It took 23 emails back and forth with tech support and 7 stressful days but finally the Session Request forms are working again.
More importantly, my replies to your session requests are once again landing in your inbox rather than your spam folder which was an even bigger issue.
For those interested – the initial problem was born from the fact that jaa4u.com didn’t have a mail server and so your forms were being sent directly to my gmail account which was ok in the past, but google began demanding forms get sent this website’s mail provider first else they were just not getting sent to me at all. Part of their spam protection algorithms being updated and refined.
It took an irate fan of mine to send me a curt email saying “Hey Mistress, how come you’re not answering any of the forms I’m sending you, I’ve sent you 3 this month so now I’m emailing you directly” to set off the alarm bells.
You know, you’d think I’d clue in on why session requests went from 50 per month to 0 in March pretty easily right?
Nah, I thought it was because I’ve been coasting through 2023 so far, like you can see I haven’t written a story for my blog here since December of 2022.
It just got so easy to write 3-5 times daily for my Loyalfans blog that once done I didn’t feel the need to come over here and write something different.
Pair that with the fact that I had scaled back from doing 10 sessions per week to only 3 at most and ya, I thought I had hit a self-induced lull right in the middle of one of what is historically the busiest month of the year.
Not so.
Look, I’ve been doing this job for 10 years, I have a decade of goodwill built up with thousand’s of submissive slaves who have been and still are thoroughly smitten by me. Case in point:
Even my predecessor still gets session requests and she’s been retired for over a decade now, so it was foolish of me to think that sessions would just disappear altogether.
So I got on the horn to my hosting service’s tech support and began what I thought was going to be a snap insta-fix , oh how wrong I was.
Apparently adding an email address to jaa4u.com ( [email protected]) and having my forms sent to that address and forwarded to my gmail account – via my CloudFlare account required a team of 12 people to work through all the hiccups.
But it got done and as of yesterday, right on cue, the session requests started flooding in to my inbox once again, and my replies were getting answered so I know that they are landing in your inbox.
All is happy in femdom land once again.
So now that that’s settled, let’s talk about what’s been happening with me lately.
I’ve gotten far too comfortable with sharing all my stories and feelings via 3-5 posts per day on my Loyalfans femdom blog, which limits me to a mere 2000 words per post.
It’s an annoying way to write. Anything I want to say – I have to condense it like I have to do on each Twitter post. Not only that, but I’ve become way too proficient at naturally writing around all the restricted words and phrases.
What the fuck am I doing? Fuck, I could practically recite you George Orwell’s 1984 word for word at this point, and yet I’m allowing myself to have my free speech controlled instead of writing here – freely.
K, that’s gonna change.
Still though, if you want to be humored by my constant micro thoughts each and every day – please do hop over to my Loyalfans regardless of whether you subscribe or not because you can always read the text that I’m writing with each post.
For instance, yesterday you could have read about how I went down the lobby panty-less to get my slave and made his jaw drop by doing so.
You’d have read about how my fish named Ruby is changing to a white Zombie fish.
Could have been humored by how I made the first slave of the night leave me his shirt and endured being sent home shirtless just so I could wear that same shirt down to the lobby to pick up the slave for my 10pm session!
And finally you’d have read about how I can quite possibly see myself as an 80 year old “cat lady” in the future.
Meanwhile, my next post here is going to be a 10,000 word diatribe on the difference between a University diploma in 2023 vs when I got mine in 2010.
Anyways, fill out the form if you want to see just how deep the rabbit hole is once I’ve spun my web around you.
Or send an email. Doesn’t really matter to me. Either way, you’re going to have your head messed with in ways you never thought possible 🙂
Mistress Jaa
Book A Session
Looking to book a session? Fill out the form or send one of us an email and in it be very descriptive about what you would like for a session, where you’re from, what your name is, and when you would like to meet.
If you decide to fill out the form, double check that you’ve typed in your email address properly cuz guess what? If you fuck that up, I can’t get back to you, end of story. It’s shocking how many guys can’t spell their own email address.
Mistress Wael is available from 1pm until 10pm every day, while I am available at either 7pm or 10pm Monday – Thursday and 4pm on Friday’s.
1 hour sessions are 5k baht while 2 hours are 7k.
Human Toilet Training with Mistress Wael is 15k and with me it’s 20k.
With Mistress Wael sessions are outcalls at your hotel, house or condo and with me they are held here at my condo.
Check out our Fees & Bookings page for all the information you need to know for booking your session with us.
Heyyyy, ya I’m still here. I just decided to focus all my energy on writing many shorter stories every day on my Loyalfans for 2 months. I had to see how doing something like that would affect the balance between session volume vs subscriber #’s. An internal case study, let’s call it that.
It was a wash to be frank.
Places like my Loyalfans and the god awful Onlyfans that Wael is still on and at war with always has a revolving front and back door where 2 leave and 2 new decide to join in their place. It’s like running on a treadmill and it’s oblivious to how much work and daily energy I put into it.
At least I know now.
Sessions, what can I say … I’ve been doing this for almost 10 years now and the number of repeat visits I get from all my tenured slaves makes it so this business runs itself.
Also, keep in mind that I now take all weekends off, so that cuts my availability to 2 sessions a night from Monday to Thursday only, and then one Friday time slot from 4-6pm before I hop on the bus to go home and fuss with my garden again.
However, I think I’m done testing shit out. I needed to know where to focus my energy in 2023 and this will be where I’ll be posting most every day going forward.
I much prefer writing out longer stories that don’t have a word count max / post hindering me. Also, fuck censorship. I have a platform where I can do something not many can comfortably do in this age of being cancelled … I can say whatever the fuck I want to say with impunity.
Watch this:
“In school I used to line up the 13 year old kids two grades younger than me behind the school against the fence. I’d tell them to drop their pants as I walked by with a twitch and spanked the living shit out of them. Upon ordering them to spread their legs I would walk behind them, tell each to close his eyes as my foot introduced their young lives to crippling cbt as I’d bury the pointy toe of my school shoes either up their asshole or it’d shatter their tiny balls. Little shits were so scared by the time I got to the 2nd kid they’d piss their pants.”
See? That would get me banned instantly on Onlyfans if I typed that. Can you count how many censored words I just freely used? A = 7
Anyways, that’s not what I want to talk about in this post.
From the start of 2022 I’ve basically stopped posting here on jaa4u any ‘ho-hum’ Tease & Denial story as I do them every single day. Instead, I would wait for the most dramatic sessions and I’d keep those stories for here while typing out my day to day thoughts on Loyalfans.
Which was all well and good while covid was still hovering around like a ghost and business was just experiencing its first uptick since the 2 year lockdown status.
I’m no longer going to be writing about the sensational sessions here as I now need to disuade you all from contemplating having me arrange one for you. Like The Ladyboy Gauntlet, let’s use that as an example to illustrate why such sessions are a thing of the past now.
You see, back in January of 2022 I was the only one doing constant sessions. One of the ways I was able to do that was to arrange these fantastic fantasy sessions for my submissives with the most elaborate imaginations.
One such fantasy is to have a large group of either girls or ladyboys use them mercilessly and in the most humiliating way possible. Gangbangs. Conga line spit roast sessions. 13 ladyboy bukake events. Stuff like that.
The reason I was able to pull such grand events off was because nobody had any way of making money back then.
So if I offered a 2 hour ass fucking session with 5 ladyboys, each and every ladyboy I would call would instantly say yes and agree to all conditions of the session.
Ya, it was an expensive session for any slave asking me to put his fantasy together, but I would do so knowing I could absolutely deliver the exact fantasy the slave had been dreaming about his whole life.
That is no longer the case.
With tourists dripping onto the streets like bees scurrying out of a fallen beehive, the law of supply and demand has swung the polar opposite way to the extreme of having way too many tourists asking for the services of just a few ladyboys.
And I can throw working girls into that equation too, though not quite the imbalance – it is still skewed far enough to oversupply that reserving any of these workers for my 2 hour sessions is an impossibility now.
Anyone you bring home with you, or that I try to work with has one collective mantra which is “Fuck & Go” and to hell with customer service. It’s just “how fast can I milk the cum out of this guy so I can get back to the bar and pick up the next guy.”
It’s awful.
Last gauntlet session I arranged, they all left only 20 minutes into our session. Then it happened again, and again and yet again.
You guys, who have sought company other than me have emailed me back saying time and time again how disappointed you were with the girl’s company.
And I’m like “Ya, welcome to the Fuck & Go era of Bangkok.”
That’s too bad man. I had so much fun writing about those wild sessions. But it is time to focus on the sexy seduction way that I do Tease & Denial and all the other one on one fetishes I do that drive men crazy.
Hell, I used to write about such sessions for 8 straight years, until covid hit. Then I branched into online, and then into those wild sessions and now I’ve come full circle back to what I’ve always done since day one.
Only, there’s a twist.
As good as I am at seducing men, I’ve found a new interest that excites me. Have to confess something to you guys, I’m kind of addicted at using men as my personal toilet. Lately I’ve been doing more and more of such sessions.
And look, I’m not stepping on Mistress Wael’s toes by saying that, because we each have our own very distinct ways that we handle such sessions.
I’ll write about it in detail just before Mistress Wael starts to post her 10 part series on Human Toilet Slavery this week so you are all clear on how our sessions differ when it comes to HTT – human toilet training.
I’m just telling ya – it’s fun for me.
My 20k price tag scares away the pretenders too so my life is not centered around eating enough food to be able to shit on demand every 24 hours, kind of like what Mistress Wael is going through now. The girl breaks a 3-hour sweat at the gym every day just to maintain her weight.
Anyways, I’m getting off topic which always happens when I sit and write from the top of my head.
Fuck & Go man, it’s the new city motto in the post-covid era.
Which leaves you guys exactly two options, 0ne being to surround yourself with ideally two or more sycophants of whatever gender you prefer and dangle the money carrot in front of their noses all the while letting each know the existence of the other.
So long as you don’t care to reside here which would bring jealousy into play I think that would be your best option.
The other is to play the Tinder game which is fine so long as you know that you are one of many. Or worse, you run into someone like me who’s playing you.
Else, you submit to the fact that your partner for the night is indeed the shortest of short time rentals and slowly develop a festering hate for how much money ‘short time’ is costing you compared to the pre-covid years.
As a Mistress, my option is to rid myself of them and focus on the one to one seductive connections that I’ve long since perfected.
Mistress Wael has a unique approach on the matter and I know she’s in the process of making a post regarding how she’s flipping the Fuck & Go “less for more” mantra on its head. So I’ll let her devote a post to her superior customer service model.
She’s a shrewd business woman, I think you’ll find her thoughts on the matter refreshing.
That’s all I wanted to say for now.
Umm, as an update – so that we’re clear on how I’m approaching sessions in 2023, I am continuing to limit my sessions to the 7pm and 10pm time slots Monday thru Thursday and then a singular 4pm-6pm availability on Friday afternoon.
Weekends I am always off and never in the city. I have found that this is the key to doing this job long-term.
The sessions I continue to cherry-pick will be those who are keenly interested in Tease & Denial and being mind-fucked or seduced in the process. Those are the sessions I enjoy the most.
A close second though is using slaves roughly and rudely as my toilet in the most humiliating way possible. It’s expensive, 20k, but that keeps the pretenders well at arms length. Quality of slaves over quantity, it’s been my recent focus and is serving me well.
Also, Wael and I are being ultra-choosy when it comes to the Mistress as a Girlfriend 24/7 session, saying no about 90% of the time of late.
Those sessions are meant to be intimate and intense – and thus can only be done with well tenured slaves who’s personality is wholly agreeable to whichever Mistress he is serving.
It’s meant to be a deep dive into the mind-fuckery that comes from a Mistress / Slave relationship and that just simply cannot be done if the person serving us is annoying as fuck.
Or in short, “ain’t worth the 20k, period.”
What else? Fuck it’s strange to be updating my jaa4u readers like this as for the decade before covid I didn’t have any other platform to express my thoughts. This blog was IT.
All these day to day thoughts get posted 3-10 times per day now on my Loyalfans blog. I’m quite well aware that you sir – are probably a first time reader and not one of the guys who follows me throughout the day on Loyalfans.
So I’m trying to think what key things you need to know to get you up to speed on who I am and what I’ve been doing of late.
I guess the last thing I want to draw your attention to is the ratio of session requests to the actual submissive guys we end up booking and seeing.
For me that imbalance is about 3:1 , in that for every 3 session requests I get, I’ll commit to just one.
Part of that is due to me strictly seeing submissive guys who come from anywhere else but Asia, with the exception of some exceptional Singaporeans who’s company and servitude I very much enjoy.
There’s a few in Hong Kong as well, but the rest that I see are strictly North American, European or Australian / New Zealanders.
Immediately tossed are the “Hi Mistress, I want a session” types of emails. May I remind you that a) I am in high demand and b) you are competing against 3 other people usually – so it would behoove you to take the time to properly introduce yourself at length.
After all, your competitors certainly are doing so.
That ratio is of session requests to bookings is much higher for Mistress Wael, in the neighborhood of 6 or possibly 7:1 !!!
The two reasons behind that though is that she is the de facto go to Human Toilet Training Mistress, umm, not just in Asia but world wide now.
As such, the majority of her session requests come from slaves wishing to be trained in that realm.
There’s a finite limit on the number of times a Mistress can shit in a slave’s mouth per week. Two at the most, usually and thus the queue of slaves waiting to be trained by her.
Secondly, as briefly alluded to above, she puts in time and effort that is far and above what any other Mistress in Asia puts in to each and every one of her slaves.
Given that said slaves are very well aware of the Fuck & Go mentality of giving less and less of one’s time … Mistress Wael’s opposite approach of dedicating as much time as she can to each and every slave has made her get more repeat bookings than anyone else.
So combine her massive popularity with HTT sessions with session requests coming in daily from people dropping by the city again and ya, you get that dramatic 7:1 ratio.
And god bless her for trying to see each and every one of her slaves. I used to do that, and like I said – I had to abandon that approach for working only 4.5 days/week or my true personality would have dissolved into my Mistress personality.
Ok, I’ve talked your ear off enough. If you want daily updates on my sessions, what I’m doing, what things I’m thinking and writing about then give me a follow or subscribe on my Loyalfans as that’s where I am each and every day before I do my evening sessions.
I much prefer you email us if looking for a session, but if you prefer using the form then please be just as expressive as you’d be if sending me an email. Forms seem to constrain people’s thoughts for whatever reason. Take care, see you soon 🙂
Mistress Jaa
Book A Session
Looking to book a session? Fill out the form or send one of us an email and in it be very descriptive about what you would like for a session, where you’re from, what your name is, and when you would like to meet.
If you decide to fill out the form, double check that you’ve typed in your email address properly cuz guess what? If you fuck that up, I can’t get back to you, end of story. It’s shocking how many guys can’t spell their own email address.
Mistress Wael is available from 1pm until 10pm every day, while I am available at either 7pm or 10pm Monday – Thursday and 4pm on Friday’s.
1 hour sessions are 5k baht while 2 hours are 7k.
Human Toilet Training with Mistress Wael is 15k and with me it’s 20k.
With Mistress Wael sessions are outcalls at your hotel, house or condo and with me they are held here at my condo.
Check out our Fees & Bookings page for all the information you need to know for booking your session with us.
This year has been … promising and yet it feels so fragile.
I’m going to share with you some of my thoughts on what I do , our business model , and how things feel so tenuous , and what I’m doing to try and prevent a 2nd covid like period of desolation that may be on the horizon.
Writing from the top of my head isn’t always a great idea , I have at any given time so many thoughts dancing around my head with regards to my business, femdom , customer’s behaviors and so on.
Let’s see how this goes.
To understand my fears you should know a bit about our business model. Yes this is a business, and at one time I thought it was an indestructible one.
“Nothing can sink this ship” I used to say. “It’s everything-proof” was another show-off phrase I used to toss around back in 2018 – 2019 when I had grown jaa4u back to the 1/4 million dollar per month machine it used to be when it was – ahem – under original Jaa’s name. (but not control as you’ll soon find out in my Kindle book)
As much as she and her sidekick puppet tried to ruin this site , I got it back on the rails after a couple of devastating set backs … the worst being my ex Aussie boyfriend trying to ruin my life by defaming me after he found out I was the new Mistress Jaa.
You see, this business model is a mathematical equation: (x + n) * y
Where x represents new submissive slaves coming under my control year over year , added to n which is the total number of loyal slaves who repeatedly visit me on an accumulative basis year over year … all multiplied by the number of years I’ve been a Mistress , which you believe right now to be about 8.
The reason I make sure my sessions are mind blowing – and thus the reason my focus is on mental fuckery , seduction and all the natural human emotions that come with leading a man down that path – is because it inspires absolute loyalty.
Every month , we’re talking back in 2018-19 , I’d get 60 requests for sessions.
Of which I would choose between 30-40. (thus leading to my breakdown just before covid hit)
90% of every submissive guy who comes to see me rebooks me. My cancellation rate was near 0. Let’s call it 1%.
So every year my base of loyal submissive men was accumulating what felt like exponentially. I didn’t “have” to ever write a story here on jaa4u if I didn’t want to , the business model would have propagated by itself naturally.
I wrote and still do write for one reason only … I love to write stories. Always have.
Then covid hit. The nuclear bomb of al nuclear bombs for this business model , the one I thought was indestructible.
When session volume crashes from 40 sessions a month to 0 , things change.
So obviously you know about my tenure with onlyfans and how that turned out , and now with Loyalfans , and sharing the 400 videos I shot over those past 2 years of lockdowns.
In March the storm clouds began to lift. It was like people were emerging from their caves finally , able to see the stars once again.
Has anyone noticed this month that long hair is a thing again? Home buzzcuts have given way to salons once again and people’s hair has had 5 months to grow out.
So it feels like things are back to normal. But that would be an erroneous assumption. Here’s why.
Things are different. They feel different. I’ve been trying to put my finger on it for the longest time now , what exactly has changed?
I think , after a lot of talking with guys who have come to see me , I’m getting a clearer picture of what the new landscape ahead of us looks like … and it ain’t pretty.
For one, my Indian, Sri Lankan customers have disappeared all together.
Secondly, my customer base has begun to shift from Europeans to Americans and that’s the first time such a paradigm shift has happened in the past ten years.
Thirdly, my cancellation rate has jumped from 1% to I’d say somewhere around 10% and that’s just never been the case.
Fourthly (is that even a word?) my Loyalfans subscribership is no where near what it was in the middle of the pandemic when I (erroneously) was with Onlyfans.
Fifthly , Mistress Wael’s popularity has skyrocketed from what was once a 10%/90% split of session volume to an even 50% and in some cases like this month , 70% to my 30%.
So let’s address each of those. Fuck I sound like I’m back at my old insurance job making a business presentation. I’m not, I’m just trying to figure shit out while typing from the top of my head here.
I’m not here to give a world economics presentation , you guys are far more intelligent at world affairs than I am. But I am aware of certain things which are changing the world dynamic as we head into the latter half of 2022.
Sri Lanka and by extension India and Pakistan are being hit by a perfect storm of increasing commodity prices , a strong $USD , fallout from the war in Ukraine , falling currency and the onset of a recession.
I can feel it when I walk the streets of Bangkok here , there are just not as many from that part of the world here as there was before.
Meanwhile, Europe has seen the Euro get taken to the woodshed thanks to the rising $USD , they face a winter with uncertainty in the accessibility and price of Natural Gas , inflation at rates that have the word recession on the lips of every economist I follow on Twitter.
In all countries, the stock markets have been in a steady bear market downtrend since last November and boy oh boy if I know one thing about the stock market, come tax loss selling period in the fall there’s going to be further bloodshed , possibly even a crash if the ‘buy-the-dip’ crowd that’s seen that strategy work for a decade suddenly give up hope.
Those are macro economic issues that are affecting me.
On a micro scale , guys who were conditioned to coming and seeing me 2-4 times per year have come just once so far and many have disappeared. So I find myself building back my never ending supply of submissive slaves from much further down that exponential curve I once sat atop of.
For whatever reason, business trips are getting cancelled a lot more frequently than they ever had been.
Now yes, some of that may be fibbing on the part of the guys coming to see me, but I’ve noticed especially in the past 30 days – companies have cut short or cancelled employee’s trips at a far greater rate than my emails have ever suggested before.
In the midst of lockdowns when people had nothing to do but sit home and jerk off … keeping their attention was so very easy.
The fact that I had never really ever produced a femdom / bdsm video in all the years before covid made the 400 videos I was churning out a real curiosity, one that would hold subscription levels at or near their peak for months on end.
Then , at the same time that Cathie Wood’s ARKK fund of Covid related stocks started to crater , Onlyfans booted me for writing stories that were too sexy for their liking (hard cocks suddenly were a no-no with them) and my switch to Loyalfans came at the worst possible time.
A time where the world was done with living in caves and life in the outside world began to take over again.
Then there’s Mistress Wael who saw what Onlyfans did to me and since she was on there as well and unwilling to risk losing all her ever growing subscriber base … found a solution to remain with onlyfans. She began to write.
Only she can’t write. She speaks into her phone and google voice recognition and grammar correction does the rest. But who cares right, it fucking works. Like I’ve been telling her all along … just find a way.
To steal a line from Field of Dreams (sort of) … If you write it , they will come.
She couldn’t load any more videos to her Onlyfans as they had taken an axe to 80% of everything she had loaded to their platform (if you have seen her content, you’ll know exactly why they did that)
So she recycles the videos they didn’t remove and marries them with 2-3 stories of all her sessions and prior to that all her filming experiences with me. Like about 1000 stories in all. That we’re just now copy/pasting over to jaa4u in her FemDom Stories blog posts.
That’s gotten her popularity to skyrocket. Well that and she’s become a lifestyle Mistress now , female domination consumes her and guys love that.
So that meteoric rise has her now sitting with a 50% share in session volume.
Put all these things together and I have what feels like such a tenuous situation.
If the recession deepens , if the Euro continues to drop , if Putin indeed causes utility costs in Europe and especially Germany to skyrocket into the winter , if inflation remains high , if the US Fed do indeed continue to raise rates right into the end of the year … and so on and so on …
I feel there’s a storm coming. A storm very much like the storm that covid brought.
I’m too young to know what a prolonged recession feels like , what comes with it. But I feel it is something I must prepare for.
So rightly or wrongly , my solution is not to go back to making endless new videos. Oh sure, I’ll make the occasional one now and then. But my focus is going to be once again on writing.
As you can see , I’m back to posting here regularly on my website. Which is something I strayed from as there was more interest from my followers that I write short blurbs for them on my Loyalfans.
Ya, I will still write there regularly , but I’m going to triple down on the amount that I write. I used to write 30 stories a month for my blog here , I intend to write in conjunction with Mistress Wael and hit those same levels of content.
It’s the only thing I know how to do. Well that and blowing guy’s minds in my sessions.
Those are my two gifts. Anything else I do is a disaster. You don’t want to know how many times I tried to buy Disney in the past year , only to get stopped out every single time.
Somehow, someway , writing is going to get me through the recession. I truly believe in that.
Writing is the reason I went to Australia in the first place , to learn how to better myself at it. It’s what made me enter into a business relationship with original Jaa , something I’m discussing at length in my book.
It’s what built jaa4u back up from the ashes after Jaa abandoned it.
It’s what makes me happy. I really disliked making femdom videos. They were a means to an end, nothing more.
Writing and blowing guys’ expectations out of the water , that’s my plan.
Anyways, if you’ve stuck with this blog entry all the way down to here, kudos to you.
I know this isn’t a sexy entry , your dick isn’t hard, your imagination isn’t on fire , but sometimes I have to realize what it is I have here with this website of mine.
A place where I can say anything I fucking want , uncensored. Trying to co-exist on sites like Loyalfans, Twitter, Youtube have shown me just how important it is to have a platform like this where I’m basically God. I have the final say, not them.
Talk to you tomorrow.
Mistress Jaa
Book A Session
Looking to book a session? Fill out the form or send one of us an email and in it be very descriptive about what you would like for a session, where you’re from, what your name is, and when you would like to meet.
If you decide to fill out the form, double check that you’ve typed in your email address properly cuz guess what? If you fuck that up, I can’t get back to you, end of story. It’s shocking how many guys can’t spell their own email address.
Mistress Wael is available from 1pm until 10pm every day, while I am available at either 7pm or 10pm Monday – Thursday and 4pm on Friday’s.
1 hour sessions are 5k baht while 2 hours are 7k.
Human Toilet Training with Mistress Wael is 15k and with me it’s 20k.
With Mistress Wael sessions are outcalls at your hotel, house or condo and with me they are held here at my condo.
Check out our Fees & Bookings page for all the information you need to know for booking your session with us.
I used to have so much fun writing that even though I sucked at it – mightily , it still made me giddy to sit down and write a story.
When my creative writing teacher in Australia, Vladimir was his name announced to us on the last day of class that in some shape or form we were all officially “writers” , I smiled. Couldn’t wait to find some platform to write for , and little did I know that I’d be writing for my own website soon after.
But damn, living in Australia that year was fun. Hilarious and fun. Here’s an example just off the top of my head, one of many recounts of stories that I could tell and retell from my time studying down there.
Back then I used to hang with this big broad shouldered Samoan named Mark – he’s the bastard that got me to try coke at a dance club one night and that experience had me staring at the hairs on his cat until sunrise the next day.
When the effect started to die off and the cat’s hairs stopped speaking to me , he was sitting across from me on his own sofa laughing his ass off at me , holding his rather large tummy with his left hand , massaging it as it jiggled with laughter , and with his right arm he had a hot coffee extended in my direction.
Ok well one day a few classmates had driven down from Sydney to Melbourne and we were sleeping four to a room , or well 4 in one room and 3 in the room I was in … I being the only girl invited.
We’re on the way back to the hotel well after midnight , coming home from a night of dancing and Mark was somewhere between lucid and stoned , one hand pressing down on my shoulder from up above for support and his other wrapped around his mate’s waist for support. He managed to get into the taxi just fine but on the way back to the hotel he looked at me with beads of sweat running down his forehead and an ever-so-clear look of total awareness. I could even catch glimpses of panic in his eye as we passed by each streetlight and it would cast an ever concerning glow on Mark’s face.
“What is it?” I asked , expecting an answer heavily influenced from whatever dimension he was currently in but instead I got a very serious and slow paced four word reply from him :
“I … have … to … shit” he said matter-of-factly.
“Now? I blurted – for lack of any better thing to say right that instant. To be honest, my exact thought at that moment was how he could just “snap out” of being so high and be as in the moment as he was … whereas I had sat there talking to individual cat hairs for a good 6 hours , unable to break free from the hypnotic conversation.
“Yes, right fucking now” he stated.
I glanced around , having absolutely no idea of where we were in Melbourne and what might be open so I offered back the idea that “staying in the taxi a few more minutes until we get to the hotel would be the best thing to do … if you can hold it that is?”
“Think so” he sputtered back through winced eyes.
Acting in his best interest I said “here give me the hotel room key , I’ll run down the hall when the elevator doors open and get the room unlocked for you so you can just make a mad dash to the toilet.”
Mark didn’t even think , he registered that as a brilliant idea and in a flash had tossed me our room key.
So we get to the lobby door and I’m through those doors in a flash heading for the elevators , wanting to make sure there’s an elevator ready for him so that no time is wasted.
“Quickly , quickly” I shouted and waved at both Mark and our other classmate (sorry , totally forget his name – though I have it on the tip of my tongue) as they both scurried for the elevator that I was holding open for them.
Mark was walking with Bambi legs, his knees pointed inward so as to help clench is butt cheeks and his eyes were feverishly looking from left to right and left again up at the ceiling as he walked , kind of like the Cylon red eye in Battlestar Galactica.
I fully expected his answer to be “by your command” but instead it was just “hurry , its coming out right now”
“Not in the lift its not” I snapped back, “they’ll kill us if they find a mountain of your turd riding the lift all night.”
Then there was the “ding” of the elevator hitting the requested floor and just as the door opened I stepped forward from the row of elevator buttons and slapped him on the back four times urgently saying “GO , GO , GO , GO”
And with curved legs like someone who had been riding a horse all day and had just stepped off Mark shuffled forward into the hall in that stance with one hand pushing against the ass of his jean pants so as to hold the shit in.
He looked left, then right , then left again and suddenly twirled around faster than any man of that size should ever be allowed to turn.
His eyes met mine as the elevator door closed between us but before it did I held up the room key – jingling it ever so slightly saying “oops , wrong floor , well good luck Mark.”
And as the elevator took off for our 10th floor from the 7th that I had purposely pressed I heard his voice follow us up the shaft like an inferno of rage and the words “fuck you u u u u……..” hit both my ears as well as his mate’s who was bent over laughing hysterically in the corner of the lift.
Ah fuck , good times man. Good fucking times indeed.
When do you think was the last time I had a good time like that night? I can tell you exactly, my Christmas of 2019 Switzerland trip, coming up on 2 years to the day in a few short weeks.
Not only has the last 370 days been ‘not fun at all’ , they’ve been about as far fucking away from fun as one can get … and the last 40 or so have overrun with putrescence and rot.
I am quite formidably in a state of depression.
That I’m aware of it is what has kept me from falling into the abyss , so far.
Resigned to the end of things she waits for death , and still – she waits.
I thought , as I have for so many months in a row now , that November would be a turning point. The darkest before the storm , and all that nonsense.
It’s just more of the same stupefying boredom and the catatonic lethargy that follows it. Day after day after day.
I thought when my Onlyfans was shut down that it’d take a month or so for my followers to move over to Loyalfans but that hasn’t been the case.
They sit there , like vultures, waiting for any scraps of written prose they might get their scaly claws into for free, refusing to subscribe.
Sessions have returned, there has been exactly two of them. So that leaves me with all this 10 cent noodle soup to nuke and eat every day , the taste of which has long since made my stomach want to heave.
My d-day , the day that my funds officially hit 0 is now less than 4 weeks away.
I’ll make Novembers rent and from December 1st I’m basically waiting for a miracle.
The end of covid better come in the next 28 days or you can put a fork in me.
But what horrifies me the most , is that I don’t care. I’m wholly indifferent to how this plays out.
That’s because I hate this new world with the very core of my existence. I can feel my soul melting like candle wax , the soul that used to revel in joy and happiness has long since been broken.
Broken by this putrescent society that has sprung from the ashes of the old one I so enjoyed.
I regret ever buying that cur-sed ticket “home” , from which sprung this anathema.
So, in trying to recreate a state-of-mind that I once enjoyed , I’m trying to push myself away from making videos and instead spending that time writing again.
It won’t work though. Not unless it is supported by face to face human interaction.
Yes, I might be an introvert , but damn I loved my femdom sessions.
Funny segue just popped into my brain , something I wanted to share with you from the first session I had earlier this month , the first one I’ve had in a very very long time.
Throughout the entire two hours , every time I would transition from say teasing his dick to moving up and face sitting him … I had to actively quell the natural desire to yell out “CUT” at the top of my lungs 😛
Every scene I’ve shot for the past two years , it’s just been scripted and acted out , at the end of which either I or Mistress Wael yells out CUT , depending on who’s holding the camera.
Strangely, once into the new position , say the face sitting position , I never got the urge to yell out “ACTION” , I wonder why?
Anyways, I turned around and told that – what I just wrote for you – to my slave and though he looked at me quizzically at first , he ended up laughing a half hour later when I allowed him to cum in the last minute of the session and I ended up yelling “CUT” the moment he came.
“Fuck don’t make me laugh while I’m cumming after waiting for 2 hours to do so” he said with his face twisted to one side , half laughing into my pillow as his cum slid down from his nipple. (pretty good distance for my first cumshot in 2 years eh?)
I laughed. He laughed some more, and then we ended up talking for 30 or so minutes.
When he left I closed the door behind him and whispered out loud “fuck that felt great , it felt like before.”
I need that interaction. That is what inspires me to write , which begets more sessions and its a self feeding circle , a healthy one.
But maybe it’s a chicken and the egg scenario? Perhaps I have to write first and doing so will bring in the next session which will get me to write some more and it’ll become a self fulfilling prophecy?
If not, at least I can say , come mid December , that I died on my sword.
Or my pen, as it were.
Mistress Jaa
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So my sin , the one that got my Onlyfans cancelled , was to talk about and show photos of the face sitting chair which Mistress Wael ordered and has arrived today.
Apparently I was not supposed to mention toys that are not used for vaginal insertion and stimulation. Go figure that a face sitting chair … one that many guys are going to use every opportunity to vaginally stimulate a pussy with their tongue … got me suspended haha.
Whatever.
If you think I’m disheartened and defeated by losing my Onlyfans then go back and read one of my best stories called Maybe which tells you that there is no inherent good or bad news , only the possibilities that such news presents.
However, before I start talking about those possibilities , let me first talk about something that Mistress Wael stumbled on yesterday that deserves a blog story because the ramifications of her discovery are staggering.
As yesterday’s deactivation played out in the wee hours of the morning I had called Mistress Wael to wake her up and share the onlyfans news.
I asked her if she could maybe tell her subscribers what had happened to my account and explain why it has disappeared. She agreed , and immediately went about typing up a private post in group messages explaining the situation and went to attach one of my videos with her message … something she has always done as a way of cross promoting one another on that platform.
Only , the message failed to send. It created an error message saying “failed to load media” and so we initially thought that was a connection error perhaps. We tried again with the same video and then a different video of mine. Same result.
Ok, “let’s try a photo” I told her via sms.
We then tried to post the same message and again the same ‘failed to load media’ error popped up.
“Fuck, are they messing with your ability to post?” I asked her. “Try to attach your photo to the post” I suggested.
Bingo, bango … the post went through.
“Let’s try to post the photo of me and you standing together” was my next idea. So she created another short private group message with that photo and guess what? Rejected.
Then it dawned on me. I’ve been digitally cancelled !!
Think about that for a second. It’s a groundbreaking thing to say.
See, my problems with Onlyfans began when they introduced their Face Scanning AI through a secondary website – one that asked for my photo to be centered in a square on my phone – much like the QR code scanning app – and it would take a while to scan and approve every photo.
Shortly thereafter I started receiving red flag emails spit out by their system for every video and photo where it could not detect my face. So if I was shaking my ass on camera , that post would get red flagged and removed with a warning.
If I had a 2nd person in the video and that person was wearing a mask to protect his identity , that video or photo would also be red flagged because their AI could not detect and identify the face of the secondary person.
My solution as you all know was to remove every single post on the main blog that wasn’t solo and didn’t clearly show my face. So even my boob jiggling and ass shaking videos had to go.
It took a while because there were over 1000 posts and their system would only let me remove a certain number of posts per day saying I couldn’t remove any more as I had paying subscribers. But slowly over the course of a month we finally got our main blog cleared for their new AI so it wouldn’t spit out any more red flags.
Well, until it spat out the face sitting chair as it couldn’t recognize a face.
I should have known too because as soon as I posted the chair I got the “friendly” reminder that pops up saying “don’t forget to tag an existing Onlyfans creator” which means immediately that their AI software can’t read the face of the face sitting chair haha.
And that was my undoing , I thought it would be okay to post a photo of a chair as it wasn’t human. Oh how wrong I was.
But that point is : Mistress Wael , no matter what video or photo of me she tried to load on her onlyfans account got rejected.
I have been digitally cancelled on that platform.
Meaning, any photo or video showing my face triggers some sort of ban mechanism and doesn’t allow it to be posted.
Which obviously would prevent me from say opening a new account with them under a different name and re-posting all my content again. (what sane person would ever use onlyfans a 2nd time lol)
Guys, that is a Black Mirror episode in the making.
Imagine the ramifications , of where digital banning based on face scanning software can lead in the future.
Say Facebook and Youtube merged all their platforms. That be Instagram , FB , Whatsapp , Youtube and so on. And say they banned me on one platform , they would then subsequently ban me from all social media platforms permanently.
It reminds me of the episode where the mom bad her daughters eyes programmed to blur out anything offensive like a mean dog barking at her , or a man with a criminal record.
Yes it’s not that extreme … yet. But that it happened to me screams that the possibilities exist to deepen the problem.
Carrying it one step further , what if these covid passports become a permanent thing. What if not having one means you don’t qualify to travel and to work … as it stands right now. Correct?
What if that means you are cancelled as a person. You can’t post online via this face scanning technology.
I’m spit balling here but you can see the possibilities right?
Funny thing is , we live in a time that even if it did anger you or trigger you , the only thing you’d do about it is post a #bad , #intrusive , #newworldorder post with said disgruntled-ness and a lot of hashtags … and that’d be that.
Right now, I’m wearing the “Was digitally cancelled on Onlyfans” as something like an MMO game achievement. I’m proud to have been digitally cancelled 🙂
I’m getting to the “possibilities” part of the post next but first let me say that I’m making so many mental mistakes typing this up that it’s making me laugh at how unconsciously controlled and censored by onlyfans I have become.
For example. In writing for onlyfans , if I’m doing so on their main blog I cannot put in spaces for paragraphs. They ensure small written posts that way otherwise it looks like a wall of text.
My solution for that.
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Was to put periods to make unnatural paragraph breaks.
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Like I’m showing you here. It had become so common to make a paragraph break in such a manner that these last two posts , now that I’m back on my wordpress platform that jaa4u uses , I still find myself habitually putting in those period paragraph breaks.
Also , not so much today but in yesterday’s blog story I found myself wary of trying to type the word “years” which on onlyfans is a huge ‘nono’ , “no can do”.
For example I cannot write on onlyfans this following sentence : “I hadn’t seen Mike for 10 years , in fact the last time I saw him I was 11 years old.” Their software would reject that post citing “10 years” and “11 years old” as being offensive words.
I’d have to always write around it saying something like : “I hadn’t seen Mike for 10 very long years , in fact the last time I say him was was el.even yrs old.”
The word years had to have “very long” put in front of it and any number had to be spelled out with a period stuck in the middle of it , or I’d have to misspell it intentionally like ellleven.
What a fucked up way to have to write eh?
Onlyfans is to the internet as Hitler was to idealism. Hey, I watched Norm Macdonald’s Netflix special called Hitler’s dog … so I’m ok with mentioning his name now. I loved Norm Macdonald.
Sessions !!!
I couldn’t write the word sessions on onlyfans. We had a code word for it that I had to constantly tell my subscribers. I’d send out messages saying “when I’m talking about Tinder Dates , I’m actually referring to sessions.”
“Guys , I might have t.wo Tinder Dates lined up tonight so I won’t be posting videos until their done. At least I’m going to have a lot of pasta in my purse at the end of the night.”
^ that sentence was code for “I might have two sessions lined up tonight , at least I’m gonna have a lot of money in my purse.”
Shit like that , I constantly had to write in code for their fucked up shitty website.
Oh meet. lol. If I ever typed the word meet it would mean an instant red flag even if I got around it trying to type m.eet. If I just put the word ‘meet’ the post would get rejected.
Diapers !!!
Oh I miss my diapers guy. Are you reading this? Say hello okay , email me. Or better yet , follow me on Loyalfans … it’s free !! <– I’ll get to that in a minute.
Ya, can’t say diapers on onlyfans. Big no no.
Can’t say much of anything on that website is my point. They had thousands of banned words , so many in fact that it affected the way I typed.
I continually equated to typing around their rules as living in some sort of Orwellian 1984 thought-control world , and it got on my fucking nerves every single time I had to write.
So like I said yesterday , I was mentally so done with Onlyfans that I was going through the motions the last 30 days or so. I absolutely hated clicking on the bookmark to open up the site to post every night.
Onlyfans is a cancerous website. Even paypal , (heh , i got scared typing that word as its been censored for so long) when they closed my account last year they only held my money for 6 months before returning it. Onlyfans just seized my $1000 with no intention of giving it back. Cunt website.
Tim Stokely … I want to shit in your mouth. You should feel honored. I only do that for the most special of my VIP long term customers but for you … you vomitous maggot … I’d happily fill your mouth with my turds every day … and I’d make your whore wife watch with an oversized eggplant stuffed up her ugly cunt to boot.
Moving on then. Let’s address Loyalfans. What its going to be and what its not going to be. The differences and my attitude towards it and so on.
I’m not going to rush and load all my 400 videos to that platform to rapidly try and recreate a duplicate of Onlyfans there. I’ve already done that on my AVN Stars platform so if you want access to my entire video library its there waiting for you on AVN.
My library is also available on the pCloud , and so whether you are paying the $20 via Loyalfans or AVN , you are getting the monthly password for my pCloud video archive.
And you’re getting my latest videos and thoughts.
I suppose over time my Loyalfans page will eventually have the 400 videos I’ve shot in the past year , but it will happen naturally.
Also, I don’t see a way to post videos on Loyalfans so that subscribers can see them only.
I have 3 options. 1) Public 2) Subscribers & Followers 3) Subscribers only. But … if I choose subscribers only, I MUST put a $ value to sell the video.
Does that mean that’s the price of the video in their clips store or does that mean as a subscriber you have to pay for the video too. I’ll have to test it out to see.
However , my intention is NOT to recreate an onlyfans environment. My intention is to make most of my content free (well the clips where you can’t see my face will be posted publicly like I do on Twitter).
I won’t be writing long stories like I did on Onlyfans. I’ll be doing that here.
My home is here now.
My home away from home is both Loyalfans and AVN stars where I’ll habitually load content.
But the majority of my time I’ll be here writing. Booking sessions. Attending to my gmail ( [email protected] ) and replying in detail and great length once again … as I used to do before.
In short, I’m going back to what I used to do … write and book sessions. My secondary focus will be to maintain a video presence, but I don’t ever intend to spend all night loading clips and chatting like I’ve been doing this past year.
If I’m to survive the remainder of this pandemic, its going to be through booking femdom sessions.
Look, I have enough money now to survive October and possibly to the end of November – IF I can snag 2 or 3 sessions over the next 60 days. I have 3 on the calendar for this month now including one tomorrow so I’m relatively confident I can achieve that small goal.
Hell, t’was a time I was doing my maximum of 50 sessions a month and complaining about it every single day. So asking for 3 shouldn’t be much of a reach – IF – I go back to what I used to do.
Only thing is , with an army of videos that I can embed here and a slew of about 1000 photos , my blog stories will have plenty more interactive content than my posts used to have. My blog should become twice even three times more popular than it was before.
Ah see, I’m up to 4 subscribers now on Loyalfans as I type this and 10 now on AVN where one of my video stores is fully loaded. And that’s in the first day sans onlyfans.
Those who want to video call with me, chat with me at night , I’m sure you’ll find your way to me on either platform. Or email me here.
I was reading the news here today and two more people got arrested for posting a sex video on onlyfans. So there’s a crackdown going on as that’s the third couple since September to be thrown in prison for having sex.
Its comical really as we have .. oh what … 1 million whore houses? LOL. Ain’t like there’s any shortage of sex going on in the country. But post it online and you get thrown into prison and tortured with the key thrown away.
So ya, maybe leaving Onlyfans at this point in time is a good thing. Sure feels like a safe thing to do. It was funny reading the news story of what they used to shame the couple.
The story focused on shaming the cosplay uniform the couple were wearing while having sex outside under some sort of sacred tree – so considered by the village idiots who named it as such.
“She had sex in a bankers uniform!” oh the horror , the horror.
For me it would have been “she put her nylons under his nose and told him to sniff!!!!” oh the horror , the horror , the horror x 10.
The authorities cracking down on onlyfans kind of reminds me of this Elmer Fudd & Daffy Duck cartoon , only replace the words rabbit and duck with “whore season , slut season , whore season , whore season , FIRE”
The moment he sticks out his tongue and goes “nyyugh” makes me laugh every single time.
Anyways guys , I’ll be posting here every single night from now on and once I’m done here – then and only then will I mosey on over to Loyalfans and AVN Stars to post there.
I may have pulled out a bit early in focusing on writing and sessions but as you guys can attest to … its better to pull out too early than too late, amiright? :))
Mistress Jaa
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Or fill out the form below. Don’t forget to check out my Loyalfans femdom blog , or Mistress Wael’s Loyalfans blog its a great way to get to know more about us through our photos , videos and daily stories.
Yes , to you …. I can see that me saying OF banning porn being nothing to fear is akin to me playing the role of King Arthur and you guys playing the role of Tim the Enchanter …
King Arthur: You got me all worked up!
Tim: Well, that’s no ordinary news story
King Arthur: Ohh.
Tim: That’s the most foul, cruel, and bad-intentioned news you ever set eyes on!
Sir Robin: You tit! I soiled my armor I was so scared!
Sir Galahad: Don’t say that. Mistress Wael will make you eat it.
Tim: Look, that OF news has got a vicious streak a mile wide! It’s a killer news story!
Sir Galahad: Get stuffed!
Tim: It’ll do you up a treat, mate.
Sir Galahad: Oh, yeah?
Sir Robin: You manky Scots git!
Tim: I’m warning you!
Sir Robin: What’ll Onlyfans do? Nibble my bum?
Tim: That news has got huge, sharp… er… It can do you in. Look at the bones of the porn stars!
Here’s the thing guys, I’ve been hit with so many OF red flags that if this were an American Football game , I’d have negative 7000 yards of offense to date.
After getting dinged with their latest mockery of a ban I said E -’nuff – the video where I – wait for it – WALKED UP STAIRS , namely the stairs in my condo. “Self harm” was their petty reason for banning that video.
Thus, borrowing from the wisdom of the combat computer in the movie Wargames : “Strange website, the only winning move is not to play.”
By ‘not play’ I mean, don’t post anything remotely sexual on their main blog.
Unless I’m wrong , and I’m never wrong OF is heading to the fire swamp … err , I mean … OF can’t do shit about anything sent in private messages.
(by the way , if you haven’t watched this version of The Princess Bride , I HIGHLY recommend you put aside 90 minutes of your life one day and give it a watch !! )
If you’re a subscriber to my OF you know already that I send out at least 4 Femdom videos a day via private messages while loading but a single photo to the main blog.
As does Mistress Wael on her OF.
All this time , red flag after red flag , Mistress Wael thought I was getting killed. I wasn’t getting killed, I was getting mad.
Still, I think I should be taking Darth Vader’s advice and not let myself be destroyed.
Can almost hear my AVN Stars account saying “Good , good, can she be turned to the dark side , err , our porn site?”
To which I say, “I will join you or die, my master.”
Or well, I’ll keep on mirroring everything I post on OF over to AVN Stars , just so I don’t have all my broccoli in one basket.
So there’s my update. We’re aware of the situation , but we feel we have things entirely under control and in our favor.
Mistress Wael’s OF is still your #1 source for extreme femdom clips and perfect seal ass to mouth human toilet training videos with 4-5 videos every day via private message sent out just before 6am every morning. Her OF also features 1 clip / day from my collection and 1 clip / day from Original Mistress Jaa’s video archive so it’s like getting 3 for the price of 1 , and what a low price it is at $10/month still.
My OF subscribers get 4 videos sent out shortly thereafter at around 7am before I go to bed in the morning.
The main blog on my OF has long blog stories , about 2-3 every night. That’s why I’m not writing here so often currently as I sit down and write from 3-7 am every day for my OF leaving me very little time to come up with even more prose for my site.
I’ll make it a point to post here on the weekends as I tend to take Saturday’s off from OF.
Once the world reverts back to normal and I can go back to doing sessions, I’ll happily be writing for jaa4u every day once again.
Oh look. It’s the cliffs of insanity.
Aka : perpetual lockdown.
And Onlyfans? They’re about as scary as Stormtroopers aim.
Nah, they’re just a credit card processing service at this point, nothing more than that. Mind you a fucking expensive one as they steal 20% of all my intellectual property but a necessary evil until I mirror jaa4u.com as an Onlyfans like free & ppv site to a .crypto domain where I can finally take payments in the crypto of your choice.
That’s a few months away though.
Mistress Jaa
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Or fill out the form below. Don’t forget to check out my Loyalfans femdom blog , or Mistress Wael’s Loyalfans blog its a great way to get to know more about us through our photos , videos and daily stories.
“I’m not a schemer. I try to show the schemers how pathetic their attempts to control things really are.”
Heath Leger , The Joker in The Dark Knight
I’m trying , not metaphorically but physically , get to the line where he says “look what I did to this city with a few drums of gas and a couple of bullets.”
Only for me, my bullets are my videos, 400 of them to be exact … and growing by 5 every three days.
I reckon the drums of gas are all the other websites I’m proliferating my video collection to rather than stupidly betting on the OnlyFans horse.
In betting terms, I’m placing free bets on each horse in the race to win, place or show. I’m guaranteed to win.
So let me explain in detail here what I’ve been doing, the purpose of what I’m doing, the estimated length of time it’ll take to finish, and finally how it all applies to you.
“You” is such an awkward word for me presently. In the seven years since I took over this blog from original Jaa , I’ve always written for you my readers.
This is the first story I’ll be writing which will be linked to my onlyfans subscribers via mass private messaging … but by way of a link that links to a password protected .pdf of this story on my pCloud … which at the top links to this published page.
Overkill? Perhaps, but it gives you an idea just how much separation I’m attempting to put in between me and them , and so let me explain for you each layer of that separation which is currently in motion. Let’s start with something none of you are aware of yet , but I’ve been working diligently on … AVN Stars.
AVN Stars
“But Mistress, why would I pay your $50 subscription to AVN Stars when your OnlyFans is only $20 per month?”
Because my love, AVN Stars has something that OnlyFans doesn’t – a clips store. So the AVN Subscription is meant as a one time purchase , not as an ongoing subscription.
“Ya but how much are the videos in the clip store?”
Absolutely free.
“Why would you put them for free?”
Well three reasons exactly. For one, my videos will most certainly drive session booking volume so it behooves me to have as many eyeballs seeing my content as possible. Two , I figure the $50 is already a reasonable sum for 400 top of the line, creative, hot, funny and varied library of femdom videos. And three, umm, I’m nice? haha
“Are you posting on AVN Stars so frequently like you do on OnlyFans?”
I will be , just to keep a presence. But for those who like to hang out with me, chat , video call , and so on – onlyfans is the current venue for that level of interaction.
AVN Stars is intended to be the preferred place where my followers can get to see my entire video collection and get an idea from hundreds of hours of clips just how unique my seductive style of femdom and bdsm is.
I’ll be linking to the store in my posts and when I get to redesigning my Video Store page in the next little while it’ll be prominently displayed at the top.
But don’t go looking yet , it’s like a Hollywood set that’s being built. Yes I’ve loaded 246 clips already , but if you look closely they’re still in draft form and not live just yet.
There’s but 10 folders left to load to that store so by the end of March that will be live.
PCloud
Truth be told, had it been just as fast to load a video to my 2TB of cloud space on my pCloud drive – this would of had priority over AVN Stars , but the loads are slow as molasses and it’s going to be a one month project of constant loading and babysitting 24 hours a day.
That’s because if there’s but a 1 second drop of internet service the whole upload needs to be restarted from scratch and that’s maddening. Every single day has had a moment where an upload which I’ve started at 7am and got 80% loaded by 2pm needed to be restarted.
Had I been one to tear my hair out at such inconveniences , I’d be a bald girl by now.
But come hell or high water, it’ll get done eventually, and that means a lot of good things for me, my jaa4u.com followers and my onlyfans subscribers.
For one, I can now link any of my videos to my blog stories , like this one below ..
I’ve never been able to do that. Previously I’ve had to link you videos like this hot one from my twitter feed. I’m excited.
Now , I’m speaking directly to my onlyfans subscribers here – but as I’ve been hinting at over on our 1984 thoughtpolice monitored blog , pCloud should solve all their anal rules and regulations roadblocks that have prevented me from showing you anything other than me wiggling my ass – as anything else is too unsettling , horrifying and shocking for their mainstream audience. Again , let me reiterate, there are girls on there making a living pulling their assholes inside out with ungodly huge dildos on their prolapse blogs – and that’s absolutely fine. But stick a sweaty sock in a whimpering slave’s mouth and its red flag city. (or , tell them that one little mayor is going to die, and people lose their minds – again quoting the Joker above)
So fuck them right? Like I said, all through school here , which is as repressive as you can possibly imagine , I’ve been a rebel. Fuck the system. Fuck any system. Which brings us back to Joker’s quote that I started off with. The great thing about having lived a lifetime of thinking outside the box is I’ve become quite good at plotting solutions to any roadblocks placed in front of me.
What’s said or sent in private mass messages looks to be far enough off the beaten path (re: the main blog) that I could possibly get by with just sending you the “sensitive” (re: hot as fuck) videos one at a time. And that’s what I did as a knee jerk reaction , remember?
But pCloud allows me to give my onlyfans subscribers my entire video library , all you need is the password , which my subscribers have , and others can have too by just arranging the $50 access payment via Amazon Gift Card , Bank to Bank, whatever floats your boat.
Two things though. One, I’ll be constantly changing the password , and I don’t want any of their nosey employees to know what that password is at all.
So I’m thinking of sending out in private message something routine like “Cable guy says : Louise” and Louise will be the password for that week. It’ll be our inside joke.
If there’s other ways to do it let me know. Ideally, our private messages on onlyfans will have two types of messages that I need to send you. One being an alert that I’ve uploaded a new video : “Hey, the tease & denial video named Ruined just got loaded to the Tease & Denial folder , check it out.”
And the only other message I’d be sending out en masse would be “Cable guy says cumshot” and you’d know that’d be the new root folder password.
That solves the problem of never needing to load anything sensitive to the onlyfans main blog.
My subscribers can watch any video they want at any time , and subscribing gives them continual access to the new passwords.
I’m completely autonomous , free of their limits and restrictions.
Nothing ever gets typed in chat, it’s just a private internal system that runs quietly under the hood and keeps everybody happy.
I maintain control over the folder by making the videos view only and not downloadable. To have a permanent copy for oneself they’d either need to pay the one time Subscription to AVN Stars or …
IWantClips & Clips4Sale Stores
My IWantClips store is growing, it’s going to take a couple of months to have my entire 400 video archive loaded to their platform , and another three months to load a copy to my Clips4Sale store thereafter.
“Why are the videos so freaking cheap to buy Mistress?”
Because the videos are a means to an end … to entice men to come see me in person which is truly what I love doing , in person femdom sessions. So putting a video for $30 like most girls do on those sites defeats the purpose , well the way I see it.
I can go see the 4 hour long Justice League Snyder cut for $8 , doesn’t make sense that a 10 minute video should be more than that.
There might be someone who absolutely loves my World Class Tease & Denial video but only wants that for his collection and so would find paying the $50 AVN Stars subscription not up his alley, and that’s what IWantClips and Clips4Sale is for.
He can individually buy it $6 and have money left over for the extra butter popcorn that’s going to make his fingers all nice and slippery as he strokes himself to my video. Win / win , right? 🙂
Also, there’s a pride thing going on. Both those sites take a whopping 40% as their percentage , so fuck them both. AVN and OF will keep me afloat , and I consider the nickles and dimes that come in from these two sites to be food money.
Not that I need food as I’ve been actively rinsing unsuspecting Tinder boys for thousands of baht a night for the past seven months , getting them to take me to any 5 star restaurant I want in the city in exchange for the hope of sex with me thereafter.
Hint: collectively they’re a combined 0/127 on bedding me … although as I wrote about in my recent onlyfans post, one guy got extremely close … before his shoes got tossed out of my condo. Seriously , I’ve done that twice now.
I’m not only done with dudes with small dicks, but I’m abrupt and rude now, consider it a 0 tolerance policy so if you crave SPH – I’m your new girl cuz I’ll fucking humiliate you like nobody else can , and I’ll mean it too.
Writing for jaa4u.com
When the ofThoughtpolice took down every post where I linked to this blog I got away from writing for a bit. That’s not going to happen any longer.
Every night I’m going to write like I’m doing now from 11pm to 1 or 2am and I’ll post a story.
See, at the beginning , pretty much every subscriber on onlyfans wanted to chat with me all night , and so I’d spend hours talking to you Wilson, and the fart guy , and the dude who paid $100 a letter for my Line id , and many more.
Lately though, and I think its a product of the length of this pandemic and how its numbing us all to interaction , there’s a manageable few who like to talk to me at night , but its not everybody , not even close to how it was before.
And so , that leaves me time to write !! Finally.
Back in the day , guys in Europe who followed me would wake up to their cup of coffee and read my blog every morning because there’d be a new post. I’m going back to that again as honestly, editing videos is fine , its fun and all , but it doesn’t hold a torch to writing.
I’m still greatly frustrated by my inability to say certain phonetic sounds in English even after 20 years of trying , and so it’s here behind a keyboard where I can let myself be me.
Oh , and without the constant censoring of words. Like, here I can write “For 7 years I’ve been torturing slaves by dressing them up as a girl and sending them to 7Eleven to buy my tampons.”
When I write that and press send on OF it reads “For I’ve been slaves by dressing them up as a girl and sending them to buy my tampons.” I shit you not. … or , I ___ you not.
So I fucking hate composing my thoughts on that platform. For when I do , I feel – no shit – like I’m a citizen in George Orwell’s 1984 novel. In other words, I feel like the book has manifested itself into our current reality and I’m being watched and censored with everything I do.
Heh, which truly isn’t that far from the truth nowadays is it?
By the way, can somebody lecture me on the proper use of “is it, isn’t it, and doesn’t it?” I still need to guess every time which one to use when. In our language we just say “chai mai” at the end , and only that. So ez to remember.
I’m a Dog Chasing Cars
At the very least , once all the above mentioned sites have my full library on hand and I’m promoting the heck out of them with my 18,000 followers on Twitter, I can see a lowball scenario where all these videos constantly pay for my condo and allow me to easily move back to Nana when this lease expires in July.
One shade above that , they pay for a very nice luxury 3 bedroom condo around Nana , which will make hosting sessions so much fun again. Hosting sessions here in this tiny abode is a nightmare.
Guys are so eager to come see me here and I’m the opposite, I want to get the hell out of this 1/2 bacehelorette space and go to their hotel !!
However, I can’t help but dream right? What if these videos catch on and become popular.
See, even aiming at the bottom of the “wow my videos are successful financially” tier , they’d drive sessions to me like crazy , because I’m so unique, nobody does femdom like I do , and now I have 400 videos to prove it.
Only, before covid hit, I was at maximum capacity for hosting sessions. My twitter was at 6,000 f0llowers because I’d mostly ignored it , I had 5 maybe 6 half ass videos to show from 7 years of doing sessions , and still I was overbooked.
Now with Twitter about to hit 20,000 , 400 videos hosted over 4 or 5 different sites , … I’m going to have to hire at the very least a new girl and get Ladyboy Arita back here.
Which would mean that we’d be buying a house that’s full of femdom themed living rooms , bedrooms and , woe is me … maybe even a dungeon? Me? A dungeon? Nah. Never. Not my style. But the house will be elegant, sensual, and spectacular.
And what if my business plan hits the jackpot and catches fire? Say a million baht a month of residual income, like a perpetual annuity? Cuz one thing about these videos, not only are they super hot, but I’ll forever be 33 years old in them, so perpetuity is something quite possible to accomplish.
Well then boys, I’m living it large in Europe. Oh fuck ya.
Condo on the French Riviera , a 2nd condo in Zurich , and I’d be jetting around from session to session all over Europe.
That’s me chasing cars and actually catching one. Oh sure I wouldn’t know what to do with it once I caught it , but damn, I’d be one happy girl.
Which is why I’m perfectly happy staying up 18 hours a day … as the Joker says … I just do things. Let the chips fall where they may.
Mistress Jaa
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I feel like I’m married to someone I can’t stand , that’s barely tolerable, yet “for the sake of the kids” (you guys) we remain in the relationship.
Which is good because I always have a hard time writing blog stories about something fictional and with the dearth of sessions this year I’ve had a hard time coming up with stuff you’d guys find interesting to read.
Now that I have something I’m passionate to write about , namely censorship , I’m excited to actually get pen to paper and let my thoughts out.
Let’s be clear about something. I’m only doing only-thought police-fans because I have to , not because I want to. It’s a forced marriage. <— oh how fucking nice is it to actually be able to write the word forced like that. See usually on their site i’d have to spell it like this … fo r .ced , cuz they censor things.
Not just words , as I recently found out , but all kinds of shit. But we’ll get to that in a minute.
We’ll start with day 1 , back in August 2020 when I said out loud to Wael “you know, this covid thing might last until Christmas , let’s try this only-thought police-fans thing out , maybe that’ll float us through until such a time that sessions return along with travel.”
I didn’t do any due dilligance at all, I simply shopped like a man – I targeted something I wanted and hastily bought it – or bought into it in this case.
So I had this new platform in front of me , a place where I could reinvent myself into my new profession .. “online mistress” , or content producer , or whatever you want to call what I do now.
I started getting subscribers and I started chatting with them.
“How long have you been a Mistress?’ one would ask.
“Oh 7 years , give or take” I’d try to reply , but couldn’t send the message. The word 7 years is blocked. Had to be written 7yrs.
“What the fuck” I typed back , “I tried to type 7 y e a r s and they blocked it , what a shitty annoying thing” … only that message got blocked too. Can’t type the word ‘shit’ you see.
And so the learning curve went , finding a new way to type around a million topics , which is just assinine , but it is what it is.
All was going well it seemed until last month when they dropped a bomb of an email in my inbox listing about 500 posts they were deleting for various reasons.
Ok, some of those reasons were valid, like having to get Mistress Wael’s id registered with them and getting her to open up her own onlyfans femdom blog on their site so that I could @ her in every post. So I got those reinstated.
Then came the only-thought police-fans shit. And what a shit show of censorship it is.
You know , I had it in my mind the topic of how tabboo femdom still is in mainstream society from actor Shawn Mendes’s tweet of him kissing his gf’s foot and the outrage from that photo on Twitter. I spent an hour that day reading the 1000’s of lewd comments over something so simple as a foot kiss photo.
So when I got to the Thought Police part of their email which listed a shit ton of my videos which were removed for being “too disturbing, too disruptive, content that causes uneasiness and uncomfortableness” for the viewer.
This is too disturbing !!! Heaven forbid a Mistress attaches a cowbell to a slave’s balls !!! There are girls on the thought police’s website who’s entire video content is doing live anal prolapses where she’s pulling her asshole inside out … which is totally fine. But make a guy’s balls sing with a cowbell apparently causes the general public to faint or have heart attacks.
This causes unease !!! What the fuck are you doing using slave’s mouths as a fart dispensor ? How dare you upload shit like that to our site , can’t you be mainstream and fuck 20″ inch long vegetables like the rest of the women in America are doing?
This causes uncomfortableness !!! Like what the actual fuck !!!! This goes right back to Shawn Mendes’s tweet that caused such an uproar and made his post one of the top trending ones that day. What the fuck is so wrong with putting my foot in a slave’s mouth?
I have many many videos of me doing exactly that , and they’re among my most popular ever , but they decided to put the axe to all of them. I was seething , my blood was pounding through my arteries from how upset I was , but then I scrolled down their email a bit more and nearly threw my laptop throught the window.
“Admit it, how many of you wish you were this guy right now” I had written in a post featuring a video where I was caressing my slave’s chastity locked dick with my foot in a hotel room.
Removed for soliciting sexual services was the reason for that post and the video’s removal !!!!! ROFLMAO
At this point , I just knew that the only-thought police-fans guy who was going over my content was a minimum wage 22 year old kid who was in more dire need of a blowjob than any white man in history. ( <– kudos to you if you can name the film i pulled that from )
I had never ever wanted to shit in a boy’s mouth as much as I wanted to shit in this kid’s mouth. Seriously, if I ever got that sorry fuck in my condo , all he’d eat for a year would be my feces as I forced my explosive shit down his mouth day and night. What a fucking tool.
Yet, this is the time of covid and lack of sessions , and the fact remains that only-thought police-fans is my meal ticket through this pandemic , and I’m just now figuring this shit out , like how to market myself, where to market myself, what guys want to see , how to diversify , and so on.
So though from that email alone I’d very much like to divorce myself from the relationship , I had to find a solution to carry on partnering with them.
My way around it was born through my relationship with Mistress Jardina who does piss and shit feeding on her only-thought police-fans blog , as I noticed she only sends her videos out as pay-per-view via mass messaging to all her subscribers. Clever, but still, that means her sensivitve videos were uploaded to their server , which isn’t ideal. I wanted to keep my content off the only-thought police-fans sever completely.
I solved the problem therefore by buying 2TB of cloud space on a pCloud account and have begun the painful process of uploading all 500 videos to my cloud space. That keeps all the content on my side. All I need them for is to link the videos in chat once they’re loaded.
So if you’re a subscriber to my only-thought police-fans femdom video blog , you’ve seen me begin to send you the “sensitive” videos via mass messaging the pCloud link in chat.
Which is great because I can control the content so it’s not downloadable , which keeps my sales going on my iwantclips store , and I can brand every video with a splash page , a title, a description and I can tack on a password.
Try as I might, there’s just no helping clueless people , sigh. My goal was to let everybody know the password to my videos by way of very easy to decipher clues. In fact, one of my closest followers said in chat to me “if they can’t figure out the password from those clues, they have bigger problems in their lives.”
So for now, I’ve had to resort to just plain telling my subscribers in chat what the fucking password is which isn’t ideal as the 22yo loser kid who’s job it is to watch all my content 8 hours a day and delete it … can hypothetically find out what the password is if he was doing something unconstitutional like reading all my private messages. Are my messages private on their server? We don’t know right?
Ideally, I’d disseminate the password by email or by posting it on a blog story here which would leave any only-thought police-fans employee left with trying to guess the password to my videos.
I think though, this solves the problem , ya? My content is a) not on their main blog , b) not even on their servers , and c) is disseminated via a URL link to the video which is d) password protected.
Once I figure out how to set a universal password secretely , I’ll feel 100% safe. Which brings me to the next step of the process.
With all my content on my pCloud , there would be over 50 folders and 300 videos once all is loaded. Those folders would have sub-folders like Tease & Denial Videos , Foot Worship Videos , Toilet Training Videos and so on.
All you would need is folder access via the password for each. Or if you had the password to the root folder, you’d have permanent access to all my content.
… which I could sell here and on Twitter. By way of Amazon Gift Card, or bank to bank or GoFundme , Paypal, whatever … there are ways to circumvent the system.
They’re taking 40 fucking % of every sale which is just pure bullshit. Thus, I’m thinking of diversifying my online presence to AVN STARS which has a clips store , which suits me just fine.
It’s just … its a lot of fucking work to do , and there’s only so many hours in a day , and I’m just one girl.
Video takes up un ungodly amount of time , an even more ungodly amount of space , and this whole concept of marketing myself online can be a 24 hour a day job if I could go without sleep.
Which is why I love my sessions so much, and miss them dearly. I used to wake up at 3pm and quickly head to the gym for my workout and I’d be eating by 5:30. Back home at 6pm getting ready for my first of 2 sesisons, 7pm and 10pm thereafter.
I’d be done washing all the toys and laundry by 11pm and voila , my workday was done. I don’t consider writing to be work so I’d leisurly write a story and do email while sipping on a nice French Bordeaux. That was fun. My life was so simple and had been that way for 7 years.
Then life said “oh you’re comfortable are ya? ok here’s covid and cancer in the same year, have fun.”
Well I have. Had fun that is. It doesn’t feel like it right now, all this reinventing and side stepping problems and finding solutions to other shit thrown my way and all the while using my imagination to be the hottest and most creative online mistress in the world … has been stressful to say the least.
But there are moments where I sit back and say out loud “wow, this is gonna be a hell of a story one day when I’m old and reminiscing about these 2 years from hell.”
That being said, I’m pushing for sessions, for both me and Wael. We had a ‘business meeting’ per se this weekend and we’re promoting a sale of sorts.
I’ve never offered a 1 hour session , my femdom sessions have always been 2 hours, 7,000 baht.
I’m now offering a 1 hour 4,000 baht option.
Furthermore, because Mistress Wael’s human toilet training has taken off , she’s agreed to drastically reduce the cost of that live in session where you in fact live with Mistress Wael as her slave serving as her toilet for 8,000 baht a day … wherein before it was 15,000 baht.
She’ll be posting more about it later today.
And ya, now you’re up to date on what’s been going on in my head behind the scenes.
I suppose you guys know that my gov’t is planning a covid passport scheme where you’ll be allowed to fly here if you’ve been vaccinated starting in July.
Truthfully, I don’t see it happening en masse until September or October. Which is fine by me as my lease expires in this tiny hell hole in August and I can’t wait to move out and back to my spacious 2 bedroom home on soi 11 Nana.
At least I can say I now know what its like living in a luxurious bachelor sized condo – its awful.
Sheesh, what a year eh? I’ll be ever so happy to entertain you guys again. Meanwhile, I’ll keep dodging the bullets the world keeps throwing at me – Neo style from The Matrix.
Talk to ya tomorrow.
xx
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Like I said in yesterday’s blog, sometimes I just don’t have anything genuinely sexy to write about because my mind is fixated on some other random thought … and that I’ve been hesitant to write about those kinds of things because there needs to be a ratio of 70% – 30% kept of sexy stories to my random thoughts.
So because I’m adhering to my promise of Wael or I posting a story every single day until covid’s travel restrictions are lifted … you’re getting a look at what today’s fixation was instead of reading something hot and sweaty.
I was on the bts skytrain coming back to my condo with Mistress Wael at about 6pm this evening and we were discussing what kind of video we could shoot since we had actual contact with a foreigner willing to be a slave in our OnlyFans movies.
Then I paused as I suddenly realized that in a packed skytrain car – we were the only ones talking.
The only sound other than us talking was the roar of the train as it moved along the tracks and the dopler effect on the ears as we shot past every building.
I stared up and down our car , or tram or whatever you call a bts segment of a train. Every single person was fixated on their phone.
I counted. 101 people in total.
All , except Wael and I , were fiddling with their mobile screen.
All were wearing masks.
All the masks were the green surgical masks, all 101 of them including ours.
And it got me to thinking.
When I first returned from Sydney some 12 years ago people talked incesently on the bts. I’m vividly remembering how much it annoyed me my first day back in the city , just the constant blabbering back and forth about whether grandma had kicked the bucket or not and other trivial conversations.
8 years ago they put a TV monitor in every car (again, don’t know what to call a bts segment) and 1/2 the people would sit and stare at 20 minutes of advertisments on that TV while the other 1/2 would still chit chat away.
About 6 years ago 1/3 of the people were connected to and staring at their phones , 1/3 were watching advertisments on the tele , and the remaining 1/3 were yapping away with one another.
Starting around 3 years ago , 75% of the people were talking on their phones … whispering into the mic dangling from their necks as they pressed their chins deep into their windpipes like some new species of bird. 25% of the folks still sat and stared at the adverstisments. 0% of the commuters were having a face to face conversation.
Last year 100% of the people had mobile phones. 0% were staring at the televison. Nobody was having a conversation. 50% of the people had chins buried into their windpipes whispering to their boyfriend thru their airpods, and the remaining 50% were playing games or fiddling with a social app of some sort.
And now?
Silence.
Nobody talks. No conversations. No phone calls. No airpods. Just pure conformity.
100% of the people wear masks. 100% are interfacing with an app on their phone.
And I remember Elon Musk on Joe Rogan’s podcast saying that next year, 2021 , his NeuraLink company will have their first clinical trials completed and with that the first human – machine interface unit will exist.
When I heard him say that I had a reaction along the lines of “wow, we’re really not ready for a technological leap like that … to be hooked up to our phones by way of wires in our brain … people won’t go for that.”
Then today, I had a totally opposite opinion, and I was aware of how much my view of the world and where it sits has changed in just one year.
Because I thought about all the change I’ve seen just on the same bts “car” over the past decade , and how humans are just not comminicating like we used to with actual people standing next to us.
My next thought was what I wrote in my story yesterday … that the reason I moved out here to Punnawiti area is that I now believe all the epidimiologists that I follow on Twitter … that this way of living … social distancing … will be here well into 2022.
But we’re already social distanced. We’re disconnected more than ever from this world … and more connected to the world in our phones.
I graduated in English from a Thai University 12 years ago , and in my final year I wrote a paper on how we’ve evolved from an oral-aural society to something much less effective. My professors were morons. Except one. A Canadian teaching in my university.
I used to sit in Dr.Green’s office and talk about communication from the afternoon until evening classes began. Everybody in my lecture hall was convinced I was blowing him to get A’s on every test and paper. Not true. I finished with a B and not a drop of cum in my mouth. “One day” he said to me “we’ll be consumed by the media we choose to comminicate with. We won’t talk, we’ll just interface and evolve into something else.”
I’m not going to bore you by regurgitating my paper back at you but in a nutshell I was arguing that the way we used to communicate … by gathering around tribal campfires and telling stories as that was the only way information was passed on before writing was introduced … so like I’m talking 4,000 years ago or even before that. There was a pureness in communicating like that, just as there was a pureness in writing when it was first disseminated.
For instance, I got a great kick out of the term “send a Raven” (with a note tied to its claw) in Game of Thrones.
https://youtu.be/bOHvRaNrNSY
This is the year everybody suddenly realized how powerful social media and its apps can be. You don’t dare say a bad word towards any group , anywhere these days. Social media … (groupthink) … will tear your life to shreds if you do. Which brings me to Marshall McLuhan.
Once we’re physically connected to our phones en masse… not just visually like I saw today … who knows what that next medium will be.
But I have a feeling … judging by how quickly we’ve interfaced with our phones … that said medium is a year away , two at most.
Of all days in my life that I’ve left my condo to go outside, today was the worst I’ve ever felt about doing so and by extension, today was the worst I’ve ever felt about the past as I knew it ever returning.
And I”m only beginning my 30’s. I can’t imagine the changes somebody like Wael’s kids – 14 years old will see.
There. That’s a tiny snapshot into my mind and how it works or what it thinks about. Posting something hot to my blog is a hell of a lot easier than trying to get you guys to understand my insecurities by way of thought process.
Wael’s posting tomorrow. I”m posting Saturday … and it’ll be about something not, promise 🙂 Meanwhile, we’re both posting every 6 hours something new to our onlyfans video & photo blog. Check it out , something there is sure to give you an erection!
xx
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This story is outdated. I have now moved to loyalfans. They cunts at OF kicked me off, stole $1000 of my money and all with no warning. They didn’t like the fact I was writing sexy femdom stories on my blog page.
Loyalfans allows all my videos and photos without question. It’s a better interface. Should have started with them in the first place.
My OnlyFans site is up and running : https://onlyfans.com/mistressjaa . It’s $20 / month. I’m posting multiple times daily. Plus live online domination. This story is going to explain the how’s and why’s of what I’m trying to provide you and accomplish.
That I’m writing again, and posting to onlyfans daily, means I can finally put the cancer scare and the condo move behind me … and start having fun for a change!! Because, fuck, what a year this has been eh?
No doubt, all this covid stuff happened because when I returned from Europe back in January I whispered to myself that I wasn’t quite ready to resume sessons yet – that my mind needed just a bit more vacation time away from my Mistress personality.
Because they both live together upsairs like a Dr.Jekyl and Mr.Hyde type of thing , and one can consume the other if I let my dominant Mistress tendancies to take over.
So there I was kneeling beside my little green cactus plant in January, praying to the Cult of the Golden Orb (see video below) that if “I could just have a bit more time off , geez swell, that’d be great.”
Since I was once “the lemon” (see video above), my prayers get heard more often than not and so … due to my request I can confirm it was me and my request which brought covid to the world … only I thought it was going to be for a few weeks or so.
That’s all I asked for , 2 more weeks off at most.
Then I started rationalizing the length of the shutdown. I began convincing myself that our normal lives would be back in May or June.
Which became July or August.
In fact I had just finished emailing people earlier this month that we’d be doing sessions again in October or November.
I felt like Bugs Bunny drawing lines in the sand … egging on covid to “oh ya? cross thisline.”
It was a combination of this Bugs Bunny memory and Faucci saying “xmas 2022 the world should be in a better place to manage the pandemic.”
2022? ! ? ! ?
See all those lines Bugs drew in the sand? If each line represents a month in time I thought … thats about how long Ill be sitting here bleeding money waiting for this to be over.
So March begat April, and April begat May, May begat June and all I did was sit in my condo , alone, wondering if the next month would be better.
Then the pain in my chest started immediately worsening.
At first I chalked it up to nervous anxiety from being alone in my condo for days on end only making human contact with the LineMan food delivery boy. I had this feeling in my chest that inspired constant doom, that 6th sense saying something bad’s about to happen , and at first I thought it was a mental manifestation brought on by my stress.
I still can’t write about June and July , suffice to say that it was just so awful that the best way to deal with it is to focus on the love I got from those of you kind enough to make it so that I’m cancer-free and ensure that I’ll be around for at least a while longer. I can tell you that there’s absolutely nothing more humbling than receiving love when it’s least expected. You guys know from all my stories just how much I’ve felt jaded by love, being scorned time and time again has shaped me into the Dominatrix that I am today. I guess I figured if I’m not worthy of a man’s love then fine I’ll just flip the tables and make a living out of using his lust against him.
So in fact, I have like the video below, a notch on my cane (1,000 in total) for every man I’ve gotten to B.F.O (beg for orgasm) which is my way of of showing each and every man just how agonizingly good a relationship could be with their Mistress , before making their legs quiver and showing them the door. Who knew that some of these same guys that I’d teased mercilessly … would in turn be the very same people who’d save my life.
Andy ______ Sat, Aug 1, 4:32 PM to me Dear Mistress,
I’m writing to thank you again for Thursday night’s session. It took years – years – before I mustered up the courage to visit a domina, and your combination of dominance, compassion, intelligence, warmth, and intimacy went beyond anything I’d expected. So from the submissive bottom of my heart, thank you for taking the time.
When I walked out on Thursday night, everything felt like it had been a strange, beautiful, erotic dream. Like did that really happen? OK, the lingering pain in my left nipple told me it did, but fantasy had become reality, and that can sometimes be difficult to conceive of. When I waited for you in the lobby of your condo, nervous as hell, nothing could have prepared me for the sight of you. You looked even more elegant than I could have imagined. Your smile was angelic, but your attitude was pure dominance.
And after that, every experience – the softness of your breast wrapped in leather, the sweetness with which you spit water into my mouth, the divine smell of your panties draped across my face – was transcendent, absolutely mind-blowing.
So consider this a letter of my appreciation.
Worshipfully,
Andy
Then August hit and with it my first session in what felt like half a year.
I was so into that session! That was a guy, normal looking just like you, who walked into the condo of a girl so starved for conversation and a good time that I damn near raped the guy. What I did to that guys’ mind surely isn’t legal in most countries around the world – And Arkansas.
Sexiness is a feeling, it comes from within. One of the curious things about me is I have an ability to go from as “plain Jane” as a woman can get when I’m feeling grungy , to damn near spectacular when I’m dressed up with make-up and atttitude.
Poor Andrew got his world flipped upside down that night. I reckon he won’t ever have another girl give him an orgasm like the one I gave him that evening.
I slept that night feeling , mistakenly so, that things were about to return to the old normal. And why not right? I’d survived 4 months of this covid lockdown , recovered from my double breast cancer operation , and just had a great session.
But as more days in August ticked away I began to realize – finally – that this covid thing is going to be around for a long long time. I’m talking well into next Spring or Summer before there’s any hint of travel resuming into my country.
Thus, I had to sit down and make a very very hard decision. It just made no sense to stay in my soi 11 condo , so chosen for your convenience , whilst there was no hope of any significant volume of femdom sessions coming through my door.
But I absolutely loved living in that condo. I loved the spaciousness. I loved stepping outside into the heart of Bangkok’s nightlife and my favourite club Above 11 being right next door.
It took this one particular walk down my street at 10pm on a Friday night – where I was literally the only one on the road. Mistress Wael took a video the next night – what would have been a rocking Saturday night back in February – now an empty walk from my condo to bts Nana.
https://youtu.be/LMLXmk5krc0
In tears, I told my rental agent that I wanted to terminate the lease effective immediately.
I say in tears , but not because I was sad , but rather I felt a sense of defeat. Like for fuck sakes, I had just climbed over a significantly tall mountain of adversity , only to clearly see that there were 100’s if not 1000’s more mountains ahead.
By the way, I have no idea why embedded Tweet’s don’t show up in the blog as they used to appear , with the photo intact. I also don’t know why every blog post is dated by the most recent blog post’s date. There is an update sitting in my website’s notification box saying that the website’s theme – named Sriking – has a major update for download … but read this … (Due to major changes in WordPress (jquery related) updating without confirming all your plugins which use jquery are WP 5.5 compatible MAY BREAK YOUR SITE!)
See?
I don’t have the money to update the licence for my Gravity Forms, so I can’t install the theme update. If one of you is feeling generous and would like to buy this year’s licence for me , I’ll give you a major major discount to my onlyfans subscription website in return. Deal?
Anyways, where was I?
Ah yes, the move. Fuck I hate moving.
For one, I’m a tiny girl ok, and moving 50 boxes by myself down one huge condo building and hauling them across the city only to drag them up to the top of another ridiculously tall condo is no easy feat.
I was going to move back home. I had entertained the thought. But so many Thai’s have done that, just given up and crawled back home in defeat that I just refused to raise covid’s white flag.
Ok so move, but to where?
This is where the onlyfans idea started to enter into the survival math, because at the most I can rely on maybe perhaps one session per month only. Yikes.
And I love writing. I haven’t had a chance to write , do photos or make videos since March. I just figured I’d make a bet that getting back to what I love to do – producing content – will the roots of what will make this transitional period successful.
My onlyfans stream of content is a way to show who I really am, my personality, my face, my body, my femdom methods ; and without fear because the true “me” is behind a small paywall. Yay!
I don’t have it all figured out though. One thing I’ve always wanted to do is to be able to post more freely.
My unwritten rule for my website is to keep 70% of these blog stories femdom related , and no more than 30% of the stuff I write to be about me.
Truth is, 500% of my writing ideas are about me and the way I see the world , but I can’t post it. I thought initially I could do that through onlyfans but I can only hide videos and photos behind their paywall, I can’t hide stories.
I’m looking into Gumroad later today as a way to do that , we’ll see. My Kindle store is still without a book , that’s going to change as well.
So let’s talk about onlyfans and what I’m going to be posting there and here. Photo above is my onlyfans profile banner. It’s me as a Mistress. But I intend to make my onlyfans page oh so much more than me acting as Mistress “Jaa”. It’ll be a whole separate blog.
There was a time, from 6 to 3 years ago , where I posted here every day on the blog. Then things got entirely too busy. 2 sessions per day , every day, for the last three years. With the cancer scare and the big condo move behind me, this is an opportunity to get back to doing that.
Mistress Wael is sitting beside me here, we’re in the ‘games lounge’ of my new condo at the foot of Punnawitti bts station , and we’re having a business meeting of sorts. Gotta admit, we spent the first hour here playing pinball, air hockey, and foosball in this games room, then the 2nd hour was spent naked in the steam room and in the pool. Yup naked. True it raised a lot of eyebrows but hey, this isn’t my neck of the woods and staying here is a temporary thing, so frankly I don’t give a rats ass what anybody thinks, and it feels great to carry such an attitude.
But now we’re getting down to business , and here’s what we’ve agreed to do going forward.
A blog story each and every day , alternating days, with no more than a two day break from writing. Starting today with this one, that’s 30 stories a month until travel resumes around the world.
2. A Kindle book written and published by the 1st of every month, again – until travel resumes around the world, with the first one being published October 1st.
3. Photos , Videos and daily thoughts posted on our onlyfans account every day – and if you guys like it, i’ll do it perpetually.
4. Since I’m a night owl and most of you are in Europe or USA/Canada , I’ll be on onlyfans to reply to Direct Messges – for those who tip – from about midnight.
5. There’s a “Go Live” option on my onlyfans page. I ‘might’ entertain doing this, if the tips to do so are significant enough. Truth be told, online domination is wholly new to me. What I’d prefer is to find a volunteer femdom slave who’d Wael and I would tease and control live on camera. We’ll see.
6. Whereas before femdom sessions were only conducted at my place , I understand some of you who are still in Bangkok might not want to make the BTS trip to Punnawitti station – 2 stops beyond Wael’s place at On Nut. Therefore, until I’ve moved back to my soi 11 abode, I’m now open to hotel visits.
In fact, I’d probably say I’d prefer doing my bdsm sessions at your hotel or condo, simply because my new condo is so small compared to my old one. I mean, it does have a majestic 30 foot window on the 38th floor which presents a spectacular view of the city , and it is designed somewhat like an American loft. But it feels like a thin slice of brick cheese living here.
Yes, there’s these impressive stairs that traverse 30 feet upward to my tiny bedroom – and we could hold the teasing part of our sessions there – but you’d probably have the same feeling I have once you’re on the bed … like you’re on the precipice of falling 10,000 feet to your death as the far side of the bed is pushed tight up against the crystal clear ceiling to floor window on the 38th floor.
Downstairs , there’s a sofa fit for 2, a tiny coffee table, a tv , and a ladder. Yup, a ladder.
I had to climb that fucking thing 500 times this week to store all the stuff that won’t fit in this place.
Because that’s what this condo is bascially, air. They’re selling air. No word of a lie – I could throw a baseball as high up as I could in my room – and there’s no way in hell it’d hit the ceiling. It’d be fucking awesome if I could get a contractor in here and find a way to suspend you guys from the ceiling though. Alas, I’ll probably go with tying you to this ladder here and finish you off on the bed.
The facilities though, wowza. There’s a climbing wall on the roof – one that I intend to poke you slaves in the balls with a bamboo pole as I make you try to climb it.
There’s a running track on the roof as well, so you’ll be sitting there on the grass waiting for me to get all nice and sweaty as I run – just so you can suck and lick my smelly shoes, socks and feet thereafter.
Arita, Wael and I shot hoops yesterday on what has to be the highest basketball court in the city. I’d like to say I was the female iteration of Michael Jordan , but you’ll see in the video I’m far from.
And that’s the point of my OnlyFans page.
Whereas for most of you just reading about the new place and imagining me shooting hoops is and has been fine enough, for those of you who want to actually see Wael and I walk you through the facilities of the new condo , see what I’m talking about regarding the 30feet window in my tiny loft, and see me shoot hoops , you can see all three videos plus the Tease & Denial video I posted earlier over on my onlyfans page.
That’s just today. It’s going to be like that every day. There will be a story here on the blog , and if that’s enough for you, that’s great. For those who want more , you can really get to know me through my onlyfans page, and if you want to delve even deeper into the “getting to know me” experience, you can even go live with me over on onlyfans once we’ve agreed on an appropriate tip amount.
Folks, that’s how I envision being able to stay and live in Bangkok.
Oh sure, I have my small shop at the market where Mistress Wael sells her perfume, (please donate a dollar or two to help her gofundme out ) and it’s there that I’ll be selling all my Gucci , Versace and Victoria Secret line of used clothes for pennies on the dollar. Yay 🙁
If I’m lucky that’ll pay for food. Onlyfans will pay for my rent and expenses. And the 1 session per month will be my spending money. That’s the plan!
And if this onlyfans idea takes off , and I become a writer/video content provider , well then – the sky is the limit isn’t it?
Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going back to see how many men I can get to show up at the steam room to see me naked every night at 8pm , haha 🙂
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