Love and Hope. The two birds that sleep together when I exercise at midnight every night … that is the 2 name I gave them. In the morning I feed them bread when they wake up. At 9pm when I go exercise around my condo they watch me and sometimes sing for me. And when I finish at midnight they sleep. Together. And touch wings like in love. I believe in love. I believe in hope. And I believe in maybe. Her story ‘maybe’ is so powerful. ‘The covid pandemic has lasted 4 months and will last 2 more months minimum before tourists can come back to Bangkok. That is awful, yes? Maybe. Well what if I start …
3 months. 0 sessions. And I am still alive. Wow. Not only that … I feel better and stronger and way more sexy than me in March. In March I was 65 kg. Today I hit 59kg … yes down 6kg. Why? How? I learned a new English word lately … budget. How to budget 500 baht to last one month for food. Actually I learn a lot of new english word lately and it really fuck up my Thai. 2 example. Yesterday I went to buy mint from across the street the girl sale all the vegetebles on her cart. I had no idea anymore how to say mint in Thai. I kept saying “mint, mint, mint” to …
Leg Lockdown. I wanted to talk about my #1 trick for human toilet training today. But the only slave who will do the photo and video of my technique is in Phuket so I have to wait. Ok so. Let me to talk to you about a Jiu Jitsu move I use in my Tease & Denial sessions. First let me show you what it is. And then why I use it. And finally how I use it. Leg Lockdown for Tease & Denial My favourite classes in Jiu Jitsu – the classes they teach a move and I think “yes I can use that in my sessions!” Leg Triangles I use for our play wrestling. Feet on …
I cannot believe this week. And I think I will never forget about it – ever. I had every emotion. Scared. Cry. Fear. Angry. – and that was only on Monday. Scare because i feel like I give up. Covid is too much. I cannot support everybody. And when I dream every night I dream about death. I am a happy girl I never dream about something like that. I cry after my dad call me and yell at me again – because I snap and yell back to him. Deep inside my heart I understand him. I understand why he feel mad. He has one leg only. Had accident when I was in Grade 7. Construction accident on …
Post Orgasm Techniques. To learn from myself I watched all my videos yesterday. Took all day. And I was mad at myself. “Why in my videos I don’t focus on my post orgasm techniques and instead I just stop filming?” Not good. I have to fix that. Because I focus so much on post-orgasm techniques in every session I do … not only the Tease & Denial sessions. I have so many things I do. So let me explain to you first – why post-orgasm part of the session is SO important. And after … I will explain some of the techniques I use to help you understand. “Some” not “all” my techniques. If I write for 1 week I …
Did you ever order food and after the food come you said “fuck … why didn’t I order the other food I was thinking about?” Or did you ever try one awful food … and then try something worse … and think ‘wow’ … the first food – no so bad! In my last story I told you I will explain how I take away the fear from my scat slave. I told you I had a special technique. Actually … I have 2 technique. One is mental fear. One is just fear of my poo in the mouth. So I want to talk about mental fear first. Because I know I can make your mouth not to be scared …
Well, isn’t this fun? What cha’ doin’? I’ve got my feet up on the sofa here sipping a cup of crappy insta-coffee, the kind that comes in packs of 3’s and leaves the taste buds a little unsatisfied , know what I mean? Got my laptop on – you guess it – my lap , and until a few minutes ago I didn’t even realize that I had my right hand down my sweats resting on my pussy. I haven’t showered since yesterday and this is the third day I’m wearing these grey sweat pants – but I have changed my panties daily , so at least i’m somewhat kempt. That’s how relaxed things are, and you know what? I’m …
Making human toilet training hot and sexy is my new goal. When your head mistress taught me about bdsm she say to me every day “find a hole and fill it.” And no is not talking about anal sex. Supply and demand. Find a fetish with little supply , a lot of demand , and do things different. So I am. I am making toilet training super sexy and hot. Because I watched about 1000 toilet training videos now. All are mean , messy , and gross. Not one video show what the submissive slave wants the most. a) To be scared and want to be submissive anyway. b) To be excited. c) To be able to serve me perfectly. …
Last week I was thinking only about how to use plastic wrap in the mouth to train new toilet slaves. How it would be perfect to get used to have my poo in the mouth … but take away the fear. Can experience everything … and nothing … at the same time. I could filter pee with no spill. With no fear and no spill I can make a perfect human toilet. And then this fucking Covid steal my sessions from me >< Every day now I have a bigger problem and even bigger problem. Until today I say to myself enough. I want to feel like a Mistress again. And I did chat on my phone with many …
I’m writing for Mistress Wael right from memory of the talk I had with her tonight. All the credit goes to her for the topic and her “research” , but the words needed to explain her theory are beyond what she’s able to write. At first I asked her “do you really want me to publish what you’re experimenting with? Cuz it might scare guys off.” But she showed me email proof that her guys are loving the results – even if it is totally opposite of what I try to accomplish in my own Tease & Denial sessions. So let me reassure you guys before I begin here – that normal teasing sessions complete with the volcanic like orgasms …
