ll give you a major major discount to my onlyfans subscription website in return. Deal?
Anyways, where was I?
Ah yes, the move. Fuck I hate moving.
For one, I’m a tiny girl ok, and moving 50 boxes by myself down one huge condo building and hauling them across the city only to drag them up to the top of another ridiculously tall condo is no easy feat.
I was going to move back home. I had entertained the thought. But so many Thai’s have done that, just given up and crawled back home in defeat that I just refused to raise covid’s white flag.
Ok so move, but to where?
This is where the onlyfans idea started to enter into the survival math, because at the most I can rely on maybe perhaps one session per month only. Yikes.
And I love writing. I haven’t had a chance to write , do photos or make videos since March. I just figured I’d make a bet that getting back to what I love to do – producing content – will the roots of what will make this transitional period successful.
My onlyfans stream of content is a way to show who I really am, my personality, my face, my body, my femdom methods ; and without fear because the true “me” is behind a small paywall. Yay!
I don’t have it all figured out though. One thing I’ve always wanted to do is to be able to post more freely.
My unwritten rule for my website is to keep 70% of these blog stories femdom related , and no more than 30% of the stuff I write to be about me.
Truth is, 500% of my writing ideas are about me and the way I see the world , but I can’t post it. I thought initially I could do that through onlyfans but I can only hide videos and photos behind their paywall, I can’t hide stories.
I’m looking into Gumroad later today as a way to do that , we’ll see. My Kindle store is still without a book , that’s going to change as well.
So let’s talk about onlyfans and what I’m going to be posting there and here. Photo above is my onlyfans profile banner. It’s me as a Mistress. But I intend to make my onlyfans page oh so much more than me acting as Mistress “Jaa”. It’ll be a whole separate blog.
There was a time, from 6 to 3 years ago , where I posted here every day on the blog. Then things got entirely too busy. 2 sessions per day , every day, for the last three years. With the cancer scare and the big condo move behind me, this is an opportunity to get back to doing that.
Mistress Wael is sitting beside me here, we’re in the ‘games lounge’ of my new condo at the foot of Punnawitti bts station , and we’re having a business meeting of sorts. Gotta admit, we spent the first hour here playing pinball, air hockey, and foosball in this games room, then the 2nd hour was spent naked in the steam room and in the pool. Yup naked. True it raised a lot of eyebrows but hey, this isn’t my neck of the woods and staying here is a temporary thing, so frankly I don’t give a rats ass what anybody thinks, and it feels great to carry such an attitude.
But now we’re getting down to business , and here’s what we’ve agreed to do going forward.
A blog story each and every day , alternating days, with no more than a two day break from writing. Starting today with this one, that’s 30 stories a month until travel resumes around the world.
2. A Kindle book written and published by the 1st of every month, again – until travel resumes around the world, with the first one being published October 1st.
3. Photos , Videos and daily thoughts posted on our onlyfans account every day – and if you guys like it, i’ll do it perpetually.
4. Since I’m a night owl and most of you are in Europe or USA/Canada , I’ll be on onlyfans to reply to Direct Messges – for those who tip – from about midnight.
5. There’s a “Go Live” option on my onlyfans page. I ‘might’ entertain doing this, if the tips to do so are significant enough. Truth be told, online domination is wholly new to me. What I’d prefer is to find a volunteer femdom slave who’d Wael and I would tease and control live on camera. We’ll see.
6. Whereas before femdom sessions were only conducted at my place , I understand some of you who are still in Bangkok might not want to make the BTS trip to Punnawitti station – 2 stops beyond Wael’s place at On Nut. Therefore, until I’ve moved back to my soi 11 abode, I’m now open to hotel visits.
In fact, I’d probably say I’d prefer doing my bdsm sessions at your hotel or condo, simply because my new condo is so small compared to my old one. I mean, it does have a majestic 30 foot window on the 38th floor which presents a spectacular view of the city , and it is designed somewhat like an American loft. But it feels like a thin slice of brick cheese living here.
Yes, there’s these impressive stairs that traverse 30 feet upward to my tiny bedroom – and we could hold the teasing part of our sessions there – but you’d probably have the same feeling I have once you’re on the bed … like you’re on the precipice of falling 10,000 feet to your death as the far side of the bed is pushed tight up against the crystal clear ceiling to floor window on the 38th floor.
Downstairs , there’s a sofa fit for 2, a tiny coffee table, a tv , and a ladder. Yup, a ladder.
I had to climb that fucking thing 500 times this week to store all the stuff that won’t fit in this place.
Because that’s what this condo is bascially, air. They’re selling air. No word of a lie – I could throw a baseball as high up as I could in my room – and there’s no way in hell it’d hit the ceiling. It’d be fucking awesome if I could get a contractor in here and find a way to suspend you guys from the ceiling though. Alas, I’ll probably go with tying you to this ladder here and finish you off on the bed.
The facilities though, wowza. There’s a climbing wall on the roof – one that I intend to poke you slaves in the balls with a bamboo pole as I make you try to climb it.
There’s a running track on the roof as well, so you’ll be sitting there on the grass waiting for me to get all nice and sweaty as I run – just so you can suck and lick my smelly shoes, socks and feet thereafter.
Arita, Wael and I shot hoops yesterday on what has to be the highest basketball court in the city. I’d like to say I was the female iteration of Michael Jordan , but you’ll see in the video I’m far from.
And that’s the point of my OnlyFans page.
Whereas for most of you just reading about the new place and imagining me shooting hoops is and has been fine enough, for those of you who want to actually see Wael and I walk you through the facilities of the new condo , see what I’m talking about regarding the 30feet window in my tiny loft, and see me shoot hoops , you can see all three videos plus the Tease & Denial video I posted earlier over on my onlyfans page.
That’s just today. It’s going to be like that every day. There will be a story here on the blog , and if that’s enough for you, that’s great. For those who want more , you can really get to know me through my onlyfans page, and if you want to delve even deeper into the “getting to know me” experience, you can even go live with me over on onlyfans once we’ve agreed on an appropriate tip amount.
Folks, that’s how I envision being able to stay and live in Bangkok.
Oh sure, I have my small shop at the market where Mistress Wael sells her perfume, (please donate a dollar or two to help her gofundme out ) and it’s there that I’ll be selling all my Gucci , Versace and Victoria Secret line of used clothes for pennies on the dollar. Yay 🙁
If I’m lucky that’ll pay for food. Onlyfans will pay for my rent and expenses. And the 1 session per month will be my spending money. That’s the plan!
And if this onlyfans idea takes off , and I become a writer/video content provider , well then – the sky is the limit isn’t it?
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going back to see how many men I can get to show up at the steam room to see me naked every night at 8pm , haha 🙂
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So far I survived 5 months of covid with only 1 femdom session.
I survived because my tiny perfume business sells 2-3 bottles a day. Enough for food , enough to pay for my condo, and enough to keep my 2 daughters in school.
My goal is to grow my inventory to 30 different fragrances with testers for each bottle. 15 perfumes and 15 cologne.
For 3 months I tried to sell at very small night markets , but I know I need to sell at a better place. To do that I need to have more product to sell. Also I need a good display and little things like price tags and business cards.
With no femdom sessions it is very very hard to survive and not possible to invest in more product.
My idea is to use my GoFundMe page this year so I can use real money and not gift cards to help my business. Because I think covid will keep my country from allowing tourism until next year.
I don’t need a lot. $1,000 would be enough.
With that much I can
a) have 30 products to sell with testers.
b) have a display table made so i don’t have to sell from the floor
c) pay the 1 month rent for a space in a nicer market
d) pay for the storage so I don’t have to pay for a taxi to carry my perfume suitcases there and back every day.
My goal is to increase sales to 5-6 bottles of perfume a day to start and then I hope up to 10+ bottles a day.
My profit / bottle is 250-75 = 175 baht. x 5 bottles/day = 875 baht sales.
875 baht – 375 space rental = 500 baht profit.
Yes it is not a lot. But I can live on 500 baht/day until I can grow my business to the next level. For sure I think I can survive this covid shutdown.
Right now if I sell 2 bottles a day I make 350 but I have to pay 100 for the taxi and 100 for rent the space. So I am trying for 1/2 year now to help me and my family survive on 150 baht/day. $5/day in your money.
Very very hard to do.
I turn 40 on August 15th. I’m excited 🙂
With exercise and lifting my kettlebell I am down to 58kg now. When covid started in March I was 65kg.
I look at this year … a very hard year … like it is a challenge to me. Learning how to fight and survive and keep my family alive and my daughters in school is making me stronger.
But I miss all my customers. I loved talking English with everybody after my sessions … just as much as I enjoyed teasing them.
I think you say “all in” right? I was all-in on being the best Mistress I can be last New Year. Now I am all-in on surviving with this perfume business.
I’m proud that I’m still alive and surviving because of my business.
I would like to do more than just survive.
Can you help me a little bit with trying to do that?
What can I give you in return? Let me see. How about 2 things?
When sessions start again – I hope next year – you can choose any cologne bottle you like when you come see me for your session if you help out now.
I’ll send you the video folder link for any folder you like from my bdsm video collection. Or all the links if you help me with $100 or more.
And/or let me know how else I can pay you back? Custom video? Sexy sms chat?
Send you my dirty panties? I run every night – around my condo 500 times like I lost my mind lol – at the end my panties smell so so so bad.
I would love to tie you up and put them in your mouth and laugh at you when I tease you. But you’re not here 🙁 So I can send them to you instead … maybe video call you … and watch you suck them after they arrive.
I have lots of ideas. Let me know yours.
Mistress Wael
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“The ways and rituals of testicular sacrifice are difficult to master. The timing of the stomps is imperative. Without the proper cadence at precise intervals, the process can fail spectaularly.”
I actually had a session today. First time in forever. He was asking for testicle torture. Instead I gave him testicular sacrifice.
I borrowed the idea from the movie JigSaw I watched last night on Netflix.
After the movie I thought “I don’t want to just kick and hurt his balls” … instead … “I want to play a game.”
Because I didn’t do a session in so long I wanted to do something amazing and fun.
Now I know your head mistress uses hot massage balm for some of her sessions … but I asked myself “what if?”
Like … “what if I add this … and this … what would happen to my slave?”
And by accident I found a perfect testicle sacrifice session … very complicated trap just like the Saw movies.
In every Saw movie after the tape recorder machine says ‘I want to play a game’ he tells the person why he / she will be tortured.
I wanted to explain to my slave why he was being punished … and like the Saw games … what he had to suffer for me to let him cum.
My English sucks so I fuck up when I try to explain to him … but now I have time I can write what I will practice to say for the next time I do this same session …
“For many years , slave , you called girls you liked “hot.”
“But do you really know what hot is?”
“Today I will teach you what is “hot”
“And if you can survive understanding ‘hot’ , then on other side I will let you cum.”
“But if you move, if you cry , if you make even one sound , I will ‘cool’ you down, and you don’t get to cum into my ‘hot’ hand.
“Live or cry slave, let the game begin.”
First I tied him standing up to my bathroom door.
His hands over his head. His feet spread. No clothes on.
Massage hot balm … we call it Yaa Mong … it activate from rubbing. The more you rub … the harder you rub … the hotter the balm gets.
So it feels nice when I first massage your balls with it. And you get hard. Very hard.
But I keep pulling , rubbing , stretching the skin of your balls. And slowly your balls are on fire.
“Keep your cock hard” I told him. “Don’t let it soft” I said. “This is not hot yet. This is warm only.”
True because I wanted to play “what if” like I told you.
I also have Uniren Spray for sore muscles to stop the pain. It feels cold at first touch … and gets hot like the balm when I rub.
Only … when I mix Uniren Spray with Hot Massage Balm = Volcano Fire. Very very hard for you to focus on staying hard … so I really have to stroke his cock hard.
He moved so much and yelled so loud. Big no no.
No sound means no sound. Means you will not get an orgasm if I have to warn you again. I told him that.
I put my awful panties wet from my period in his mouth to stop him from moaning. He didn’t care. His balls hurt so so much to care about pussy blood in his mouth.
Now. You would think when your balls are on fire … that you would want to cool them down, yes?
No.
I have cold gel pack from Jiu Jitsu still in my freezer.
I don’t understand why exactly … but I can tell you that when I press my ice cold gel pack to his volcano balls … the pain gets much much much worse.
Unfortunately for my slave today , he moved again to get away from the cold gel. So no orgasm for him. Just longer ‘teasing’ with a lot more gel to teach him to be quiet.
I like my slaves to be quiet. One because I live in a condo with thin walls. Two because it is fun to see men suffer from being quiet. The more you can’t do something … the better I like it.
It should have been a 2 hour session. He asked for a 2 hour session with serious ballbusting. He said “he could take anything.”
“Anything” does not include my Testicle Sacrifice technique. He knows that now. But he quit after only 35 minutes. 🙁
So sad. How about you? Can somebody survive 1 hour of my new technique? Or 2 hours? I want to know. I really want to know.
Because I did not get to see
a) how hard it is to keep him hard after ice gel part of the session.
b) how big or small the orgasm will be
c) if a man really can be so strong so he doesn’t move and doesn’t make a sound in this style of session.
So, hopefully soon you can make it to Bangkok. And when you do , let me ask you….
Do you want to play a game?
Mistress Wael
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The two birds that sleep together when I exercise at midnight every night … that is the 2 name I gave them.
In the morning I feed them bread when they wake up. At 9pm when I go exercise around my condo they watch me and sometimes sing for me.
And when I finish at midnight they sleep. Together. And touch wings like in love.
I believe in love. I believe in hope. And I believe in maybe.
Her story ‘maybe’ is so powerful.
‘The covid pandemic has lasted 4 months and will last 2 more months minimum before tourists can come back to Bangkok. That is awful, yes?
Maybe.
Well what if I start a perfume business? Find a cheap night market. Find out how to buy wholesale. Learn about price point.
And smile a lot. Be nice. Meet people. Get a new type of customer.
Bought for 75 a bottle. Sell for 250. Profit of 175. And first day I sold 6 bottles.
Then 3 because it rained. And 2 the next day because it rained. Realized I need a market with a roof. Because rainy season is here.
The next week I averaged 8 bottles a day. Got tired of sitting on the concrete. So I took the profit and bought a store front and steps to make my display look more professional …
Location , location , location. #1 rule of business right? I locked in a permanent place by On Nut with busy foot traffic. Paid 1 month in advance.
I started to sell 15 bottles a day.
Used that profit to get my toe and finger nails done and my Jennifer Anniston hair style and color back
So now I look hot like when I do sessions … only I sell perfume looking like that.
Suddenly men started buying cologne just to talk to me. So I wore latex pants to my store , a corsette , hung my whip on the side of my shop.
Cologne outsells perfume now 3:1 and up to 25 bottles a day.
That is the same money I make from my 1 hour Tease & Denial session. Only difference is my small store is open for 4 hours in the evening , not 1.
I don’t know all my perfume brands and smells too much yet. I’m learning. But you know what? Nobody asks me about the fragrance. They ask me only about the whip haha.
You will not recognize me when you see me again.
I have lost 10kg since March. If you go back to last November and count from then I have lost 12kg.
I come home from the market at 9pm.
Right away I go walk for 1 hour until 10pm and then I run and lift weights until 11pm.
I know I’m hotter because so many foreigner who live at my condo ask me out on a date now. Even when I go out shopping I get asked out.
And there are no foreigner in the city now … compared to before. I will be so popular when you guys can all come back !!… well that is my dream 🙂
When covid started in March the word I thought of the most was ‘survive.’
Now my motto is “improve.”
Get a 6 pack by my birthday August 15th. Get more muscle. Hit 53kg … my weight when I was 25 years old. If I could do that , wow, I will be proud of myself.
I feel so confidant now. My English … improved so much.
This year , I don’t know why , but now I am not afraid to try new words and I like that I can listen to a podcast and understand almost everything.
I watched this podcast with Elon Musk and his first one about 3 times each. Learned so much , not just about English , about personality and how to think about things. I will the first one to sign up for a NeuroLink chip. It’s the only way I will ever be smart.
Your mistress and I share the same Twitter. But you can probably see who I follow. And who she follow.
She likes to follow epidimiologist people.
I clicked follow on Elon Musk. That was me.
John Forslund , me also. When you come for my Tease & Denial sessions , sometimes you will hear me say “sit back and enjoy this one.” Or when I let you cum after 2 hours and you explode everywhere … I maybe will say “hey hey what do you say” …
I have wet dreams now. Every night almost. Always about BDSM.
I’m so addicted to FemDom now.
The things I will do to you when you come to see me soon … you will see … just wait.
Not sure how long I have to wait for that though. But until you can come , I will take care of my little perfume shop.
And every night when I run around my condo for exercise … if I see my two birds Love and Hope … their love tells me everything will be ok in time.
Mistress Wael
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Not only that … I feel better and stronger and way more sexy than me in March.
In March I was 65 kg. Today I hit 59kg … yes down 6kg.
Why? How?
I learned a new English word lately … budget. How to budget 500 baht to last one month for food. Actually I learn a lot of new english word lately and it really fuck up my Thai.
2 example.
Yesterday I went to buy mint from across the street the girl sale all the vegetebles on her cart. I had no idea anymore how to say mint in Thai. I kept saying “mint, mint, mint” to her and try to make the English word sound Thai.
Then this morning I took the garbage to the bin and I trip on the hose the security man use to spray the plant. I say to him “oh my gosh I am so sorry” and he look at me like I’m alien.
I should say “khaw tot” but I never do now.
Everything I say I say in English now because I stay alone for 3 months in my room and only watch Netflix and PodCasts and never listen to Thai.
Maybe I will forget Thai soon? Possible?
Budget. 500 baht is $20 in your money. How to make it last 1 month for food?
2 word. Intermittent Fasting.
I eat 1 time 1 day only at 1pm. And right now I try extend to 72 hour IF. Money i can save if I eat 1 time every 3 days is better by 33%.
I cut rice from my diet. I order a lot of fried chicken and Durian. At 1pm I eat until full and done until 1 day pass.
Imagine that. Can eat very spicy Korean style fried chicken and lose weight.
Maybe because 9pm-11pm every night I exercise around the condo. 16kg kettlebell – I carry that when I walk. I lift it. I pull it. If I could I would shit on it too because I hate it so much.
But when I wake up I look in the mirror … and I love my kettlebell … because I have more curve than yesterday 🙂
Ya my life is like that. And I am learning.
Lately I watch everything about Elon Musk. He inspire me.
In fact … my idea for my video store on this site come from the first 5 minutes of the podcast … from how many people buy his flamethrower …
I thought … if he can sell hat and a flamethrower and make 1 million … I can sale my videos and maybe survive a 4 month lockdown.
And it work!
Until P_yP_l close my account. And then my sister account. In 1 day.
So now all my video sales money is in Amazon gift card … but our airport is closed … so cannot buy anything.
That made me study bitcoin and now I have bitcoin wallet and will put 1 option to pay with bitcoin for the videos.
Now I am thinking … Elon sells more than 1 thing in his store. I can do too.
So now this month I design Mistress Wael bdsm hats and tshirt and underwear. Should be ready for July to sale.
Maybe a femdom flamethrower too. Teach me how to make … I will sale.
Thing is. Covid or no Covid. I change a lot this year. I get smart.
I mean … I m not smart like you. But compare to me who I was before. Yes I am much smarter than me 2 year ago.
And I feel frustrate. Because I video call to my 2 daughter and try to teach both … try to change them … open their eye … teach 1 word of english every night. Teach them about NeuroLink … about technology.
But they don’t want to know. Don’t want to learn.
And when that happen and I feel frustrate … I see myself how I was like that at 14yo.
I try to chat with my girlfriends and cannot now. They want to talk about everything basic and I want to talk about technology.
So I start now to understand what your head mistress tallk about … how we separate from basic level but not at your level … we caught in between. And that make us feel isolate. Yes I get it now.
That is why I cannot wait for sessions to start again. I feel I can be much better than 4 months ago.
You know something?
I never stop to dream about femdom and bdsm. I have Mistress dreams every night.
Last night I dream about control a man and his wife … in their home … in France!! I taught her how to be a Mistress and we sex torture her husband every day when he come home from work.
I woke up this morning and my pussy was so wet.
I did buy 1 thing from my Amazon money. Civilization 6 game. Because I saw on Facebook a group for it in Thai and made me want to try.
All my city has a bdsm name.
Fort Ballbreaker. BDSM City. Town of Men with Small Dicks. HumiliationVille.
But I lose every game. Just like my Jiu Jitsu … I am too nice. I want world peace but everybody make war and attack me.
So now I play Canada so nobody can war with me. I will make world peace!!
Ok that is my update. I cannot wait to Tease you again very soon.
SMS me anytime please. I love to talk with everybody. It keeps me company.
I still believe not until my birthday August 15 will everything start to be normal.
When sports comes back and I can watch hockey again … then I feel people will relax and start to remember to enjoy life.
Right now there is too much politics and protest.
And why? Because I think no sports. Sports is like the pill to make everybody calm down.
… and I am like the pill you take to get excited.
Don’t worry. Both pills coming after August 🙂
Mistress Wael
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I wanted to talk about my #1 trick for human toilet training today. But the only slave who will do the photo and video of my technique is in Phuket so I have to wait.
Ok so. Let me to talk to you about a Jiu Jitsu move I use in my Tease & Denial sessions.
First let me show you what it is. And then why I use it. And finally how I use it.
Leg Lockdown for Tease & Denial
My favourite classes in Jiu Jitsu – the classes they teach a move and I think “yes I can use that in my sessions!”
Leg Triangles I use for our play wrestling.
Feet on Hips and Hip Escape I use to stop you from winning the “Lick My Pussy” game.
But the easiest move I think is the Leg Lockdown.
I use it mostly for Netflix Tease & Denial sessions. But can do for normal Tease & Denial sessions – if the guy likes to move too much.
So what is it?
It is this …
Actually my bottom leg is lazy in the photo.
And this is opposite leg lockdown … mean I flip my leg how I lock you when I roll my body to lay on your chest.
Often I do Tease & Denial with my head on the pillow and I am on my back. Then I do normal leg lockdown. Normal leg lockdown looks like this …
But we are side by side in the session.
Same. I lock your leg the same way.
And if I roll to face you … I flip my legs opposite so you don’t hurt your knee when I move.
I never one time used leg lockdown when I fight Jiu Jitsu in class.
But I use it almost every session of Tease & Denial with you.
Why?
Why Use Leg Entanglement
Easy.
It feels really sexy for you.
To feel all my 2 legs wrap your one leg and have me tease your cock – it is a lot of feeling for your brain … nice feeling.
My warm legs. Smooth legs holding your legs. And my body is really close to you with Netflix Tease & Denial.
Remember … Netflix Tease & Denial is just watching a movie for 2 hours and really slow massage of your cock. Sometimes he is hard. Sometimes I keep him soft. More important is you feel like you watch a movie with your girlfriend.
Ok reason #2.
You cannot get out of Leg Lockdown. No way. So I can control your leg when you get super hard and close to cum.
Every man … yes every man … wants to bend his legs when he knows he will cum soon.
Leg Lockdown guarantee you cannot bend one leg. The other leg ? … up to me. See the rope in the photo above? It is for that … to tie the other leg.
But maybe I let it be free. Or I tie it to the bed. Up to my mood.
If I tie it and do Leg Lockdown … you are fucked. I control your orgasm 100% and your legs cannot help you or help the feel.
How to Use Leg Lockdown
1. Let you know who is boss. It feels good. Until you open your eyes. And see you cannot move. Cannot get your leg out. Men who try too much to get the leg free … I spank their balls. Just one time because it works fast lol.
2. Pull when you cum. If I pull my leg away from your hip … it hurts a lot with Leg Lockdown. But if I do it when you come .. it feels good. Helps you cum even more. Because it is like streching when you cum.
3. Spread your legs. Men don’t like me to spread the legs too far in Tease & Denial. It leave the balls very open. Men get nervous when I spread the legs and focus on the balls and not the dick. A nervous man … is a man I control better. Lockdown guarantees I can spread your legs very far without you closing your legs again.
That is all. Simple technique. Makes men crazy.
Mistress Wael
9pm-10pm I run outside before curfew starts. So I do SMS conversation with everybody about 10:30 to 11pm and I sleep little bit after 11pm. If you want to say hello to me on sms … say hi around 10:30pm my time. I always on to say hello to you.
I lost 10,000 baht until November yesterday because P_yP_L closed my account. That was rent money for May 22 when the bill comes for have to pay condo. So …
Sessions probably will start June 1st. So start today I will answer session request serious like before. Put the session date after June 1st ok.
You can still buy the videos on the store page. Have new account already. I will be more careful what I put in the “Note” part of the invoice. Something like “hello” … basic like that.
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I had every emotion. Scared. Cry. Fear. Angry. – and that was only on Monday.
Scare because i feel like I give up. Covid is too much. I cannot support everybody. And when I dream every night I dream about death. I am a happy girl I never dream about something like that.
I cry after my dad call me and yell at me again – because I snap and yell back to him.
Deep inside my heart I understand him. I understand why he feel mad.
He has one leg only. Had accident when I was in Grade 7. Construction accident on the road.
And after that he cannot work. Now he try to sale the religion trinket for the necklace at the market sometimes. But we live very far in the mountains so hard to travel often. Somebody have to bring him and go get him.
He blame me. I think it make him so angry I a girl and I support the family not him. He violent to my mom – to my sister – and talk bad to everybody. But in his heart he want to be good – do you understand?
Fear – I will lose my family car.
6 year payment. I finish 5 years and 5 months pay every month 5000 and never miss one time.
And now?
I have to choose what do I cut? Do I cut food for everybody? Do I cut electric? Do I cut where I live and go back to live in my small room before? Or do I cut to pay for my car?
They my family live so far from anything. If no car – 100% fucked. How to go get water? How to go 40km to get food? How to go try to work at the market and sell trinket?
So last week Monday I sit think about that all day until.
Until the forest fire come too near to my home.
Angry.
Angry from the law. If a fire threaten like that – 1 person from 1 family have to go help fight the fire – by law. Or pay fine 300.
Who to go? My dad with one leg? Cannot.
My sister – well she unconscious from the pain from her down syndrome every day because no money for her 20 pill / day. I tell her when I call her – if Covid fix one thing for us – it will fix her to stop addicted to so many pill every day. She tell me many time last week she ready to die but she will fight very hard. She agree the one thing we will cut so we can buy food is her pills. To see her in pain – I cannot tell you how much that kill my heart.
My 2 daughter only 14yo – too young to go.
So? Yup. My mom. 60yo … she go to help cut a gap in the forest to stop the fire from spread.
Two days later – on Wednesday – she come back and cannot breathe because the smoke in her lung.
I can tell you for sure Wednesday was the lowest day in my life.
And then. By accident I get an idea.
0 sessions. I cannot do online sessions – my English is ok but I freeze on video call. So lucky for me the man ask me to do custom video for him after I cancel online session. Custom video about : Foot worship.
I can do foot worship with amazing style. I know that from my sessions.
I call ‘Jaa’. She comes and we shoot the video. It’s a hot video. He loves it. And suddenly I have money again. But now money feels like gold. Know what I mean?
It is not enough yet to save my car but it is enough for food for my family. Sun dry pork can last a long time and eat with rice. And water.
Because the well water is dry from hoarding – have to order the truck to bring big bottle water. Now they have 15! That buy me time 7-10 days. And I buy for them 1 big sack of rice.
“A man looks in the abyss. There is nothing staring back at him. At that moment man finds his character. And that is what keeps him out of the abyss.”
On Wednesday I looked into the abyss from very very close.
And on Thursday I found my character.
I thought.
In my folder on my G: Drive – for G-Spot – I have 100 videos from 100 sessions.
Yes – they are videos from when I was learn how to be a Mistress.
But if I can have a store – maybe … I can turn 100 videos into food. Into rent. Into car payment. Into Cannabis oil for my sister’s pain. Maybe.
How the hell do I design a store?
What I can tell you is from Thursday to Sunday I did not sleep more than 2 hours every day.
Do you know why I studied to be a chef?
If I can see it and do it with my hands – I can learn. Quickly.
If somebody talk and talk and talk to me to learn something – I sleep. My eyes close.
Some of you know that about me already. Because after the Tease session you want to talk. Always I say yes to stay sit and talk. I like it. But how many times did you talk and I start to fall asleep?
Not because you boring to me. Because I have to see and touch for my brain to be active.
I used everybody. This guy for editing videos. This guy for Photoshop help. Site theme for content box design. My WhiteBoard for design idea. The Gravity Form pages like this one. And borrow the store page idea from this site because simple design.
And no sleep. A lot of coffee … Like – a lot.
Finally after 60 hours I find how to put the page to the menu and – Done!
Somebody order a video? Oh – my – shit. Yes – ‘oh my shit’ you know why I say like that? Because you guys never fix my English when I say something wrong or bad. In my House of Leaves foot worship video you can hear me say ‘oh my shit’ – becasue i say that for 6 years – nobody ever tell me it is “oh – my – god.”
And then yesterday. Somebody send me this video in email :
https://youtu.be/Ywtd719FPpM
Oh my shit – why did you not tell me it is Oh my God.
Don’t get my started okay. You let me say “comfofafull” too. Many year. Only this year somebody correct me to say ‘comfortable.’
Anyway. Ding! – I can say ‘ding’ properly.
I sale a video.
Is it a emotion if I say – I feel strong? Strong is emotion yes? I felt like that – very very strong.
I bought online for my sister (photo to your left) medical CBD to take away the pain from her down syndrome. She will get it maybe tomorrow and if it help her to feel okay again – oh my shit I will be so happy.
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Post Orgasm Techniques. To learn from myself I watched all my videos yesterday. Took all day.
And I was mad at myself.
“Why in my videos I don’t focus on my post orgasm techniques and instead I just stop filming?”
Not good. I have to fix that.
Because I focus so much on post-orgasm techniques in every session I do … not only the Tease & Denial sessions.
I have so many things I do.
So let me explain to you first – why post-orgasm part of the session is SO important. And after … I will explain some of the techniques I use to help you understand.
“Some” not “all” my techniques. If I write for 1 week I don’t think I can write about every post orgasm technique. So I will talk about only my favourite.
Post-Orgasm is Important
Why?
Becaused the man is most vulnerable … most sensititve … after I let him cum. Also he is thankful for me for let him cum. Only 50% of the time I agree to let the man finish.
50% of the time I lock him back up in chastity until the next session. That is because very often now since 1 year ago many slaves come to see me 2 or 3 time in one week.
So from 50% the time I let him cum … I 100% control how he will feel about his orgasm.
10% is ruined orgasm because I touch his cock too soft for feeling.
10% is ruined orgasm – no touch at all.
10% is ‘no time to enjoy’ the orgasm because I don’t stop until orgasm #2 … #3 … #4 … until his balls say stop.
You can see now you have only 20% of the time in my session you will get the perfect orgasm. I love to let the man try to think what he have to do for me to give him what he want so much.
Maybe I will make small circles too. But not too much. Just only thing I want to do is let his balls feel warm from my hand.
When I push … i can push some more cum out. More important for me is to make his balls feel warm. Feels good for you I think.
Or.
I can pull and massage the skin under his balls. Use my nails to scratch light. Give him more feel. Then push the cum out.
And pull the skin again.
This … makes men the most crazy.
One because he is scared. I think not a lot of girl understand the balls. They think it is easy to hurt the man.
The skin under your balls to me is like the skin under a turkey neck. It is for pulling scratching and massaging.
Twisting too … but some times I fuck up still and twist too much.
Still learning. If I twist a little bit it feel good I know that. If I twist too much it hurt if the 2 balls bang together.
I don’t care. I say “ooops accident.” Because I love to make mistakes and learn more. Sorry that I have to use your balls for my mistakes 😛
Dry Towel
I have 2 towels I can give to you after you cum.
If I give you the dry towel … I want to fuck with you.
I will slap your face maybe. And clean your cum like you spill your coffee on my bed.
Mean … I rub hard.
And show you your mess to your face.
Maybe I will clean your face with the cum on the towel.
“Look what you did … why did you cum?”
If I did not want you to cum yet … but you did not warn me … or you try to hide your feel and “cum by accident” … then you will get dry towel for sure.
CBT mean style also for sure.
And 99% if you do that I guarantee you will cum 5 more times no stopping until you can not walk.
The dry towel will clean only the head of your cock after each orgasm.
Dry towel is perfect for a sensitive cock.
I will make sure I rub a lot … many times … the sensistive side of your cock to clean all the cum.
Don’t make me do my dry towel technique. Because my next technique is what you really want.
Post Orgasm #1 Technique: Damp Towel
When you come for the session I make you shower.
The towel you use I don’t put close to the air conditioner.
I keep it a) in the bathroom if it is 2 hour session or b) on the balcony if it is 1 hour session.
1 hour is perfect because I get both … wet and warm towel.
The perfect way to take care of a big big orgasm is only with a damp towel.
Yes I use this technique the most in my 1 hour session but
My favourite is with my Mistress as a Girlfriend session because it is how I make you sleep.
I will massage and clean your tummy dick and balls with the damp towel.
Make sure no cum left anywhere.
And same time massage your balls and inside your legs with my hand.
Then cover you in blanket so you feel warm … and sit your head in my lap.
I sit behind you.
Same like i did when I worked as a massage girl … I give you head and shoulders relaxing massage.
Until you fall asleep and dream.
That is the perfect ending.
It is what 100% of my slaves who know me hope to get and try to be a perfect slave so I will be nice and give them a perfect orgasm and perfect post orgasm.
But only get it 10% of the time.
1 in 10 shot.
That is why people book me so often. It is like booking an orgasm lottery haha.
Mistress Wael
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Did you ever order food and after the food come you said “fuck … why didn’t I order the other food I was thinking about?”
Or did you ever try one awful food … and then try something worse … and think ‘wow’ … the first food – no so bad!
In my last story I told you I will explain how I take away the fear from my scat slave.
I told you I had a special technique.
Actually … I have 2 technique.
One is mental fear.
One is just fear of my poo in the mouth.
So I want to talk about mental fear first. Because I know I can make your mouth not to be scared of my poo. You can see how I do that in part 3 of my Mistress’s scat slave series.
How to make a scat slave relax his mind?
Easy. Make the poo the lesser of two evils.
Follow along. Or buy my scat slave Lesser of Two Evils video and see for yourself.
The empty glass.
Into the empty glass I will make a special Mistress’s scat slave cocktail.
Again , like I told you in part 1 … my slave always begin below me.
It is his first time to be my scat slave. He thinks it will be awful.
So I make him think about why I have a champagne glass in the bathroom with him?
It’s empty. We need ingredients.
At Starbucks. In my frappucino they put chocolate shaving on the top and chocolate sprinkle.
Sorry I don’t have chocolate shaving on my body … but I have nail clipping and nail file dust for a Mistress’s scat slave.
I used to let my slaves clip my nails. Now .. no way. Men suck at nails.
So watch me. Watch me fill the glass with my nails and nail dust.
Good boy. Have a idea what I am doing yet? No?
Ok add something new.
Lucky for me Starbucks never put shoe dirt in my Frappucino.
Sorry I cannot say the same for your cocktail.
A good drink should have cruncy munchy. Something to bite. Bubble tea has bubbles, yes?
I don’t have bubbles on the bottom of my shoe but.
For sure I can scrape crunchy things into your cocktail.
About now … all my slaves get it … what I am doing.
Look at that … 5 minutes into his first scat session and?
He forget about eating poo.
Magic!
What is more tasty than shoe dirt?
Right. You guess true. Foot scab. Toe dirt.
I will get my slave to lick the dirt from between my toe.
And I scrape it from the tongue and into the cocktail.
Perfect. Now we have all the ingredient. Oh? Mistress’s scat slave … his focus is on the cocktail only.
Maybe I should make him help me?
Every slave loves to help his mistress, right?
Ok so help me to stir.
Wait. You cannot stir yet.
You need a stir stick.
But not your finger or something like that. A stir stick can add flavor.
And where to get flavor? From my ear.
Ear wax has protien I think. See? I am thinking about your health.
So stir and do like I do in the video … wipe my ear wax on the glass.
Good boy. I am sure you can guess what will come next?
Oh? You don’t want to know? You feel too embarrass already? Too bad!
Now we need to make a roux.
You forget I was a chef before I was a Mistress.
I make the best roast beef roux in the world.
And I make the best Mistress’s scat slave cocktail roux in the world.
Just add a lot of spit. Your spit. My spit. Two flavor in one. Let it mix together.
Yes. Good. We have a roux.
Now watch me swirl for you.
Ok yes … it look a little bit gross.
You don’t mind , right?
In cooking I have to make a reduction. To make a reduction often I will add wine to my food.
Lucky for you … I have free white wine for your cocktail.
Ok yellow wine. Close enough.
Your job … please hold the cocktail glass to the wine tap. Thank you. Good slave.
Hmm. I guarantee you forgot 100% about my poo. Now you focus on the slave cocktail we made together.
I add nose snot to make you think about the cocktail more.
Maybe some pussy hair.
I cook like that at home too.
I throw everything into my soup. So let me do the same for you.
Too gross for you slave?
You will throw up if you drink that? Would you like to eat something else instead?
Well lucky for you I have appetizer.
A good cocktail should wash down a meal, right? Because what is a cocktail? Yes … after dinner drink.
And what did you come to see me for? That’s right … dinner.
So open your mouth. Let me feed you.
Not alot. See in video how much I feed you? Answer: just enough.
Just enough to give your mouth a new taste.
I know. I understand you. You are now my shit eater. Your dream to be Mistress’s scat slave come true.
But the taste!
We did many many sessions at Mistress’s scat slave level 2 … and I take your fear away about having my poo in your mouth already.
That is why you are ok right now. You are shock 100% you can be ok with that taste in your mouth.
Congratulations!
You graduate to Mistress’s scat slave level 3.
Let’s celebrate. I have a champagne bottle… for me only of course.
You … drink your cocktail … it is the lesser of two evils.
Wouldn’t you agree? haha. Cheers!
Mistress Wael
You can buy the video from me. It’s 2,000 baht. The video is 5 minutes long. Email me to arrange everything.
Order any custom video from me that you can fantasize about. It can be POV or order me to do your fetish on a slave since you cannot be here in person.
Today I will edit and load all the videos from old sessions to the cloud. Organize them into folders. And make a store page where you can buy the groups of videos by folder.
I’m making a video a day to add to the store.
Adding video and online sessions to my form.
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When a slave sleeps over or I stay overnight at his hotel … he sleeps with his nose in my ass … and I try not to laugh but I get so excited when I have to fart and I know he will hate it.
